i can't decide

if i want to be angry

or sad.

showers at two am

do not help you sleep

or forget to think about who you know

you should not be thinking of.

can you really blame me

for wanting you back so

(don't say it)

desperatly?

why do i jump

from on boy (cause that's what you are)

to the next?

is it the natural response of my body?

i hate it i hate it i hate it

i'm wasting my own time.