well things are getting better.
josh says that he is will to stop calling me a whore&stuff. which makes me happy. john and nick were sticking up for me when he was calling me a whore. wehn nick told me i wanted to cry. it made me happy. well i talked to josh during gym yesterday. i think mr.p puts us on a team together on pupose or something.oh well whatever. but uhm so i asked josh why he broke up with me and he said because you got fingered by nick and mike in one night and thats hoeish, so i dont know. i really didnt do anything that night besides make out with nick. it wasnt really a dare but he does make me sound like a whore. he always say s well you made out with nick and you liked anthony but not nick so you probably did and you still do. :/ i really dont but whatever. he asked me if i liked anthony and i told him i did cause i did but not while we were going out. so he told anthony and anthony asked me and i told him yeah i did. so today i asked him who he liked and he said someone alittle and i'm like who. oh duh jackie and he swore on our friendship tha he didnt so i dont know who it is. people say its me but i'm not sure. whatever. i still like josh but i'll never get another chance with him. :/ which makes me sad but i'll get over it. oh well whatever. nick told me today that he still really really likes me so i felt pretty bad. i told him i still like josh so i dont know. i dont want to hurt him again. its not fair at all. so i wont do that to him. i like josh alot but he doesnt seem to believe me about that either. so i dont know,. well i was soo happy today cause he sat by me in lunch like old times and like i was happy. but uhm i'm not going to go out with any other guy tha josh for at least 3 more weeks. the only guy other than josh i would go out with anyway would be like anthony. like whoaa dont tell that one. haha. whatever.
got to go do sme stuff. <333
josh i still really like you.
uhm well to fill you in last saturday me & nick started going out . i liked him . not so much alot . and i told him the truth and everything . but then i told him about like how it is wierd dating i dont know . like he is just my friend . i cant explain it ad no one gets it but really i dont care as long as he is okay with it . uhm but yesterday i broke up with him . i thought he was going to cry . omgOSH i would have shot myself =] but i didnt . and he didnt and i'm glad. i just hope he does what he said he was going to do . get over it and have fun instead of getting so caught up in everything . so i dotn know . but i think we are still friends. YEAH WE ARE. of course. we are never not going to be friends . well i hope not anyways . well whatever . it is kind of likea break thing but it might turn out as just a regular break up . he asked me if i wanted to tell people because he dowesnt want people mad at me but really i dont care. i will find out who my true friends are. if they are mad then it sucks for them but they arent a part of it .
i just hope me & nick will still be friends and everything wont be awkward cause that sucks . soo yeahh .
otherwise everything is good . uhm i dont really like anyone =] =x haha jackiee . shhhh hmmmm ? well anywasy uhm i guess thats all that is really going on . soo i guess i will leave it at that .
hmmm ♥
ahh it's the first day of the year .. wow =)
well just alittle while i got off the phone with nick .. =) he's cool .. got to love nickk =)
uhm well we had our long ass break .. i dont want tog o back to school but oh well .. and we had our first basketball the other week and we won and we hav won tomorrow .. i hope we win .. we are going to kick ass this year ;)
uhm well i liked anthony not sure anymore.. i guess i just want kim to be happy with him .. i dont know .. but uhm so i dont want to get in the way .. uhmm with joshh .. i dont know about him either .. i guess i'm not sure with anyone .. life is soo boring without a boyfriend .. i could have one but i guess just not the right people .. lets just see what happens ;)
love ya bunches <333
well as hard as this hurts josh broke up with me.
grr. he makes me mad.
he thinks i like nick.
with nick all it is, is friendship and he even knows that. nick is awesome but just a friend.
i just cant stand the bullshit anymore.
he called me a whore and a cunt.
now what bullshit is that?
real bullshit.
it freaking pisses me off.
and like i still like him and all but i dont know why.
all he is, is a dick to me.
i dont know i always go for the wierd ones.
whatever. i'll get over it. hopefully
maybe he will realize the loss but i dont know what i'm going to do.
like this is the first time somebody broke up with me and it made me feel like shit.
i feel like a freakin idiot.
i dont know.
first it was just faith & josh. (just friends)
then it was more faith & josh.
but now it's nothing. not even friends.
i even want to me friends with the kid.
god damn. what did i lose?
i lost him for a stupid reason but i'm glad he was honest.
