hi again! i dont have to work tonight everybody!! heh. anyway so ive been fine really- theres all this hype about a halloween disco which everyones falling out about but i dont care i think it will be good! i go on holiday in a week 2 which im excited about. And by the way everythings ok with aimee now so i dont have to act all awkward around her which i shouldnt have to do anyway. this guy came round the other night and asked me if i'd want to go out with him. i eventually had to say no because i like the other guy ( u no from before) i hope i did the right thing..... by the way im aware that guys arent that simple but im running out of ideas people! i'll probably just have to tell him right out. yeh i'll do it. luv u all xxxxx

well i dont know how it feels to be aloof- on account of i dont no what aloof is- but i like the word so i'll use it anyway. actually i'm feeling a mixture of things. loving (as always), confused, and a little annoyed. aimee keeps lying to us and i dont know why. she makes me feel like i'm a bad friend or something. i dont no- i dont think i am really, but hey u shud ask my friends that. and then when i get onto her about stuff i feel like an even worse person but i just dont see why she wont just be the friend that i am to her- or try to be. i know she can do what she wants but i hope its worth losing her friends over. if he comes first- which she told me he did!!- then fine, thats upto her but i suppose i wasnt really expecting it. and u no last time when i sed i broke it off with that guy- well i got back into it again. i cant help myself i suppose. i want to see him but i dont no what he thinks about me. do u think if i told him that i hav other offers that his reaction wud give me the answer? if hes bothered- he likes me, if he says go for it- he doesnt care. i'll keep u posted anyway. xxxxxx

today was nice. me and jordanne and jessica had a little summer tea party at my house and we talked and we bounced and we ate jaffa cakes. it was fun! i miss them! everyone still in relationships, some even getting fed up and theres single little old me as usual with no one to moan about or love. i have to get up early in the mornin to take my grandma to the airport- shes goin to spain to see my cousins, i wish i could go back...i miss charlie (my cousin) shes just like me and i hate not being able to see her all the time. anyway, getting up early means that me and mum can get a head start at hitting the shops. which everyone no's i luv to do!! on friday nite i ''broke it off'' with someone who i like and have been flirtin with for ages. i really like him but i never get the feeling he likes me as much and besides, he doesnt no what he wants. i just felt like back up for when any other relationships that he has fails. y'no so then he'd turn to me. i want something better than that. i think i deserve something better than that now. anyway *yawns* must get to bed!! xxxxxx

hey! im on work experience now and its quite good. They did my nails for free!! last night was good. i spoke to someone who i havent spoken to for a long time and he said things that......i dont know.....but i really like him. he goes on holiday on monday so he says he wants to see me before he goes. its in like 2 days! im workin at 7.30 tonight and i cannot be bothered. last week i worked when i was hung over and that was terrible. i dropped a knife on someone. It could have been a spoon, but no it was a knife, all of 30 people on the table looked at me like i'd chopped his leg off- he was fine it was only a harmless knife. anyway, c u all later xxxx

hey! thanks joony for the last comment- love u too. i feel DRAINED. its about 11.30pm, just come back from babysitting these two brats near my house and they WOULD NOT SLEEP. on top of that, they had a friend staying over so there was 3 of them. Oh yes. On top of that, i had a gay GCSE this morning and so all i wanted to do was lay down and on top of that- i work tomorro and sunday which means i dont have time to do anything- yet again. Anyway i get paid so few complaints :-p The worst thing about today was that we leave now and am on work experience for 2 weeks and its not so much school i will miss but people- i miss people! People are what i need. ahhhhh well i no baby tom will miss me and joony and jessica and aimee and maybe kelly and jemma. i just got a tellin off for not feeding the guinea pigs- like i dont have enough to do and besides, they're jordans rodents really. i dont mean to sound slack- but did you watch big brother earlier? omg what is with Kinga? what a name! Kinga the Minga hehehe how rough do i sound. love you allxxxxxxx

yes im feeling cool- how cool is that?! well my old diary was boring so this is a new start. i tried to create a brand new one- but i couldnt see where to add an entry or change the background and stuff, so that didnt work out. yesterday i really felt like doing a backflip- but then i remembered that i couldnt do them and that upset me. i get more random each and every day. lifes ok- i got a job but i cant decide if thats a good thing or not. it might mean that i cant go out as much as i'd like to but at least i'm earning extra money. Once again- im the last singular person out of my girfriends!! there all so happy- i think its got to be my turn soon. i bought a cut owl thing last night- its called bobble and its great! just thort id let u no. er............. some people can irritate me but ive got my girlfreinds to sort them out. love u joony, aimee and jessica x x x i dont think anyone has fallen out with me at the mo and everyones being nice which i like because i like to be nice too. some people have a pointless existence to me and i dont understand what purpose they have. but thats another story..... dont you think its unfair how some people just always have it all and take it for granted. (joony nos) any way bye bye x x x