OKAY!!!!ya i havent written in llike forever!!i remeber when we were ALL obbsessed with sit diary!!!ya the good old days!!!when everyone was friends!!!:(..ok no one is friends anymore well at least the guys thats why im so happy that im a girl and just can stay friends with everyone!!well lauren doesnt really have time for me anymore!!!it kinda suxs!!we used to have so much fun together and do what ever we fucking felt like!!!HAHA like talking shit to her dad and getting high and coming home when ever we wanted!!!lol tricia's kinda different now too but its just cuz she has a serious relationship hahah thats funny cuz mike treats her like shit and she needs to realize it!!!but shes happy so whatever!!!well lets see it used to be like me lauren and tricia!!we are 3 of a kind!!HOT SHIT!!BUT now its just kinda gayyyy!!!!my new home is like OAK VIEW now im always thier....john lives up thier and i have alot of fun hanging out with him!!hes kinda like the replacement for laure and tricia!!!!its kinda sad!!!the chalk festival was last week it was so much fucking fun!!i got way burnt though but me and dick had fun stealiing her ice cream!!OH FUCK YA!!!!Sean ryan is like boneing sum beaner now and shes 32!!hes her SUGAR DADDY haha like really!!!MOE moved out of tricias crazy huh!!shes not coming back for a while laurens dad is moving out soon cuz her mom is like a skanky hooker and has been talking to sum other guy!!lauren actually wants to move in with her mom instead of her dad thats when u know somethings wrong!!:( ya well drugzzz are like the best thing that has happened to me lately...everyone is differnet now but i can say im NOT AT ALL!!i am the same but drugs are the only thing that like keep me happy!!haha its kinda sad!!!me and cassie have been fighting for a while over sum guy but its over now!!!OMG her hair is brown again it so brings back old memoriies!!oh shit!!SUmmer is cumming up i cant Fucking WAIT!!!its gunna be so fun!!like last summer evrything is gunna be how it was bon fires on pittsfield stumbling back to tricias at like 1;30am then eating her food..and passing the fuck out!!warp tour is gunna be a blast!!road trips for sure this summer!cum on one of uss is going to be drivinghahaha i hope!!!ugh i just misss tricia and lauren how we used to allways be together!!ALWAYS!!!and hang out and get fucked up and hang out with random guys yesssss!!to bad nonw everyone has boyfriends!!!hahah well ya im so fucking tired!!!AND HUNGRY!!oh so hungry!!i need to eat!!!like seriuolsy!!well yeesss i g2g later fucking nagger nagger naggeer

WELL LETS SEE I HAVENT WRITTEN IN ALONG TIME I HAVE BEEN GOING 2 SCHOOL WICH HAS FUCKING SUXED!I FINALY GOT 2 HANG OUT WITH MY LOVE KURT HE CAME DOWN AND SPENT THE NITE AT MY HOUSE!THAT WAS THE FUNNEST WEEKENED EVER!WELL YESTERDAY WAS DUSTINS BIRTHDAY HES FINALLT 15 YRS OLD WHOOP WHOOP BUT ANYWHO ON FRDAY I WENT TO KEITHS CUZ HE WAS AHVING A PARTY IT WAS ALOT OF FUN!BUT LAST NITE SUXED...IM KINDA MAD RITE NOW CUZ I HAVENT TALKED 2 KURT BUT WHATEVER HES A DICK!HAHA YA WELL UMM CAN I HAVE SUM TOTS?LOL AHAHAH I LOVE THAT MOVIE!YA WELL I MISS SUMMER SO MUCH SCHOOL FUCKING BLOWS THIS YEAR WELL YA G2G BYE XOXO-BREESEA

Hey Hey im with trish,blaire,kaylee rite now at blaires gettin ready for the movies!i guess alot of people are going or something but yeah laurens laggin it,well i havent talked 2 steve whatever hes gay,i hope blaire can come with usss i want 2 get so fucked up 2nite and i wish taylor could come.tear tear i miss her, stick it in hahahahaha i love you so anywho yay my hairs not blue anymore,ya the dance was so gay fuck that shit fuck buena lol,well i love u g2g xoxox -Breesea

