lala mhmh yup

never thnk it could happen.. it did!!

college experience #1- Boy opens door for me... hehe

College is crazy i work at JCPennys I am a sunday school teacher this is insane

im back .. for a wonderous trip to texas.. :)

I Hope they get divorced.

BAYSIDE Where will I be When there's pain as far as eyes can see I'll stand in line for days and nights, for making up lost time And this is how it feels So now I cut these loveless wrists My head sure hurts today I'll take another twenty pills and try to make my troubles go away So now I cut these loveless wrists My head sure hurts today I'll take another twenty pills and try to make my troubles go away Away I once felt strong It wouldn't last for long I wrap my hands around my neck Kill myself again Cut my arms with the biggest knife that I can stand Why waste time Lifting my head Keep it down And save face instead Why waste time Lifting my head Keep it down Save face instead I once felt strong It wouldn't last for long I wrap my hands around my neck Kill myself again Cut my arms with the biggest knife that I can stand It's more than I can stand

i had such a bad weekend. you dont even know! but i did get a car.

it is time to go

ok so i have this option...should i stay here in willmar..over the summer, or should i go there for the summer???i dont know PCA here i come!

!! i passed my drivers test this morning at 11:36am !! I had the Bruce guy..i totally failed parallel parking, and 90 degree back wasnt perfect. he was like B.-"i see its your birthday" me-"yea" B.-"what do you want for your birthday?" me-"my drivers license" B.-"really..well...(literally 5 min. later)...happy birthday" he hands me the sheet! OMG i started to cry..(big baby) yes thats what i am!! i was very excited!!! i went to the college today, i took my placement test for pseo..that went sooooooo good!!!! i was very happy about that. jessica and joanna came over tonight!! we went to jcpenny and then got our brows waxed! good..we went to godfathers..i havent laughed so much in probably forever!!it was really fun...then we raided my closet and had fun...thats not all but my hands hurt..! yup..

pseo i hope so

You know with each day that passes by, I pray to god I'll never forget who you are. You mean everything to me. I love you Ooooh Ooooh Ooh I pray You were in my dream Before I even knew that there was a you and me, Now I can't wait to see your smile, When I wake up each day, It makes it worth while With the kinda love you plant inside, Specially with a heart so empty as mine. All your soft tenderness is the one thing that I don't wanna miss. I pray, When it's time for me to say goodbye I'll never forget looking in your eyes, I pray, That I feel your touch And that God doesn't forget our love, I pray, When I close my eyes, I can still see visions of you on my mind. I pray, That I see you in another life, I pray that you still by my side. Oh I pray. Everything that you give to me, Only comes in a fantasy, It seems like life goes by so fast, But in this time I wanna make it last. (I pray) I hate that we live to die, But only God knows why (I pray) We all have a purpose, And to see you again it'll be worth it. I pray, When it's time for me to say goodbye I'll never forget looking in your eyes, I pray, That I feel your touch And that God doesn't forget our love, I pray, When I close my eyes, I can still see visions of you on my mind. I pray, That I see you in another life, I pray that you still by my side. Oh I pray. [Slow rap:] I wish that I could stop time, I wish that I could rewind, To the very begining of every second of my life. To ask God on my hands and knees, To never let me forget all my special memories. See I'm only promised today, And if it's my time to go, I don't want the love of my life to ever fade away, So one last time Let me open my eyes. To see what my life used to be like. Oh God.

this could really be the worst day of my life!! Dear God, Please be here for me.Please help me. AMEN

how do i tell her i am sorry?

its a good thing i tell myself but sometimes i wonder if it really will work out....i hope it does

she really makes me mad pretty much all of the time!!i dont know what to say to her 5 weeks!!

I have no clue what to do!! I feel so alone, but I am not going to make this one of those whole my life sucks entry..I have many of those already! anyway I guess I pissed sophie off, but she told me that she wasn’t upset at school and then tiff comes and tells me that sophie is really pissed, about the note thing if she would have asked to see it I would have gave it to her but she never asked or even looked like she wanted to see it… and that she was talking about me almost the whole way home..i just don’t understand and now her sister is telling me that I need to shut the fuck up,,,I hardly talked at all today during class and now I guess she is mad because I was “ignoring” her….hell if I say something I get a problem and then if I don’t say anything at all there is an effing problem too! I just don’t understand I thought something way different but I was wrong I guess….just another bump that I need to get over I guess My Spanish teacher had a really good conversation with us today! it was really weird.. she opened up discussion about how stress and depression and eating disorders effect our lives..she asked why it seems to be more “socially” acceptable to be really thin and what not…she told us that she thinks that we have problems like what we have because we have not learned how do deal with our problems..we just go for the quick fix and call it good…and as she was sitting there talking about think I was like holy moly that’s exactly right..thats exactly what we do, that’s why we are soo stressed and have so many problems that we just say sorry and that’s it…it was crazy so I sat there for 40 minutes and thought about all of the people I fought with this year and well not only this year..i think I almost cried..in that effing desk knowing that I could have done soo much more that I actually did, knowing that I really could have saved myself and these people suffering and the pain, that I really am immature and that I really cannot handle what is thrown at me all the time..

i dont understand..i just dont understand and i suddenly changed my mind on the whole friends/private/public thing i know why but then i dont know too...people really suck these days and the sad thing is that i am probably one of them congrats to casey for passing her test!!!!