i am changing the way i think and i found a guy that i really like and that will make me a better person the only bad thing is that he doesnt want a girlfriend so i dont know what to do his name is matt and we made out 2 time and sleeped together over night at his house it was so much fun i am always happy when i am around him but i think he is getting sick of me telling him that i really like him because i was sitting in a chair and he was sitting on the couch and he was like you can caome sit by me but you cant start likeing me more and i went to sit by him but then he turned on porn so i got so horney i really like him i wish he wanted a girlfriend cuz i would totaly go out with him he is so sexy and sweet he isnt just for sex which is really nice but im gonna go watch a movie bye.....

I am kinda pissed at my boyfriend said that he doesnt wnat to talk to me for a while because we got in a fight but i hope he doesnt stay mad at me long because i really like him so much and i dont want to loose him... But i guess i do i will know why but i hope to god i dont.. but anyways i have my good friend taylor spending the night so my night should be good but i still am going to think alot about devon and how my life might change but im gonna go buh bye..... I dont wanna lose you devon.......

i havent wrote in here for a long time but ya i had a pretty shity day when i woke up at 1:30pm i didnt feel good and at 4 i had to go to work but i didnt want to go but it was sos much fun i work with emily, casey and kyle it was so much fun we talked about so much then i came home and i was looking for cassandra because she was supposed to spend the night but then i couldnt find her then i finally called her house and she was there but then she said she didnt want to spend the night so i am like ok w/e but then i went up to shawns house and was watching and old cow boy movie it was so good but then my mom called me and said i had to come home and she started to yell at me about how cassandra is aways here and she never gets to spend any time with me but if i am here anyway shedoesnt spend any time with me so i dont get the point why she wanted me to stay home all by myself and ya it gay but w/e and then she started to hit me because she said i made her so mad and i didnt even do anything but ya im gonna go to bed so buh bye

i like dustin so much i have never liked someone as much as i like dustin i think me and him will last for a long time i hope he likes me as much as i like him because I really want to spend all my time with him but i know that wont work cuz he is always working then when he doesnt work i have to work. I will write later hopefully unless i cant so buh bye I Love Dustin!!!!!!!!!!!!

i am so mad because my boyfriend chris is going to madison to spend the whole weekend with another girl and i wnated to spend the whole weekend with him but i guess stufff happens. I am going to hang out with him tonight so im excited i want to hang out with him everyday i really like him. i will write later maybe bye

im now not being a slut i went to rossels house again and then travis came over again and i was sitting on his lap and we were watching 2 movies but i didnt do anything with him and then he had to go so i left too and before i left he told me if i ever call his house i have to say im 18 and i was walking to my house and he said how about tomorrow we go to my house and makeout and then he called me a pussy cuz i wont do anything.but i gotta go cuz cassandra is spending the night again so ill talk to u later buh bye....

omg today was so much fun i went over to rossels and hang out there for a long time then travis came over there and we were watching a movie call american history x it is such a good movie and then i started to tickle travis and he was tickling me then he sat on me cuz cassandra stole his chair and then i got up and he wanted me to sit on him so i did and then i got up and went down stairs to rossels bed with cassandra and lyed there and then travis and rossel came down and lyed with us and then they were throw darts and rossel throw 2 at me and they stuck in my legs so ya then i looked at my cell and it said 12:08pm and im like happy new year and travis is like so where is my kiss and he looked at me but i didnt kiss him becasue im sick of people calling me a slut so ya my new year resoultion is to not date any one im sick of all the shit that happens when i date so i am giving it up for this year only. well i gotta go im kinda tired buh bye....

wow i liked a comment i just got and said i sounded like a slut ya right who ever said that need to grow up.but whatever i dont care what people tink of me and just to let everyone know im not a slut because i dont have sex with everyone i havent had sex before so there. but im so fucken bored i have nothing to do i wanna go hang out but i cant becasue im grounded. i hate being grounded cuz i cant leave but i get off on friday morning so it good i have the whole weekend to do what evre i want to do but i g2g talk to u later buh bye....

i broke up with trever last night. then me cassandra and marcus all went to joshs it was so fun me and cassandra hid 6 condoms on us and josh was running after me trying to get them and he got two and he didnt know where the other one was so he kinda stop and we lyed on his floor and i sat on him and he was trying to get up but i push him back down and he said that was the first time a girl took him down and then josh me and cassandra lyed on the bed in that order and marcus was sitting on a chair and josh was telling me to rub his back so i started to and he was doing it back to me and everytime he moved his hand cassandra jumped becasue it tickled her and josh was like im not even touching you im only holding ashley and now i really like josh and i dont know if he likes me i hope he does i dont get to talk to him for a couple of days tho because he went to red wing and he is going to be back on wednesday or thursday then me and him are going to hang out and marcus is gonna talk to him and find out if he likes me and would ever go out with me i hope he does cuz then i would be so happy.well i gotta go buh bye

omg i cant wait till tomorrow me and my boyfriend are going to hang out by the way if anyone didnt know im going out with trever so ya i cant wait i like him alot and im glad we are going out.i cant wait my dads eye hurts so i gave him my eye drops cuz we dont have any in this house and they asked me why i have eye drops and i said just in case my eyes are dry and they are like sure so they think i do drugs so ya it kinda suck but i guess i better go so i can call trever and talk to him before i go to bed. buh bye i love trever forever and always ~Ashley~

i am so bored and i dont know what to do so im writing in here for the first time in a long time im turning 16 is 6 days i cant wait there is nothing to do and everyone is sleeping but i guess i dunno.i just read alot of my old entrys and i said that i had a fucked up life and i wrote about the same shit over and over but w/e i g2g buh bye...

