Nothing says it more than this... This is why I don't want to go to Japan... I love you Sometimes I'm selfish fake You're always a true friend And I don't deserve you 'Cause I'm not there for you Please forgive me again I wanna be there for you Someone you can come to Runs deeper than my bones I wanna be there for you I wanna be there for you Swirling shades of blue Slow dancing in your eyes Sun kisses the earth And I hush my urge to cry, cry I wanna be there for you Someone you can come to Runs deeper than my bones I wanna be there for you I wanna be there for you 'Cause I hear the whispered words In your masterpiece beautiful You speak the unspeakable through I love you too I wanna be there for you Someone you can come to I wanna be there for you And be someone you can come to The love runs deeper than my bones I wanna be there for you

Hello I don't know what I wanna do. I want to stay and be here with you. But I do want to go to Japan. That would be so much fun. And even though you wouldn't be able to touch me. Know that I would come back for you. I would nothing could keep me from you. I love you. But I don't want to leave you I don't want to not be there for you. I want to know you are safe all the time I love you so much

North Korea is starving. And I had Mcdonalds for lunch.

Sudan, Rhwanda! How can everyone sit here and continue living without batting an eye? If you don't know what is happening Look it up. It is genocide. Right now in sudan over 2 million people are being run out of their own country by their gov't. In Sudan the black natives wanted a different gov't other than the Arabic one. So they rebelled... The gov't said that they didn't have to have the blacks so they descided to try to kill all of them. And so far it has been successful. Now over 300,000 people have died. But see the UN won't do anything because the gov't says that they don't support what is happening. It was the same thing with the Hootsies and the tootsies... Ethnic cleansing... In one hundred days a million people were killed with machetes... ONE HUNDRED DAYS 1,000,000 PEOPLE WERE KILLED!!! I hate living on EARTH... THIS PLACE SUCKS!!!

What is it with beating other people up during homecoming? What about this week give people the thought of kicking and beating other people? Someone told me with a laugh that they helped kick the crap out of a kid and all of his younger siblings.... What the FUCK???

You scored as Believer.. You are a Believer. Whether it be religious or just your ethics and morals. You believe that heart breaks and injuries are just another part of life. Everything can be overcome if you believe in yourself and in your life. Believer.83%Confused.67%In Control.58%Cold as Steel50%Dirty, Black, Free50%Trapped.42% If I don't have the strength to believe in myself then what do I do?

Ahh... Suspended from school yet again... But see when you get suspended from school, you are suspended of life. I cant be without the outside world. My life sinks into a neverending hole. The blackness in my life takes over. I am nothing. I am no one. I am not home now nor do I want to be. Home=Hell. Please let me back to school. Please... You don't understand how hard it is out here... You dont have any Idea... I won't smoke anymore pot... I won't. I will apologize to those kids I beat up. I will apologize... You must help me... Let me come back my life is on suspension along with myself...

Dearest Jenna, I love you. I do. I honestly and completely love you. There is nothing that you could do to break us up. Nothing! I am so in love with you that if you wanted i would tear my own shirt off right now if you asked that of me. I love you so much. The reason I am sad. Is nothing that you did. It is the whole annie thing. The whole being strong thing. I had to sit there and watch my mom and my sisters cry over her and I held back. I had to...I was on the verge of tears as well but i couldn't I had to be strong for all of us... Please dont worry about me.. You have enough stuff to worry about. I am just stressed out. Once school starts I will fall into submissal. It will be better then. Trust me. Sometimes suicide comes to mind. I would never do it. I hope... But you know how it is... I know you do you just move on... but i love you very much

It keeps ringing... The phone keeps ringing but I keep dying... The world keeps calling but I am too far off to answer its cries... Now that I am out here my life is turning... The darkness sinks behind the moon as it shines down onto me... Liberate your mind... Please free yourselves from my prison... But know there is only pain outside our skin... so once you let someone in get ready for your reckoning...

