i am so irritated bacause everyone is mad at me and now my parnets say i cant have a birthday party just because she does not have any money but still i should be albe too cuz everytime she had a birthday she did she only wants me to have a bad child hood. so it sucks so bad we r putting up the tree and it keeps falling down. I am grounded off the phone because i stayed on it to late last night so i cant use it so i am kinda pissed at her but o well. i am so bored to there is nothing to do at my house and my mom wont let me hang out with anyone or go outside so i am sick i just dont want to live here anymore. and everytime i think about this i want to cut myself and im so sick of it but it is the only way i feel better. well i g2g talk to people later or see u on monday maybe bye.