YEA IM TALKING 2 NATALIA AND SHE JUST TELLING ME STUFF THAT STEVE SAID AND THAT HIS STUPID GIRLFRIEND IS TALKING SHIT ABOUT ME.WHAT A WHORE....OH WELL FUCK HER,SCHOOL SUX ALOT YA THIERS A DANCE ON FRIDAY AT BUENA I THINK IM GOING 2 IT WILL BE FUN I LOVE DANCES MAYBE I CAN GET ALL FUCKED BEFORE I GO LOL, LAUREN THIS IS YOUR LAST WEEK U KNOW U WANT 2!HAHA YOU GOTTA,I GOT MY HAIR DONE ITS NOT BLUE ANYMORE THANK GOD,ITS LIKE LIGHT BLONDE WITH DARKBROW STREAKS IT LOOKS BETTER THATN IT DID!SO NOW YOU CANT SAY SHIT BOUT IT AND I CAN LOOK LIKE MYSELF AGAIN .LOL WELL YA KURTS BIRTHDAY IS ON NEXT TUESDAY HOPEFULLY I CAN SEE HIM SOMEHOW I DOUBT IT THOUGH YA I WANT 2 GET FUCKED UP THIS WEEKENED SO IF THIER ARE ANY PARTIES CALL ME OKAY WELL LOVE YA G2G -BREESEA

fuck my parents....i seriuosly hate them!! they can go fucking suck a cock for all i care they suck at being parents uhh i need to leave this god dman place that i have to call home..i need a job so i can get money...anywho.. i gotta go so i will leave you with these alst words.. FUCK MY FUCKING PARENTS I HOPE THEY GO TO HELLL AND DIE!!! XoXo Lauren*

the first day of school was today...fuck school..i hate it and i never wat to go back...

So rite now im going 2 go2 velincia 2 go shoping with Lauren i dont know whats down thier but were going!ya i talked 2 kurt last nite 4 a while uhh he is so hot,2 bad i will like never see him,but yea jims party is 2nite hopefully that will be fun!lookin forward 2 that.uhh i didnt get like any sleep last nite but im not even tired rite now its realy weird,well im gonna try 2 have a good day and not think about steve or anything okay and im gonna try 2 eat normal 2day thier is like something wrong with me i never eat any more its weird!but yeah uhh g2g love you bye-Breesea

I just got back from seeing notebook it was so sad.but the ending is good i guess. it like made me cry.......i didnt do anything today but get yelled at by kelly and then cryed 4ever then went to the movies with my sis and lauren.everyone should go see that movie it was amazing well if yur a girl its a total chick flick.well kelly if you ever read this i am so sorry and i wish i could take it back.this summer was fun but now it sux.well at least the last couple of days.Kelly hates me and she getting everyone to.me and steve arent going out anymore i thought i would be happier if we werent going out but its not true.i miss him......oh well lifes a bitch then u die.shit happens life goes on. well im gonna try to make the best of the summer we have left.maybe i will actualy meet a decent guy.in the movie its so cute this guy and girl fall in love over summer and are crazy over each other.but then she moves but im not gonna give it away.well i just want 2 say im sorry for being a bitch to everyone and stabbing a good friend in the back.well ya my moms birthdaays on saterday big whoop.great im actualy gonna have 2 spend time with her its gonna be great j.k.......ya me lauren and tricia are goig 2 vegas 2 my sister house so hopefully i can get away and have some fun well g2g love always-Breesea xoxo

Its saterday nite last nite was fun u guess first we went 2 in and out then we went to nicole and hung out thier and thier was alot of people thier so we had 2 go down the beach to a bon fire. we hung out thuie and like all these people showed up.so the cops came and we ran so faR IT was so gay then we all got like really high.i weas trippen.so we went home and fell asleep we didnt do any thing 2day well g2g love u love me -Breesea

dude its three in the morning and i cant sleep what the fuck im at tricias rite now and everyone is sleeping except me.....it sux im like talkink to blaire rite now.2nite sucked the high lite was like going 2 in and out that sux........well gtg love breesea