Eeeeeieeee oh! Now! Wake up! I'm on the inside You can't punish the sane oh how weak you stand I'm at your strong side Wake up Dad, I'm a man Can you stomach this? I've licked the inside Pierce the chest of a God! Who is the hard charger? Liar And my fist in place {of} your mouth You've been a bad dog Locked in, moralize the sounds that surround my nerves Twitching to please you Try that shit again motherfucker I'll knock your teeth in It's hard charger Liar My fist in place {of} your mouth Come play my games Wake up... And I'm never going back there once again And I loved her so much I was afraid And to sit here in the silence, listen for cries, oh I, I've been denied I moan, I miss you Like a beggar to Christ, what I wish of you Grown on the outside It'll come out of our salary, in similar effect It's hard charger Liar My fist in place {of} your mouth It's hard charger Liar Come play my games Wake up... Never fucked her never I give it back to you Never fucked her never Yes back to Never fucked her never Give it back Never fucked her never Give it back And I'm never going back there once again And I loved her so much I was afraid And to sit here in the silence, listen for cries No I've been denied No I'm never going higher... No I'm never going higher... No I'm never going higher... No I'm never going higher...

I'm going to ride this plane out of your life again. I wish that I could stay but you argue. More than this I wish you could've seen my face In backseat staring out the window. I'll do anything for you, Kill anyone for you. So leave yourself intact 'Cause I will be coming back. In a phrase to cut these lips, I love you. The morning will come In the press of every kiss With your head upon my chest Where I will annoy you With every waking breath Until you decide to wake up. I've earned through hope and faith The curves around your face That I'm the one you'll hold forever. If morning never comes for either one of us, Then this I pray to you wherever. I'll do anything for you. This story is for you. ('Cause I'd do anything you want me to... for you.) I'll do anything for you, Kill anyone for you. So leave yourself intact 'Cause I won't be coming back. In a phrase to cut these lips, I loved you. The morning will come In the press of every kiss With your head upon my chest Where I will annoy you With every waking breath Until you decide to wake up. The morning will come In the press of every kiss With your head upon my chest Where I will annoy you With every waking breath 'Til you decide to wake up.

I wanna live I wanna leave I wanna open up and breathe I wanna go I wanna be I wanna feel it constantly Gotta show Gotta stay I've gotta feeling that won't go away I've gotta know If they got away My opportunities Just one, Chance is all I ever wanted Just one, Time I'd like to win the game From now on, I'd take the chance if I can have it Just one, just one I need to think I need to feed I need to see if I still bleed I need a place I need a time Cause I need to step outside that line Gonna give Gonna take I'm gonna scream till I'm awake I'm gonna push Gonna pull Open up the door Just one, Chance is all I ever wanted Just one, Time I'd like to win the game From now on, I'd take the chance if I can have it Just one, just one And if I knew When the door was open I'd go through I would go on through And I can say What I do never be the same Never be the same

I thought it was too good to be true I found somebody who understands me Someone who would help me to get through And fill an emptiness i had inside me But you kept inside and I just denied Some things that we should have both said I knew it was too good to be true Cause i'm the only one who understands me What happened to us We used to be so perfect, now we're lost and lonely What happened to us And deep inside I wonder, did i lose my only? Remember they thought we were too young To really know what it takes to make it But we had survived off what we have done So we could show them all that they're mistaken But who could have known the lies that would grow Until we could see right through them Remember they knew we were too young We still don't know what it takes to make it We could have made it work, we could have found a way, We should have done our best to see another day But we kept it all inside until it was too late And now we're both alone, the consequence we pay For throwing it all away, for throwing it all away...

Sitting here everything is so quiet. Everyone is asleep. But only I am awake. The shadows creep over the walls and to the chair of which I am sitting. They creep up to me as if the blob sucking us all into it. so I ask if the end is near. I scream mindlessly into the night, but no one hears. I have become the invisible man I am no one! I walk around and no one sees me. I went into my old school. I stood in the back of the room and laughed and cried but no one turned. I even slapped the teacher. I threatened the students the world. But not one batted an eye. I think it is coming back to me. I think i remember why I am invisible...

