Well as you all already know its 420 ha! Well alot has happened in the past few months um first this damn thing wouldnt let me on so yeah. I havent been on but me and MIke arent dating anymore as a mader of fact I'm now with the guy of my dreams Richard Sparks we are engaged and plan to get married after he gets outta Basic Training yes i know whats up with me and the Army boys? I think it's because they actually know wha6t they are doing with their lives well anywho he is leaving for B.T June 2, 2006 I'm gonna miss him and I don't want him to go but i know he must I'll see him after B.T though. Oh I may be pregnant if not now I will probably be soon when your people tell you "kids always wear condoms" listen to them...or else trust me it's not pretty. Well life is pretty much the same nothings changed except Richard's older brother is getting married Saturday so yeha i get to meet the whole family...damn im not looking forward top it the only thing im looking forward to is spending the day with Richard he only has 48 days left so yeah im spending all i can with him... Well I've got to be going now so um yeah bye... "I'm Afraid To Love And Yet I Love You" ~Nikki~

well today went okay so far ive been in lala land all day thinking bout many things, hehehe. well i believe im going to homecoming this year yay since its my first year in high school and um so far im going with my boyfriend mike even bigger and happier yay. well i gotz to go to sleep now but ill talk at ya tomorrow. Dont be pansies and dont do anything i WOULD do hehehe. cya nikki

um yeah nothing reall y went on today except me finding out that im failing 4 of my classes, well i thought i would share a poen with yall. Prom Night White dresses flow like satin rivers, a cumberbund rainbow across a black suit sky. Hair and makeup done like moviestars, couples parade like royality. Hand in hand, in love till the end. You hoped tonight would be your faiytale, only to find that you are no cinderella. Your prince charming did not come; Tears roll down yuor cheeks, that once were filled with happiness. Of a night filled with love and laughter. Only the laughter came from somewhere else, and the love was no where to be seen. well let me know what ya think, um g2g. byes nikki

well I'm writing again today. Well my day has gone shitty. um I think my boyfriend is mad at me because he just hurried up and got off the internet and didnt even say goodbye he said that he was bored and he wanted to go and do something more interesting well im worried that he might be thinking about breaking up with me even though we just starting going back out yesterday. well i think that he has feelings for this other girl tiffany that he ended up getting drunk with and fucking the last time we were going out but i forgave him because our relationship was getting serious and he had told me he loved me for the first time before the cheating happened and we figured that we would give it another chance but i feel that he is having doubts and I dont know what to do i mean i love him... alot. but like i said I think hes having doubts. There was an interesting thing that did happen though i got a call from one of my friends from where i used to live that i havent talked to since the summer yay. Well I'll keep ya posted on my boring life. Well im gonna go now um bye. Nikki

Yeah I guess I had a good day other than my second period teacher he made me write a two page essay on why you shouldnt write notes in class and he made me stand up for 30 minutes cause i was falling asleep well damn if class wasnt so boring i woouldnt be falling asleep. Um these pansy ppl are starting to piss me off they know iI just got back together with my boyfriend after the incident that happened but they still fuck with me and grab my ass and shit and its starting to piss us both off. Well other than my sucky as day at school I had a pretty good day, well um i cant wait till homecoming I'm still trying to convince my boyfriend mike that he should go with me to the dance but i dont know. well oh shit i better let yall go cause i dont want to bore you anymore with my boring life well gotz ta go. byes Nikki