well, I must first off say thank you to all my wonderful friends who have left me comments. I love you guys so much! Well, after the last entry things with Doug were good, we hung out the rest of break, and than last weekend. But things seem to be getting back to the way they were the last time I left an entry. But thats okay. My ex has been talking to me alot which is cool, we became best friends.. & who doesn't need a best friend? =P haha. I honestly don't kno what I would do withotu this kid. Anyway.. Today started off as usually-- being called a brick on the bus (brick= retard) *haha* Than I got to school and there were hardly any Freshman there today; which was wayyyy weird. =P 1st Pd. Was amazing, Mr. Burns was in a good mood, which was great! 2nd Pd. I got my "Ode to Ice Cream" piece back, and I got an A on it; &&its going in the Art Show!!! 3rd Pd. Well Third period is always the same, draggs on forever! 4th Pd. Mrs. Herzog is soooo annoying, we had to watch stupid lame Geometry videos. *argh* haha. Lunch- I tried to stay quiet so I didn't fight with anyone, but than I just decided to be happy; & all in all I had a good lunch. 5th Pd. ARgh, Book Reports, so I sat there & wrote doug a lovely letter. 6th Pd. Watched a movie on 1968, it was pretty sweet.. except all the killing =[ 7th Pd. well, I was gonna skipp with my Danny C. but than I realized I had gym today; & I didn't feel good so I got a pass form the nurse to get out of class.. so I went to the nurse & hung out with Lindsey Bayly & we talked the period away which was pretty awesome.. Than I rode the bus home to Ray's tonight & than he drove me home, so I didn't have to walk in the road. &&that was basically my day. Tomorrow I'm supposed to hang out with Doug.. but we'll see. Well, I'm gonna go. Thakn you to all my Sitdiary friends, you guys are amazing. &&i love you all (Jamzy & Linda) p.s. someone wants to marry me!!! =] I DO have a future!

I just can't win. Again, I don't get to see doug. THIS IS FUCKING RETARDED.. I hate having a fucking boyfriend who doesn't want to see me, or doesn't try to see me. I hate sitting here by myself-- b.c. of him. I could have done so much more today; but for some reason i waited for him to call.. & hear him say he couldn't see me today.. than when i say i can't date someone like that.. he just starts laughing.. wtf. =[ I'm so sick of this fucking bullshit. I've never ever cried so much... I just can't stop. & he doesn't even care ... he started laughing & than.. i hung up & he never called back. =[ wtf? I don't even care n e more. Nothing I do is ever right.. ever.. I'm so upset. & he doesn't care. what'd i ever do? huh?? WTF!? =[

well.. I haven't seen doug once over vacation. great right? yeah.. thats what i said. he said he wanted me to go to his grandpas today but i don't see that happening. oh well.. I went to the movies the other day; with my Rayy Rayy. It was soo funn. =] Yesterday I spent the day talking to Conor which was pretty sweet.. =] haha.. well, peace out ( 1 ) I'LL WRITE BACK LATERRRx33

yeah. today is me & dougs 16 month anniversary. crazy to think its been that long. but for some reason I'm still the last thing on his mind.. =/ oh well.. I just hope i get to see him today. the last couple days I've been in honesdale just hanging out with some friends.. chillin' you kno =] haha. well.. I guess I'll say goodbye &go get into the shower Kenny is the sweetest guy every.. he biked up here last night just to let me cry on his shoulder; thats a true friend! =] Thank God for Friends!

