church sucked tonight.i just left instead of going to applebees..i was in a good mood then i was there alone in the corner..while the retarted patrick was wispering shit to kam..and then staring at me! it pissed me off because i know he was talkign shit..ugh..i am never going to wednesday night prime time again..i hate it i am always by myself..alone in the corner while chris had jake .. kelsey had alicia..pat and ryan, phil, kam. joel adn tyler...nathan and adam,, alana adn sarah do not go anymore.. i feel like its not a place to be accepted or be connected with God anymore, and that is sad..so i will do my own damn bible studies and pray alone.. but without the immature people..i am not sayign that everyone there is immature but most are... i feel liek shit..i bought somethings and my mom said she thought i was buying my friends..i told her to shut it.. adn that i havce been REALLY good friends with these people for A LONG time, adn these people know that i would never buy their friendship..i just figured since we have the same interest and since i had extra money...but that made me think.i kinda hope they wont feel like i am buying their friendship.because i am not adn for the reasons just explained..who knows .. i was told tonight that i am a push-over tonight...