wow, i'd completely forgotten about this. so it's been over a year, i'm still living in the same town as my married ex-boyfriend...but it's a big place and i haven't seen him since i sought him out a year ago. I've made several friends; somehow it's always easier to make friends when you're new than when you've been somewhere for a while and all your old friends have gone away. I was talking to one of my friends recently about the saxophone guy at church who i still have a crush on. She mocked me for calling it a crush. "Didn't we stop having 'crushes' in 9th grade?" she said. "I prefer to call them 'hot flashes.'" I asked her why, and she said, "Because whenever an attractive guy walks by, it's like a flash of hotness. aka a hot flash." I don't know if that works for my case because it's a hot flash that has lasted a year now? i think we call that a heat stroke. I don't know. Anyway, that's basically all that's happened. my life is boring. I like it here, though, it's exciting and i like my friends a lot. I like the people I work with, too, which is new. Company parties are actually enjoyable now. It's way past my bedtime, though. Til next time.