it's bull shit that he calls me names and i asked him not to in the beginning and all he did waslie.
i dont know how i will get over it but i guess that's why i have my frieds.
so i hope things will be all right.
josh-i still like you alot. but i dont know why. i guess you're a hard person to get over. well you still have my heart but it's ripped in two.
now i know how other people feel when somebody doesnt care and thety just break up with the person without thinking about their feelings. well i'm sorry to those people that i did that to and i hope you will forgive me.
over thanksgiving
well we got out of scholl early on wednesday. and i really didnt do anything. well i dont remember so it must not be important.
thursday.thanksgiving. all my brothers came over. wow and they brought there kids. so i had 20 people in my house. i counted :) cause you know, i'm just amazing. uhm well anyways. i didn't eat much cause i had 13 pieces of bacon for reakfast. yumm ;) uh what else. hmm. well i was going to go on the fourwheelers but the snow was getting my hair wet and i was too cold. brr. uhm i hate some brownies :) they were good. i was pretty much online to get away from the children.
friday.josh's brithday. i was thinking about calling him all day but i was kind of shy. well i didnt want to disturb him cause i know he had that paintball war thing. so yeah i didnt get to say happy birthday. plus i thought he was staying atjohns until friday cause that's what john told me but he went hiome on his birthday at like 7. and when i finally got the courage to call josh at johns , johns mom told me john was sleeping so i figured josh was too. ahh i was mad when i fouund out he wasnt. :/
saturday.i talked to josh. yess well i found out everything that happened for his days we didnt talk and i told him mine. :)
uhm so i talked to him for awhile. then i was playing uno and ashley's mom (my brothers girlfriend's mom) wanted to get ashley with some whipped cream cause we were eating it. and well ashley put some in my mouth. well actually too much and so i took some out of my mouth and put it on her hand and she wiped it on ashley and then from there it was food fight. it was all good unitl john got me :/ that bastard. haha oh well. uhm and then i had to take a shower cause he wiped it in my hair. and then i talked to josh again. and then from there i was pissed. grr. josh made me so mad and you dont need to know why.!!
sunday.jordan's birthday. well my mom woke me up at 9 o'clock and i didnt even know about jordans birthday party until she woke me up. so i had to get up and get ready in 10 minutes :/ but i did it. uhm i was going to go to ashleys moms house before the party, but i had to go see my grandpa. he isnt doing good. :/ uhm so i went there and left at 10 and then i had to go to wal*mart to get a present for jordan. i got him these cool toys. then at the party. well john and jared went and i versed john at dance dance revolution in fun and games. it was so awesome. but john is a retard. i saw ashleigh there. i forgot that she worked there so i talked to her alittle bit. uhm the arty was cool but thats all that really happened that was exciting. then that night. my brother came over and they linked the x*boxes and i didnt do anything. so tat was gay. john went home though :/ i was sad. haha so then i played vice city until 12:00 and then went to bed.
this morning.basketball practice. it was so awesome. we didnt have to run much and we just messed around. we played with the parachute thing too. it was so awesome. we only had 8 girls there though. even better. uh so yeah and then i came home and played vice city for awhile and then the x*box alittle. and then i came on the internet. and now i'm bored.
tomorrow.school. yesss finally. i miss school. i hate not bring there for awhile. so i'm happy we are going back. and i get to see ♥joshh. :) yaaay. and im over that whole being mad thing. whatever i dont even care. i guess i was just scared that he would breakup with me for what he said but everything is all better. ;) so yeah. now i have to go do my homework so that sucks. it's only reading though. so its all good :)
later babe ;)
♥josh.i love you
lately uhmm well things have been pretty much great..
uhmm well me && ♥joshh have been going out for 10 days now!! yesss.. (= haha yeahh soo i am happy.. uhh well i was mad at jackie but not no more..
last night was the y dance.. ahh what a drama scene.. ooh well nothing to do with me soo whatever who cares.. ♥joshh didnt go though cause he knew there was going to be drama.. haha wow hes good..
on friday is ♥joshh's birthdayy.. he wouldnt tell me what he wanted but i guess i know what i am getting him.. hmmm well he is going to johns on his birthday so maybe i will get to see him (= yess haha.. wow
soo uhmm yeahh things are going just swell..
