i put bubbly cuz its cool to feel that way i guess im so fucking bored out of my mind i could go nuts im left ALONE again well my mom goes out and has fun well this weekend im going to try and get out as much as i can anyone want to do anything PLEASE saturday i think im going to the warehouse need something to do friday though ugh and than all nexted week i have off from school but got to work 2 days ugh about 2 more weeks till i go to the KORN AND MUDVAYNE CONCERT heck ya yo i dont know what else to say but in a month im going to FLORDIA WITH EMILY JEANOTTEEEE yes sir i em your jealous well with my mom too but who cares JK later

Artist: H.I.M. (His Infernal Majesty) Album: Deep Shadows & Brilliant Highlights Title: Beautiful Just one look into your eyes One look and i'm crying 'cause you're so beautiful Just one kiss and i'm alive One kiss and i'm ready to die 'cause you're so beautiful Just one touch and i'm on fire One touch and i'm crying 'cause you're so beautiful Just one smile and i'm wild One smile and i'm ready to die 'cause you're so beautiful Oh and you're so beautiful My darling Oh you're so beautiful You're so beautiful Oh my baby You're so beautiful And you're so beautiful Oh my darling Oh my baby And you're so beautiful

well on tuesday i got in my first bad crash my friend was driving and the road got bad and we slid to the other lane where the car came and crash into us but all i got was cuts on my fingers and my back and chest hurts sounds like fun but the good thing is well we all lived

well today we start our new term i have art comm. 11 and alg. 1 they all seem so boring but anyway i had alot of people in my lunch like eric, jessica t, jessica g and jessie and jen and my buddy steve frank AND JEFF um much more people but those are the main ones so yeah that is the only part i like about our new term what else to say the reason why i feel energetic is cuz im dancing at our basketball game and i know that we will show those fucking cardettes( our high school dance team) off cuz we actionally know how to dance haha but yeah do to redo my make up and shit hope im ready by 7 cuz we have to be there by 7:15 yeppers

well today we start our new term i have art comm. 11 and alg. 1 they all seem so boring but anyway i had alot of people in my lunch like eric, jessica t, jessica g and jessie and jen and my buddy steve frank um much more people but those are the main ones so yeah that is the only part i like about our new term what else to say the reason why i feel energetic is cuz im dancing at our basketball game and i know that we will show those fucking cardettes( our high school dance team) off cuz we actionally know how to dance haha but yeah do to redo my make up and shit hope im ready by 7 cuz we have to be there by 7:15 yeppers

a song to a certain person i shell not name try and guess if you may Artist: Evanescence Album: Remixes or Bonus Tracks Title: You The words have been drained from this pencil Sweet words that I want to give you And I can't sleep..I need to tell you...goodnight When we're together I feel perfect When I'm pulled away from you I fall apart All you say is sacred to me Your eyes are so blue, I can't look away as we lay in the stillness You whisper to me, Lady, marry me, promise you'll stay with me Oh you don't have to ask me, you know you're all that I live for You know I'd die just to hold you, stay with you Somehow I'll show you that you are my night sky I've always been right behind you Now I'll always be right beside you So many nights, I've cried myself to sleep Now that you love me, I love myself I never thought I would say that I never thought there'd be you

this is a song i really love song to someone far away west Artist: Eisley Album: Room Noises Title: I Wasn't Prepared Oh, when the day is blue I'll sit here wondering about you And how the pollen fell All around your face in strange yellow patterns But, i wasn't prepared for this Oh, i wasn't prepared for this When the morning came The bees flew down and Wrapped themselves around me And that's when i spoke the word To have them trace your face for me in pollen But, i wasn't prepared for this Oh, i wasn't prepared for this Come, come back to me, my, my darling Come, come back to me, my, my darling I wasn't prepared for this Oh, i wasn't prepared for this When the day is blue I'll sit here wondering about you

i dont know what to write well let see what is going on wednesday was mine and anthony's 2 month wahoo (not) well we went out friday(yesterday) he got my flowers witch means to me im sorry but i dont know tonight i went to a movie with eric jess sarah(jess's cousins who is so cool)hostel was the movie i truely would say DONT GO FOR THE FIRST HALF HOUR cuz its all boobs and sex and they said pussy about ten million times in it! other wise its just all killing love it love the blood! also two 15 year olds like me one lives here and one is well a chick i would with's bro fun stuff going now later

today she wears the color black with a depressed look on her face people cant see her nor hear her the world is all cold as she takes a blade and cuts her throat so no one can hear her scream not even the true black she bleeds but in the end she fails at life in its self

you took all my pain and made it go away from my sadden soul you made me laugh when I was really sad you never left me until my problem was solved you made sure I was ok your truely a good friend your the first person that knows when I hurt you always tell me it will be ok and it ends up to be you never hurt me like the others did i wish to be your best friend forever and to never be for gotten cuz i know you will always be my bestest friend...

ugh i need help my boyfriend is cheating on me and he wont tell him i try to get him to but he wont i would rather have him tell me than hide it ,it just hurts when it is hidden from me than as to him just tell me ugh im just scared to lose him but soon i will have to let him go cuz i cant sit here knowing he is doing this to me this fucking sucks i cried million and one tears what to do

sickened by the pain when will it ever leave me life is very unhappy without you restless nights panic attacks scared your going to forget me and what we had less food stomach pain I em sick, sick of everything

the ugly I see her in the dark I feel her breath she looks at me in the cold dark way she feels so alone from the world,family, friends,and herself No one wants her because she is so ugly she is fat and can hide her uglyness she never has the body like the others she cries for prettiness but never gets to be she finally finds out the ugly is me....

i really cant tell why im feeling this way stuff with anthony seems so confusing like my feelings for him i really cant tell if its love or lust or nothing at all but im scared to lose him i just need some help

today i had to work 11-3 i didnt feel to well but i did than I CUT MY HAIR like 2 inches and got it layered yay i've been wanting to do that for like ever i hope anthony likes it but will have to see thats all

today i had to work again i woke up and 10:34a.m. and had to be to work by 11 it sucked ass trying to get there on time but i got the 5 to 11 wahoo im good well after work i had to take a 2mins shower cuz my mom wanted us to open our gifts and get to pizza hut to have dinner well i got a -heater for my room -dvd player -24 pack of dr. pepper and $100 oh yeah and hair dye not alot but i really dont care i got to talk to anthony my boyfriend he was doing stuff at his grandparents house for christmas but yeah thats all

well i really cant tell what really has been happening lately but things are going pretty ok we didnt have school yesterday but i had to go to work it sucked real bad first snow day and i end up working geez so much fun well yeah i talked a lil to anthony my bf but he really didnt have much to say he said he would call me tonight well lets see about that hrmmm

i feel so unwanted no one wants to do something with me tonight i feel so disowned not even my mom wants to do something with me my bf said he did but never called god i just want to leave my house than staying in this big house all alone this sucks!!!!!!