No one reads this anymore. Commenting doesn't happen. I never remember I have this. I'm over my journal phase. It's been nice. Catch ya on the flip side.

fucking shit god dammit I miss jared a lot :[ i havn't talked to him in forever and ew this is gay :[ i don't even know where he is, DO YOU KNOW HOW ANNOYING THAT IIISSS?! whateverrrr gaaayyyy

i'm sick.

She pisses me off really she does during school it's all best friendy and then come the weekend or after school she's always too good and ALWAYS has plans with her other friends. fucking dyke cunt twat ass mother fucker. :] Tomorrow will be lovely maybe i will hook up with markerz LOLLUMS HAHAHAHHAHAHAHA

boys just want sex. And so i hate them.

I've had three packs of nerds as in the candy my tongue is now BLUE It's hot as fuck here School starts wednesday, but i have to go in on tuesssdaaayyyy (wheeeeeeeeeeeee -.-) This last weekend was quite a lot of fun there was lots of dancing and walking and shopping and yadda yadda yadda. Anyway, tomorrow i get to buy wake up pills, red bull and nyquil. yay!

your lack of comments = you = bastards. my butts cold.

Well 'bout time for a new update, don't ch'ya think? I've come to terms with myself... yes myself. I've also come to realize that I'm starting to take life seriously... for the most part... I'm starting to think about the future, what's going to happen, where I'm going to go what I'm going to do... I'm starting to think about who I need in life and who I don't. Odd, I'm aware. Oh and I changed my tongue ring to an eight ball... it's lovely. I have a bunch of new pictures which I"ll get around to showing you guys, until then you can see them at myspace.com/youre_a_fucking_cunt

Well 'bout time for a new update, don't ch'ya think? I've come to terms with myself... yes myself. I've also come to realize that I'm starting to take life seriously... for the most part... I'm starting to think about the future, what's going to happen, where I'm going to go what I'm going to do... I'm starting to think about who I need in life and who I don't. Odd, I'm aware. Oh and I changed my tongue ring to an eight ball... it's lovely. I have a bunch of new pictures which I"ll get around to showing you guys, until then you can see them at myspace.com/youre_a_fucking_cunt

Well 'bout time for a new update, don't ch'ya think? I've come to terms with myself... yes myself. I've also come to realize that I'm starting to take life seriously... for the most part... I'm starting to think about the future, what's going to happen, where I'm going to go what I'm going to do... I'm starting to think about who I need in life and who I don't. Odd, I'm aware. Oh and I changed my tongue ring to an eight ball... it's lovely. I have a bunch of new pictures which I"ll get around to showing you guys, until then you can see them at myspace.com/youre_a_fucking_cunt

So I was on a little message board, jiggy... and here's how a conversation went. (italics is me.) Dear girls that think having sex with your bf actually means something to him, It doesn't, in all honesty.... sex doesn't mean anything special, it's just a fun way to bounce and cum all while seeing a naked chick. Now don't be an idiot and say 'I wanna wait until I"m married because than it be special.' no... no it wont. Wether you have sex with your husband the first time, or a guy in the back of his '67 Camaro when you're 13, sex isn't special, at all, don't kid yourself. Okay? Okay. love, Chelsea to which someone said It's the best physical representation of love and just because your area's little boys run around jamming their cocks into exhaust pipes doesn't mean that it makes love-making between to mature, concientious people cheap and dirty. and I replied What makes sex "the deepest form of physical love"? I mean, wouldn't you think that simply idk, cuddling? holding hands? something innocent like that would be the deepest form? 'cause doesn't that show that you actually love them enough to be with them without feeling to the need have an orgasm? And you know i'm right. THEN THERE'S THIS ARGUMENT! I was thinking about it... and you know when people bitch at other who are anti-gays, and tell them they're being close minded? Aren't the people telling the anti-gays they're being close minded... being just as close minded? I mean... they bitch at the people for not accepting other people.... when they're not accepting these people's opinions either. /end brain fart I'm feeling very opinionated tonight.

So, I believe that you only actually fall in love once... all other times are either lust or deep like... but not love. I kinda believe in the whole 'there's one person for everyone' shabang. And it bothers me, when you think you're in love, and then you or the other person falls out of love... and you realize 'Oh hey, i wasn't actually IN love with this person.' And so you sit there analyzing everything thinking 'Well, i've been told you know when you're in love.' Well I thought that was love? But I guess it wasn't? And if that wasn't love what the crap was it? 'Cause there's no way in fuck I want to need someone and care more about a certain person than I just have. ANOTHER THING THAT BOTHERS ME! In movies, or books, or anything.... when people just FIND the person like that, and after like two days they're in love and THEN THEIR LIFE IS PERFECT! ... I hate movies. And I know on one will read this 'cause you're all lazy, assholes with a negative attention span.

