damn....i dont know wtf im doing any more. i want ta be happy but i cant, i think im depressed but im not....i just...am. && i hate it. i try sooooo hard, and yet im still in the same spot. It just aint fair. All i want is ta be happy, and i know how ta achive that, but...i also feel like id be holding maself back. I love him, and i want to spend the rest ma life wit him, but we both have different dreams, and both have ta make sacrafices....but maybe im making to big of one? i dont know