whats the point of leaving an "i-dont-want-you-to-know-who-i-am-comment" its way lame. if you have something to say you should let people knwo whos saying it. stick up for waht you belive in. if you think what im doing is wrong, then stick up for it. dont be a pussy.

well the parentals think that im up to no good. so i have to go to dinner with them and eat a real meal with them at olive garden. great. tons of pasta which equals tons of carbs. katrina simmons is not a happy camper at all. the worst part is that i wont be able to purge agter because were going on a road trip after dinner to some place i cant remember. i think its one of thse camily bonding things. rrr so this weekend will set me back a little as far as the bet goes. im a little nervous that my mother has found out about my tattoos. hope she doesnt want to go to the beach or somehting. bad bad. hit me up if you have any questions. anaislifeforever@hotmail.com

im glad to knwo that my entries seem to help all of you who read this. im here for your moral support. but you have to realize that getting thin doesnt happen over night. it takes time so be patient. just watch what you eat....to be contiued

tips* *always have candy and food wrappers in your back pack so when (if you go to school)you get home from school you have an excuse to not eat dinner...this one worked alll the time for me. "honey what do you want for dinner?" "Nothing i ate soooo much today" "what did you eat?" "i know its bad but i ate alot of candy adn chips, and i had a few sodas. if i eat any more i'll explode." then go take a nap. **i always take the dog for a walk right when i get home. i walk one mile with him, that way he gets exercise and i get exercise. also before i go to bed i do 150-200 sit ups. ***If you have to eat, cut your food up into tiny pieces; the size you would feed a three year old so that they don’t choke. Spend time making each piece into a perfect square. This also makes it look like (to others) that you had more food than you actually did! If someone points out your full looking plate, look at them oddly and say, “I had seconds, didn’t you see?” ****you tend to eat more if your alone. so DO NOT EAT ALONE. its a big no no. when people are around it wont make them think twice about any ED stuff. ***Don’t feel bad for throwing food away. It’s not wasting. If you think of it this way, even if you eat it, it gets wasted because it comes out the other end, so why not throw it away and waste it, than waste it after it makes you fat? **Egg whites are wonderful for when you’re starving. Throw some spices (I like Italian seasoning) and scramble them up! You can even boil the egg and eat the white part and throw away the yolk! There are only fifteen to twenty calories per large egg white. The yolk however, is killer. It usually has anywhere from fifty to seventy-five calories in it alone! If you’re that hungry have two egg whites, just please! Stay away from the yolks! *diet soda is the fucking best. it tastes nasty if your used to regular soda, but after a while its ok. Make sure to buy ones made with splenda (it will be on the label) and not aspartame. aspartame causes all sorts of disorders. **When possible, use a smaller plate to eat off of. It makes it look like you had more than you actually did! ***drink water over soda, its cal free, and good for you. if you drink enough then you will feel full. which causes you not to be hungry. ****When you have to eat, put your fork down between bites and take a sip of water. It takes longer to eat that way. *****Paint your nails with a strong polish and top coat to hide brittle nails and discoloration from lack of nutrients. ****A great distraction is to clean and organize your room! Your parents will be pleased and your room will look great! Go through old things and toss what you don’t need or don’t use. Do the same for your clothes; get rid of all your bigger clothes, so that you have to wear the smaller ones. It’s a great motivator! ***Find an online ana buddy and compete to see who can lose the most in one week! Do it in a pounds per inch fashion. When you start the competition, divide your weight by how many inches tall you are. Then, at the end date of the competition, divide your weight by your height in inches again, subtract it from the first number you got, and you’ll see who wins! **When you do use your calorie intake for the day, use it on healthy things, like fruits, vegetables and protein. Why be thin and dead *Caffeine pills spike your energy and make you less hungry. Opt for the pills if you can, because they have less calories than coffee, if you are one of the people that need creamer! Be sure not to take more than the recommended dose. You CAN overdose on caffeine. I have done it. It is NOT pleasant!

it all started when i was 14. you know the typical diet, fruit and low carb stuff. that worked for a while. but then i noticed more and more un-perfect things on my body...i always questioned myself, like "oh, only if this part was thinner, or if i looked like this i would be perfect." i sit in the mirror for hours poking and pulling skin to see what i will look like when i get where i want to be. then i said oh, well i f i dont eat breakfast for the rest of the month and exercise 4 times a week then i will be perfect. the typical teenage mirror image wasnt reflecting back at me. i want(ed) to be thinner. so i would skip lunch every now and again. i started eating dinner in my room because i had "lots of homework." i would just throw my food out. then there were the fasting days. once a week i would go 24 hours with out eating. now things were starting to fall into place. the mirror was looking a little better. why would you quit somethin that is working for you?? so i increased the fasting days. 2-3 a week. then my parents were on to me. my mom found food that i wasnt eating in my room. then made me eat dinner in teh dining room every night. here i met mia. i would go straight to my room after dinner then purge in my washroom. things got to be normal again, my mom said the "katrina, dearest, if you have the slightest problem let me know and i will fix it." theres nothing she can do. so once after dinner i followed my routine, and my mom over heard me purging. that landed me right in and ED center. 6 months of ruining what i had created. i had lost all controll. they drilled the feeding tube into my wrist and i laid there. there was nothing i could do. so here i am. rebuilding what i had before. im back to 99 lbs. got a long way to go.

this thing isnt for people to bitch and moan about how being thin isnt important. dont talk unless you've been down the same roads and walked a mile in my shoes. i will admit it can get out of hand at times, but this is apart of who i am. and if you dont like it then tough shit assholes. the point is if you disagree with what im saying on a PUBLIC (i can say anything i want) fucking website, then dont fucking read it. you know who you are, and you can fuck off. this is also not a place for fakes. damn.

NAME: katrina AGE: 18 ZODIAC: scorpio ED: ANA with a side of MIA SINCE: ive been with ana and mia for the last 4 years of my life. ive never felt better. my mom sent me to the ED hell for a 6 month recovery plan...nothing will keep me from ana. HEIGHT: 5'3 CW: 101 lbs UGW: 94 lbs

when i say only the strong survive, i mean only the weak fall behind. my current weight is 101. and my goal is 94. ive got a long way to go. a long way. sometimes i think of how weak the celebrities are. first paula abdual, mary kate, jesica alba...all i can say is week. so far this week i had an apple for dinner every night. i havent had my usuall breakfast, a piece of orbit gum (5 cal. per piece.) but someone asked me for a piece and i couldnt be selfish so i gave it to them.

im here to keep a log of my progress. my goal is to loose 10 lbs in 2 weeks. soon i will enclose pictures of what i want to look like. and some of what me. but no head shots. im also here for support. if you are pro ana i have plenty of tips for you, i can help....this is my story, my life.