i ♥ joshh
well life latelyy hmm.. well i made alot of mistakes in the past week. I dont know it was messed up.. jackies party was a hit..
well uhmm this is the story i was all over mike britton but with mike its just a jokee nothing is real.. he was all over me too but like he wasnt kidding i guess .. i dont know.. well me him and anthony all went in jackeis closet and did some stuff .. haha if you know what i mean. then nick joyal wanted to play truth or dare but it ended up being 7 minutes in heaven.. well mike britton pulled me into the closet with nick in there.. we ended up making out.. i thought it was the best thing that ever happened to me.. you dont even no how hapy i was but it lead to confusion.. =/ we all had a good cry but i talked to nick and we got everything straightened..
lately people have been asking me out.. and all i say is that they are on crack and a no..
my love life.. well uhh no one really needs to know the truth.. i just dont like anyone.. =/ yeahh i know its a lie but people dont leave me alone.. i dont know what else to say so whatever..
my life is over until th fat kid is done with his cake.. there is plenty of cake to go around so there will never be a finish.. <3
everythingg lately has been fabeeoo .. okayy o not really but whatever .. uhh well me and jackie have been getting into lots and lots of fights and like its crazyyy .. it is about nothingg and itis soo gayy .. she makes something soo little into this big problem and like everyone has been askingg me why i am her friend and the truth is because i lovee herr .. i just cant not be her friend because of all the stuff she did for me the good and the badd cause i learned from the badd and like if it wasnt for her i probably wouldnt even have guyy problems not in a bad wayy but like i would never have a guy because i always dressed like onee .. wierd .. but whatever..
wwell the carnival yesterday was fabeeoo .. seriously it was .. like i got there and hour late but i just said i was fashionably late .. soo whatever and uhh when jackiee left she gave me a kiss and the anthonyy onee .. whatever she can do whatever she wants .. screw themm .. ooh wait i dont like anthonyy anymoree .. no one is on my list of love anymore because of jackiee .. well icant like joshh because i could never go out with him even though jackie did that to me i would never .. i just dont like nickk cause he is immaturee but he is still my friend.. and i cant like anthonyy cause jackiee is always all overr himm . i hatee it so i just thought that it would be better not to like them and just be there friends .. i guess that would be the right thing to doo .. soo yeahh
well i am definately goingg to church tomorrow cause my aunt came up and she always goes to church when she is up from virginiaa so i get to see my beautiful mike he is soo cool .. well yeahh but he is a loserr .. haha yea rite ..
soo yeahh laterr dudess ..
mwaa faith ♥
hmm.. well yesterday i went to conny's for shane's party and it was awesome!! =D connys dad poured ketcup all over me and i got cake and other shit in my hair!! soo i took a shower and we wathced freddy vs. jason but the movie kept shutting off so we didnt watch it all the way!! i was sadd!! thats to summarize what happened!! well thats all i feel like writingg soo peace!!
mwaa faith ♥
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i dont know what is goingg on i been getting into all these fights!! im turning into a badd person..
even anthonyy said that last year i was a big help and this year i have myy own problens!!
im just getting soo madd lately..
people think its funny to get me madd.. they just comee upp to me anthonyy and jackie were all over each other :: yeahh i know your telling me thiss but whyy like i dont know this and how manyy times have i heard it!! ooh a millionn!!
i cant stand it anymoree!! i just f*n want to die but like myy godd everyonee causes soo muchh drama even i have been!! i just dont know what to do!!
nick coyle was helpingg me but then jackiee got madd so i told himm to forget about me so by tomorrow he wont no who i am!!
anthonyy thought i was madd at him!! i sont like himm anymoree!! i cant he is just myy friendd and that all i want himm to be cause if i like himm we dont really talkk i hatee itt!! i would rather be his friendd that not be and if that means not liking himm then its worth it..
f*n travv is started shitt and he is goingg to get smacked one of these days!! i hopee anyway!! i bet anthonyy five dollars that i wouldnt talk to travv so i will keep that..
nick coyle bet on the bet that anthonyy will go out with me by the timee i see him.. soo he bet 20 dollars on the 5 soo yeahh..
jackiee is like i dont know we are frineds and everythingg but i dont know what is goingg on between uss lately ?? =/ im confused!!
whatever!!
mwaa faithh ♥