I was working today, and it was about 40 something degrees in the rain. It wasn't too cold, i actually find that to be a plesant temperature. Then out of nowhere, i feel this ridiculous gust of wind, and it starts snowing, instantaneously. Im sure glad i got the back window up on my car.

As we approach the holiday season, i always feel a deep sense of emptiness. I know that i shouldn't feel this way since it's "The Most Wonderful Time of the Year". I dont really even know why I feel this way. Over the years ive sort of realized how precious life really is. There's alot of things that i dont like about the world, but i can't be pissed off about it all the time, i just cant do it anymore. I guess the reason i dont like christmas is because people miss the point. Not the religious connotations and all that, but just being civil i suppose. It's sad that people need an excuse to be nice to eachother. And sometimes they end up fighting over the last turkey or the last i-phone at the store.

I am looking forward to spending time with my family this christmas, that's all I want. Although, that makes me feel a bit empty aswell. I dont know how much time my grandmother has left, or how many more christmases i will get to spend with her in Connecticut. I love that house, i grew up in it. It's painful walking in there and not having my Grandfather in there, especially with all the memories of christmases past, that i spent with both of them. I dunno, i guess i think too much. Hope everybody's alright. Cheers

-Mick