1. EVER BEEN GIVEN AN ENGAGEMENT RING? No 2. LONGEST RELATIONSHIP? five months two days 3. LAST GIFT YOU RECEIVED? Magazine 4. EVER DROPPED A CELL PHONE? mhmm. 5. WHEN'S THE LAST TIME YOU WORKED OUT? friday Had to haul shit 6. THING(S) YOU SPEND A LOT OF MONEY ON? food 7. LAST FOOD YOU ATE? Diet Pepsi 8. FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX? Noses 9. 3 FAVORITE BANDS? Panic at the disco, Rammstien, System of a down 10. WHERE DO YOU LIVE? In a house... 11. HIGH SCHOOL YOU ATTENDED: Willmar 12. CELL PHONE SERVICE PROVIDER: Dont care 13. FAVORITE MALL STORE: EB Games 14. LONGEST JOB YOU HAD: three years as a Janitor 15. DO YOU OWN A PAIR OF DICE? Yeah 16. DO YOU PRANK CALL PEOPLE?: No... Yeah! 17. LAST WEDDING YOU ATTENDED: Aunts 18. FIRST FRIEND YOU'D CALL IF YOU WON THE LOTTERY: Jenna adam 19. LAST TIME YOU SAW YOUR BEST FRIEND: which one 20. FAVORITE FAST FOOD RESTAURANT: Wendys 21. BIGGEST LIE YOU HAVE EVER HEARD: I am fat 23. WHERE'S YOUR FAVORITE PLACE TO EAT WITH FRIENDS? out 24. CAN YOU COOK? Mhmm 25. WHAT CAR DO YOU DRIVE?: 1994 Escort wagon 26. BEST KISSER: Jenna 28. MOST DISLIKED FOODS: Water Chestnuts 29. THING YOU LIKE MOST ABOUT YOURSELF: my eyes 30. THING YOU DISLIKE MOST ABOUT YOURSELF: My bruise are so noticable 32. LONGEST SHIFT YOU HAVE WORKED AT A JOB?: Twelve and a half hours 33. FAVORITE MOVIE? Starship troopers 34. CAN YOU SING? mmmmmm no. 35. LAST CONCERT ATTENDED? umm Graduation 36. LAST KISS? today 37. LAST MOVIE RENTED: Date Movie-BUMFIGHT 38.ONE THING YOU NEVER LEAVE THE HOUSE WITHOUT: wallet 39. FAVORITE VACATION SPOT?: Colorado 43. LAPTOP OR DESKTOP COMPUTER?: Laptop 44. FAVORITE COMEDIAN?: Dane Cook 45. DO YOU SMOKE? no 46. SLEEP WITH OR WITHOUT CLOTHES? depends 47. WHO SLEEPS WITH YOU EVERY NIGHT?: Jesus 48. DO LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIPS WORK?: they can 49. HOW MANY TIMES HAVE YOU BEEN PULLED OVER BY THE POLICE? zero 50. PANCAKES OR FRENCH TOAST? toast 51. DO YOU LIKE COFFEE?: not plain.two creamers two sugas 52 HOW DO YOU LIKE YOUR EGGS? over hard 53. DO YOU BELIEVE IN ASTROLOGY?: no 54. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?: Jenna 55. LAST PERSON ON YOUR MISSED CALL LIST?: Mario 56. WHAT WAS THE LAST TEXT MESSAGE YOU RECIEVED?: I love you - jenna 58. NUMBER OF PILLOWS?: 3 59. WHAT ARE YOU WEARING RIGHT NOW? shorts and a t-shirt 60. PICK A LYRIC, ANY LYRIC: You don't know what you do every time you walk into the room, I am afraid to move... 61. WHAT KIND OF JELLY DO YOU LIKE ON YOUR PB & J?: Grape 62. CAN YOU PLAY POOL?: yeah 63. CAN YOU SWIM? yeah 64. FAVORITE ICE CREAM? Orange Passion 65. DO YOU LIKE MAPS? NO 66. TELL ME A RANDOM FACT ABOUT YOURSELF: I am doing this bottom to top 68. EVER ATTEND A THEME PARTY?: Do i look dumb 69. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SEASON winter 70. LAST TIME YOU LAUGHED AT SOMETHING STUPID? myself 71. WHAT TIME DID YOU WAKE UP THIS MORNING ? six 72. BEST THING ABOUT WINTER?: Christmas 73. LAST TIME A COP GAVE YOU A TICKET?: ...Never... 75. NAME OF YOUR FIRST PET?: Dancer 76. DO YOU THINK PIRATES ARE COOL OR OVERRATED?: Stupid Girl pirates 77. WHAT ARE YOU DOING THIS WEEKEND?? nothing 78. BIRTHDATE 6-15-89 79. WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE: a better person 85. ARE YOU ON A LAPTOP?: I am poor 87. ARE YOU SMILING?: yeah 89. DO YOU MISS SOMEONE RIGHT NOW?: yes. Jenna 90. IF YOU COULD GO ANYWHERE IN THE WORLD WHERE WOULD YOU GO? In side the place they make dwarfs 92. ARE YOU IN HIGH SCHOOL?: yeah one more year 93. DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH?: Orlando Bloom *wink* 94. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE NAME? Merick 95. WHAT COLOR IS YOUR BATHING SUIT?: Blue 96. DOES YOUR SCHOOL START IN AUGUST?: I am not a fricking Genuis 97. DID YOU GO ON VACATION LAST MONTH?: Cant afford it 98. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN ON A CRUISE?: i've been in a canoe 99. DO YOU HAVE A SISTER - Two unfortuantaly 100. ARE YOU UPSTAIRS?: no 101. ARE YOU IN LOVE?: Yes two people 102. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN THE HOSPITAL? Yeah Knee cap incident 103. DO YOU WISH YOU COULD SEE ANYONE PARTICULAR RIGHT NOW? Jenna 104. WHAT JEWELRY ARE YOU WEARING? bruises 105. WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO DO AFTER THIS SURVEY! work