Hmm... spent the weekend at Holly's yeah it was cool. Friday; hung out with Angiee &everyone. than Saturday: got picked up by Brian O'Grady (haven't seen that kidd in forever) hung out in town with him and Jamie (love that giirl) and Cyle (yeah..) and than Justin (omg; i love him love him love him.. my bff) showed up which was awesome! Than.. well.. it ended up being all of us, danny c, casey, corey, cody, marissa, doug, misty, frankie, mikey, shannon, this other chick, and well.. yeah ppl just came & went all night; which was pretty sweet! Well yeah; we hung out in town, went to Fun & Games; walked to WalMart.. &almost got kicked out. I almost passed out from Cory & Casey smoking so much.. yeah that wasn't cool... so than Dougiee bought me a flower; *made me feel special* Than we got picked up at like 11. &that was my night. Than Sunday; Kenny invited me to go with him & Paul Koon & Doug to this place called The Fun Box.. so Kenny told me to call Doug & get a ride to Kenny's from Doug.. so I did & Doug got mad that Kenny invited me to go & said he didn't want me to go.. but kenny wanted me to so he convinced Paul to come & pick me up; I had a blast.. I got to take pictures the whole day; &&it flew by so fast! =] I love skatersss x3 well.. today; Monday.. was quite boring.. idk. 1st) we had a sub. which was awesome!! 2nd) fun as always. I'm finishing my skateboard. 3rd) boring. got yelled at & than made fun of b.c. i got a masterful sunburn the other day. =p 4th) I was very happy b.c. i finally understand this stuff; && i got an 84% on my test! *yesss!!!! Lunch) greattt.. i guess? than I left & went home.. b.c. i didn't feel good. yeah; &now i'm here sitting on the computer; being lazzy butt hole me. =] well.. I'm gonna be going. c ya laterrr

yeah. so I stayed at Holly's last night.. &&than walked Destiny to a party at like 9::00 this morning. ugh. I don't kno if Doug will be able to hang out today; which is totally pissing me off.. &&now I don't know if I have a ride to Honesdale.. =/ I may end up walking! anyway; yeah.. thats about all that I have for now. yuhhm.. &&i love oreos. *haha* It was totally weird I watched this movie this morning it was called "But I'm a Cheerleader" yeah, it was about all these homosexuals.. it was quite strange. It was a cute love story I guess.. *haha* well... hmm.. I really don't kno what to write... =P

hehe. =] yay* I'm at angie's! omg; i'm so mad. i had this huge entry written before &&now its gone =[ haha. n e wayyyyy--- yeah; today was good; good. except plans got changed but thats okay; b.c. i have Angela &&she is my boyfriend =] yeah, so right now we are waiting for nick, jason &&tom to come over. =/ cause they're pretty rad I guess..?? haha. welp; tomorrow I'm babysitting &&than hanging out with the guys. =] yehp, i absolutely can't wait. you have no ideeaaaa yay. well I'm gonna be gooinnn'

hmmph.. today was the day that everyone gets carnations at school right? from their boyfriends, friends.. you know, who ever.. =] well.. guess what.. Doug didn't buy me one.. ugh. i felt so sad.. butt its okie dokie; i got overrr it =/ kinda. Anywayy; well things were weird today.. i dunno why.. but I just was in one of those *AHHH* moods today =D Well, after school I went to Doug's track meet; (which I went to.. but he didn't even throw in.. *arg* but I got to hang out with him so everything is WONDERFUL! =]) We had fun, &&just hung out; (first we got into this big HUGE fight.. but as always we can't stay madd *which is love*) Yeah, so than my sister &&Eric picked me upp; &&took me home.. Now we are all sitting around listening to mom talk about Africa. =] (absolutely radd) Marykate is staying over tonight; so it'll be AWESOME! =] blahhh.. Tomorrow I'm not too sure what me &doug are doing tomorrow but whatever it is; i hope its funn. *yay* ARGH! I got my report card today on top of EVERYTHING. haha This is what it consisted of... Geometry- D English- F History- F Pottery- A Biodiversity- B- Spanish 2- F ..so basically I have alot to work on.. =] My grades were so low from being out for so long.. =/ ugh! &&my blood sugars being so high. *ARGH* haha. well its like 10:17 PM. &&i have to get up at 6::30 =0 soo I'm gonna go take myy showerr yehp yehp. welp, I'll leave some more sometime soon. kk bye Ethan is the sweetest kidd ever! =] much love to my BFF. oh yeahh.. i did get a carnation today; from Cody =]

Well, I decided that I would try to start this whole diary thing up again. God knows, I need to get my feelings out sometimes =/ yeah. so, well.. alots been going on lately. =/ but its all good.. I just got done being sick, *yay for me!* =D ..Things with Doug are attempting to be better; & at the same time he is acting weird again. I'm trying not to get frustratedd with it, but its hard. =/ OH well, i love him. x3 yehp, well thats it for today; x3 kbye.