Time for another update. Jesse and I are still together. I don't see him as much as I would like. Its weird. When I'm with him I am so happy. I don't want to leave his side. I'm also happy when he's not around. How weird does that sound? Its like l don't have as much fun when he's with my friends. He will sit in one spot the whole night. He doens't get mad if I leave him there. I feel bad though. I always end up sitting with him or we leave. I don't want that. I was to drink and laugh. Take funny pics of my friends. I have always wanted a guy who got along with my friends. Someone who isn't the center of attention but more like the side of attention. He can hold his own. Make people laugh while making me feel special all at the same time. I never really had a guy like that. Well I almost did. Bruce was like that. Oh speaking of Bruce. I ran into him last thursday. It was a little weird but not to bad. Anyhoo. I was at Jesses this weekend. He was supposed to drive out to see me but it didn't happen that way. It was a fun weekend. We hung out with the kids. Took them to Knotts. They had a blast. I found out that Jesse is talking to this girl named savanah. He swears up and down that they didn't have anything together. I don't know though. I havne't liked her from the start. From the first time I took the time to read a backwards message. It was talking about her wanting to be his savana banana. When Chris told he his daughter was named savana I gave the displeased look. So this poor girl is going to get hell from me. I don't like her I never will. Hes going to have to choose. He better choose me. I don't want some little girl giving my husband a valentines gift. Thats not right. Jesse tried to say something about all the guy friends I have. I told him there is a difference. I wouldn't do anything with them. I didn't buy them valentines day gifts. I have introduced his to all of my guy frends. I don't trust his past. Even if he says hes a changed guy. I want to believe him but I can't. Its really hard for me. I don't want him around her. Does that sound wrong? He told me that he wasn't talking to girls to impress me. That he doesn't want to be put in a situation where he can cheat. talking to her isnt impressing me its depressing me. I don't want it.