wow i thought things were bad befor... well on firday my best friend shawn is moving... for the past 4-5 nights i have been crying myself to sleep... its really hard for me to let him leave... and its gunna be even more hard not to cut... cause he made me promise that i would never cut myself again... wow this is gunna be really hard... i cut myself for the last time lastnite... lets hope it was for the last time...<33... i need to keep this promise... i love him too much to break it... i'll just have to do something else... maybe take up dancing or piano lessions againn... or maybe just start smoking moree... heh... i have no idea... but the other nite i went w/ him to the fair... that was the last time i'll ever get to see him... i hate letting go of someone you love and trust... hes one of the few ppl i trust ne more... and to make things worse... im not speaking to Stacey... shes been such a bitch to me lately... plus she has better thing to do then talk to mee... oh,well ... all the ppl that i love are being cut off one by one... and just yesterday i found out the my other rlly good friend Casie is moving in w/ her father and they are moving down to Florida... ehh ... one thing after another... oh yehh the guy down the road that i always used to hang out w/ ... well we're not talking ne more either... he got what he wanted from me and ditched me... its really quite sad... its just like the 3 f's... Find her Fuck her and Forget her... well hes a dick and i hope he dies... and my cousin matt has been telling my mom what i have been doing... he told my mom about me giving the guy down the road head and stuff... soo my mom isnt letting me do ne thing...ehhh .... my life sucks... but heyy this week hasnt been too bad... i've had worse... knock om wood... well im outty... im actually in a really good mood today... i hope this lasts for a whilee<33 byee <33