omg im so mad cuz tj said he was going to go with my mom and steve and me up north and now hes like i dont wanna go so im so pissed cuz we made all this reservations and now they r runined cuz he doesnt want to come and think he doesnt cuz he doesnt want to leave his mommy for such a long time and he would have fun i think he knows he would have so much fun but he doesnt want to go cuz hes a loser but owell i will have lots of fun by myself and i get away from winona for 4 days yay well i g2g pack ill write later maybe bye

i dont know know what to call this entry so i didnt name it anything thats ok tho i had a fun day today i was hanging out with robert d and ed chick all day it was fun then me and robert went to my house and looked at year books to see who we all went out with so ya we went out with so many people i like didnt go out with anyone but owell that is because alot of gurls like him and he likes so many gurls but i dont think me and him would ever go out i mean we r really good friends so ya....ill write later bye

last night my whole family was sleeping even i was and i gues i slept walked into my parnets room and standed right by steve and he got so scard cuz we read the jon before we went to sleep then after i did that and my mom comes into my room and asked my if i had a knife and im like no y would i get a knife i love steve to much i wont kill him and ya it was really werid but ill write later its only 11:13am talk to u later hey im bored right now im talkin on the phone with chealsea and cleaning my room but yea so im so bored but i guess it happens but yea ill maybe write later if i have time its now 10:29pm

does anyone wanna read a mean email that my ex sent me well if u dont dont read on........ jon said this so ur breakin up with me huh i told you if they do it once theyll do it again not to mention ur too much of a pussy to try anything new anyway ur such a freak i dont even know why i botherd with u oh yeah as a favor for tj what a looser thats ok u were just booty call that didnt work out oh yeah and u tell me im fuckin up my life doin weed when ive already got 4 college credits goin for my 5th this year bitch u wouldnt know a smart person if they smacked u in the forhead and they should really hard for u bein the richie bitch that u are oh yeah and one more thing while u and i were goin out i cheated on u 4 times haha i warned u i was pimp u just didnt take me seriously tj knew the whole time though and we were both laughin about it so i wouldnt call it a bad summer it was actually kind of fun oh wait i didnt read this till this morning so last night counts to so its 5!! sorrry ashley but u got pimped out P.S. ur not even close to being mature enough to love somebody oh and ur moms a bitch shes a big whore and im going to kill ur dad im gonna slit his throat while hes sleepin hahahahahahaha!!! nah i wont slit his throat ill let him live just never talk to me again bye sweetie oops sorry im mean slut! isnt that so mean but i guess wat ever happens for a reason but yea owell i cheated on him to so ya its ok im glad i dont have a fuckin hornball i feel sorry for his next girlfriend if he ever gets one lol well i g2g call me or leave me a comment cya........

im so bored im sick got me sick he throw me in ice cold water but ya me and jon broke up today for the 2nd time i will never go back out with him i dont think he rilly loves me i think he only wants sex and i am waiting for that specil guy that i love so much but ya if anyone wants to talk call me home or cell it doesnt matter bye

im in my room with tj and paige and they r cuddling and i am sitting here talking to jon and im really bored but ya i hope they r having fun cuz im not......but ya ill write later

i was hanging out with tj all day like we do everyday but we were at my house and he were watching movies and lying down and stuff then we went to get my birds out of there cage it was kool but scary when he left my mom and steve came home and tj called me when he got home and when i was talking to him my mom asked him if he wanted to come with us for 5 days up to canada and he said ya so im really happy that my best friend gets to come and hang out with me there cuz other wise it gets boring so ya i cant wait till then but i g2g cuz dill pickle is supposed to call me tomorrow at 9:30 that is so early and his real name is dylan but ya well talk to u later bye ooo by the way kara and robert broke up today thats so sad they were so cute together well talk to u later if anyone wants to talk to me call me on my house phone or my cell bye

today i was at my best friends house who is a guy and i like him alot but we went swimming and we were drunking people then when we were done we went to his house and he asked me to take a shower with him but i didnt cuz i just broke up with my bf today so i didnt but i was in the bathroom fixing my hair and he comes out and i saw him naked it was scary but he looked good naked and ya we wanted me to suck his dick but i didnt i told him i would another time but not today so ya gotta go bye i broke up with jon today it was hard but i think it was for the best i mean we never talk and shit so ya