i'm going to write here more often now. it'll help me through this time.. maybe this is pathetic, maybe it isn't. so my girlfriend and i broke up. it was my idea, but we had it coming. she's already found someone new. i think about her a lot still. it's been about a week and half. i force that smile on my face everyday at school. thankfully she goes to another. i deleted her, took everything of hers' and put it away. i don't know where that stuff is now.. i may have forgotten what she looks like. today i met a girl. she was nice, but not really. it didn't go great, but it wasn't a catastrophe. i got a hug, but it wasn't like the hug my ex gave me when i first met her. i have no idea for valentines day. i just feel sad. i was so excited for today... let down? yes. after 14 months of dating, she found someone new in less than a day, and started dating him in less than a week. i have too much time on my hands.