I just can't win. Again, I don't get to see doug. THIS IS FUCKING RETARDED.. I hate having a fucking boyfriend who doesn't want to see me, or doesn't try to see me. I hate sitting here by myself-- b.c. of him. I could have done so much more today; but for some reason i waited for him to call.. & hear him say he couldn't see me today.. than when i say i can't date someone like that.. he just starts laughing.. wtf. =[ I'm so sick of this fucking bullshit. I've never ever cried so much... I just can't stop. & he doesn't even care ... he started laughing & than.. i hung up & he never called back. =[ wtf? I don't even care n e more. Nothing I do is ever right.. ever.. I'm so upset. & he doesn't care. what'd i ever do? huh?? WTF!? =[