its been almost 2 whole weeks and still cant sleep at night.....when it do sleep its ususally not for more then 2 hrs a night. when i was little and things were bothering me or i was upset i would go into scotts room at night and sleep with him cuz i felt safe and when i was older i stopped doing that but knowing he was right there in the room next to me made me feel just taht much better and now knowing hes not there is hard i cant sleep knowing hes never gonna be there i gotta find a way to sleep.....cuz when i do sleep its not nice. when i do sleep i get woken up by the image of his wrecked car against the tree and i wake up scared and crying and i dont know what to do. i miss him so much and i dont think people get how this is affecting me i know i appear calm on the outside but on the inside i'm screwed up i'm scared and lost and i never know wehre to go from where i'm at. i walk around and i dont know where i'm going i'm not all there and people think i'm fine.....no one seems to notice that i've been wondering around like a lost puppy.....its cuz i am i really am lost. i just want him to come back to me......i know i should tell people how i'm feeling but i cant talk to my friends cuz they didnt know him and they cant relate and i just cant talk to my parents i feel like theres no one for me to talk to. i still keep expecting to hear his car drive up the driveway numb