alritey... well.. im making a promise to myself. here and now. and that is, that i will get better w/ dealing w/ people. im gonna get over my shyness to a point. its gonna be hard, and complicated, but i think that maybe.. after some time.. i can do it. i will do it, i hate living this way.. in total fear of everything, in complete submission. forget that, im done, im done w/ letting people walk all over me b/c im too afraid to actually speak my mind. so im not living this way anymore. =/ im gonna stop caring so much about what other people think, b/c u kno what?? who cares what they think, as long as im happy w/ who i am. forget them. thats my promise to myself, and its one im not gonna break. so wish me luck. its gonna be a long road.