We all think that it's allways the men who treat people like shit.
That's not allways the case.

I'm an absolute dick to men.
I'm not one for commitment, yet i fall into these relationships, hope to fall fall in love.
Yet that never happens.
I go astray.
I allways say, I'd hate for someone to cheat on me.

Out of all the relationships i've been in. I think there's about 1 or two I haven't been with anyone else.

Yeah, when your 15 I guess that's not somthing serious. Really.
But when your 17-18 and people are wanting you to settle down a little,
It's kind of a bit more than
" I'm really sorry, I kissed such-a-body"

When your trying to keep him from the truth and trying not to say "I'm really sorry, for the past 9 months, I've slept with over 12 guys"
And none of them have been you.

You feel a little of a gobshite,

I could go into the whole, blaming. "I was drunk - They meant nothing"
Which is possibly true.
But not what someone wants to hear.

"I'm sorry, I.. I don't love you"

To be honest I hardly feel anything for you.

heh, It's so american sitcom.

I feel such a douche-bag.
But I can't turn back the time and make this all go away.
I do dislike having a conscience.

But, I don't want to settle down. I'm 18 and I was fun, and whatever else.
I can't exactly help that.
It's like bio-chemstry, or whatever.

"The longer you leave it, the more it will hurt him"

I can't hurt him anymore.
Really.

But I can't just drag it out eaither. I'm not that much of a bitch.

It's alot to moan about really.
But, It kinda hurts me, to know i'm hurting him.

Christmas eve, He told me he loved me.
I went out, on the piss' as-per.

I didn't go home.

Meh.

I am such a douche-bag.