I just got my tongue pierced. :]

Hello, hello I uh, realized I havn't updated in a little more than a month... so hello... I'm not dead... don't worry.... well not that you could care. :] What's been uppppp... uuuh -I broke up with Zach -I was in the caribbean for three and a half weeks. -Met lots of people there -Hooked up with some boys -Jared is coming to Montreal quite sooooooooon :D:D:D:D:D -Getting pierced some time this week (bowchikabowow) -GOT STUNG BY A JELLY FISH AND ALMOST DIED (hardcore... I KNOW) There's a lot more random things that I can't really think of.... I got home at 4 in themorning.... and it's not 12:35. eeeethehehehehehehhahhahahha i love being home.

*edit again* I am Chelsea &I am Canadian. I'm rad. I like attention. Don't pity me, worship me... i'm just that great. Tell me you like girls like me. I'm the type of girl that choses the loser over the perfect guy I love the music you hate Fight Club isn't just a movie, it's my life. I don't show people things I'm proud of. I'm not jealous of you but i am jealous of her. I fucking love my kelsey. &Zach means everything and more to me. I'm 5'7 and I weigh 115...ew. I have more scars than you. Don't tell me you love me. I have awesome shoes. I like beer. Liquid cocaine is better. No that's not a drug. Red scarves are my passion. Leave me a comment saying I'm not like the others... I'm better. Phones and I aren't friends. I will hate you for no reason. I go to local shows every friday&saturday because like I said, I'm rad. I snowboard do you? Stars&Hearts are lovely. I'll flirt with you, but it wont mean a thing. I taught your boyfriend that thing you like. &when you don't know where you girlfriend is, assume she's at my house naked. Pepsi>Coke I like fill my lungs with tar. Artsy picture will always win. I'm not mean, I'm just blunt I'm not perfect. get.over.it. ---------------------- *edit* I have a star on my hip. It is as pretty as ribs. ----------------------- If one were to have a simple eating disorder for a short amount of time, would one lose weight quickly? how much weight does one lose per week if one was to be anorexic or bulimic? I'm aware that it all depends on how much you eat, how much you don't, metabolism and many other things. These are all random questions of course that i guess i just want answers too. Of course I could never really have an eating disorder... Anorexia wouldn't work for me... i love food. As far as being bulimis... lack of good gag reflexes... and there's no way in hell i'd pull a deborah and simply shit out everything with the help of laxatives.... mainly because that's just... sick. Another reason i could never: ohio***** (1:24:13 AM): Because I don't think anyone should do that to themselves to try and look beautiful. /sigh still feel like i'm not enough for him. ** I havn't smoked in way too long and it's driving me crazy... but of course I won't smoke for a long time... because i'm a good girl and smoking is not so good. Right? right. ** I've decided... that life... is too confusing. I'm going to open a bar... and die when i'm young. I don't want to be old... i really don't... i'm terrified of being old.... I'm scared of many things infact... most of them make me seem like i'm still 4... which of course i still am at heart... and... immature wise too at times. I'm still scared of having my hands/feet/head any part of my body hand over the bed when it's dark... not because of "monsters" just for the soul fear of SOMETHING grabbing me. Like I said, still a four year old. I'm scared of growing old... i'm scared of people not giving me the same looks they give me now. i'm scared of dying. I'm scared that someone will never know how i feel about them. I'm scared that someone will know how i feel about them. I'm scared of what people think of me... not about how I act... but how i look. I'm scared of gaining weight... any weight, when I even gain two pounds i feel like shit. I'm scared of not being good enough for anyone. Blah... I'm just scared. -tm666

REST IN PEACE CHELSEA'S GUNIEA PIG. :[ poop. : okay. So of course anyone that reads this i'm sure wants to know about.... Zach and I. well things have been awkward ever since we had that huge fight and stuff... not that we've had much time to make it unawkward seeing as he's been gone... but i'm sure things will be fine. It's 7:37 i'm late for school i'll continue this later.

Everybody wants charm and a smile and a promise... Well I promise not to try.

I miss someone. I love someone. I'm wondering how to tell someone something. I am wishing I could see someone soon. I need someone here to cheer me up. I need someone to have a 'serious' talk with. I admire someone greatly. I wish I could help someone. I've grown apart from someone. I regret something I said to someone. I regret something I did to someone. I regret something I did with someone. I wish someone would just leave me alone. I wish someone would stop ignoring me. I wish someone could see me for what and who I really am, and not their twisted idea of myself.

They think i have mono. -.- i have no voice. My throat hurts. I miss zach. i can't go out all weekend. I have many plans. -,- this is my sn on aim: sideway tango Add me.