okay... so fuck this... Everything is a Fucking Joke.. nothing Ever goes right...for me atleast. i'm more lost in this world than i've ever been before... i came to the conclusion, guys arn't worth my time. Love doesnt Exsist. Everyone in the world doesnt know how to epriciate wats really going on. and.. i dont even fuckin know. i'm having such a bad fucking night.. Brian's a complete jackass. n i don't know if i can ever look at him the same... he randomly like left me for a girl... that. i dn... i dont even know who she is... but she's probley wayy prettier than me. smarter. she's probley got a great personality. straight A student. great smile. she's probley not a Huge fuck up like me.... she's probley Miss.Perfect... unlike me.... i'm not pretty.. at all. i'm deffinitly not smart... i'm a goofball, i dont take anything seriously... i'm D/F student at the most. i bairly smile. so who knows... i Smoke Weed, Drink/... Smoke cigerettes. I've done shrooms... i most deffinitly Drink.. i'm.. jsut a fuck up. i cry over everything. i get---- i dont even know... the point is she's probely wayy better than me. and thats the part that hurts the most.... that. i'm just a Fuck Up.. i'm not worth Anyone's time. i'm... just--- I'm actually crying right now as we speak. i'm such a fucking baby...- Oh my goddd... i can't keep a relationship. it always get's messed up... they eithor cheat on me use me.. ...--- jsut plain Assholes to me.. i had a boyfriend before that's Beatin me. i guess i jsut attract all the wrong guys. and all the guys that i do like that arnt huge fuck ups like me. they dont like me... wow i need to get sum things in life straightend out.. really badley... -Fuck this+