Cut yourself one night and wake up the next morning and act like nothing happened was it as difficult for you as it was for me?

I totally took this once and I got this You're a Romantic Kisser For you, kissing is all about feeling the romance You love to kiss under the stars or by the sea The perfect kiss involves the perfect mood It's pretty common for kisses to sweep you off your feetWhat Kind of Kisser Are You? so is that good or bad

So leave yourself intact 'Cause I will be coming back. In a phrase to cut these lips, I love you. The morning will come In the press of every kiss With your head upon my chest Where I will annoy you With every waking breath Until you decide to wake up. I've earned through hope and faith The curves around your face That I'm the one you'll hold forever. If morning never comes for either one of us, Then this I pray to you wherever.

Why did you take all the tomatoes, if you didn't even want them all.

It is what makes me cry. The suffering. Of everyone. You, my friends, your family. Everyone. Everything that has happened to me, I take for granted or I say that is not good enough for me. I am not going to do that anymore. And do you want to know why? I was given another chance. I was given a chance with a beautiful soul. Someone who has the power of brightening my day. The person I speak of has brought hope and love and courage back into my life. I love her. She is more than anything I could have asked for. A dream come true. I thought that I was meant to be alone and watch everyone else have a good time. Then this person came along. Walked into my life and slapped me twice in the face, and said, "Take a minute and open your eyes. See me and see how wonderful this place can be." I am not meant to be alone. I ask God alot if you are made for me. Or if I am made for you. I don't know. But right now, I want you to be happy. I want you to live and love and know what it is like to have both of those. I love you Jenna Hafner. I love you, always. I promise I do. that is the only way to say it. I LOVE YOU!