Im so fucking happy 2 be back in Ventura and this town blows.ive been gone 4 2weeks. on an island that sux.i can finaly hang out with my friends.Im so pissed cause i cant hear outof my left ear.cause the air plane fucked it up.it sux hard.lol.....so i didnt do anything exciting at all.ive been sober 4 2 weeks.i cant wait to go have fun.i miss lauren and sara and trica and alexis and everyonr so much i hope i can see them 2morrow.well ya this is our new backround lauren put on lol it makes uss look like alcholics and sluts J.K......i like it.so anyways this summer is just starting 4 me now and im gonna get fucked up.so peace. -Breesea

omg its finally wednesday!! yay im so happy! school gets out in like a week!! i think on the second this summer has gone by sooo fast! thats okay though! breesea comes back on monday and daniel comes back in like 2 weeks...but thats okayyy...anywhooo..i finally slept in my bed last night..its felt so good! i was so tired! i need to go to bed early tonight..i have had like only a few hours of sleep in the past few nights omg i am tired...i dont know if im gonna hook up with jim anymore...i've heard somethings that im not too sure about...but i would still wanna hang out with him!!!..i had so much fun with stacie today!! well im gonna go..this is the only diary im gonna write in for a while..xoxo ::Lauren:: comment me!!!

i have a new journal... intoxicated ...yea its my(lauren) personal journal!!! so yea you can comment me there!! much love!!

this is my new journal...made by taylor!! i love it!! thank you soooo fucking much taylor!! you are the best!!!..i just love taylor!!!she is such a sweetie!!..well yea i'm at patrone's house eating goldfishies and yeaaaa...well I LOVE TAYLOR SUZAN WARD!! YOUR THE SHIZZLE!! haha love yea...well me tay tittie and evan M..are going to dukes to eat..xoxox buh bye!!

I am such a bitch. i was totaly going off on lauren today.im so stressed rite now 4 finals and im so depressed i just want 2 be out of school plus all the Steve drama its so anoying.god i hate like evrything 2 add it all off Kristy called me and asked if i had sex with one of my ex-boyfriends cause thtas what everyone has been saying at buena i guess,god all i want 2 do is just have fun and have a good time and i cant even do that.Steve gave me so much shit 4 going to the pimp and hoe party.i was just trying 2 have fun jesus christ,he thinks hes like my dad.Plus like so many people talk shit bout me at school they dont evn no me.it pisses me off.i cant wait 2 go 2 marthas vineyard 2 get away from ventura 4 a while i cant stand it.......2morrow im gonna try 2 get up early so i can look cute 2morrow so me and my friends can take pictures and im gonna have people sign my yearbook.oh ya sean ryan is such a fag i cant beleive im related 2 him,omg im not even gonna say what happened but he blamed me 4 some thing he did again,hes such a fucking dick,and steve has not called me yet,oh well fuck it.ya im going 2 steves 2morrow i hope we dont get in a fight well g2g2 love ya-Breesea

PRIVATE ENTRIES ARE SOOO FUCKING STUPID!!! OH MY FUCKING GOD I HATE THEM!!!!!!!

well i am in the liberary "taking a test" soo yea well my weekend was alright. friday i went to this party but the cops came soo i went down to pierpont and me and breesea almost had to sleep on the beach but then this guy jeff said me and breez could sleep there with him and brent at his house so we stayed there then on sat. i saw harry potter and went to a pimp and hoe party and it was fun but everyone got kicked out cuz there was way too many people there..and yea..yesterday i stayed home and studdied for final..and yea..today..was monday..so it sucked!! yea jim asked me for my number today..but uhh..it was kinda dumb the way it happened..just cuz i felt like a complete IDIOT!! but yea..i guess he just wants to bone me...but i dont know..he is suppose to call me but yea..well im gonna go back to gay ass math class right now..fun stuff..ehh? so yea..HEY PEOPLE NEED TO COMMENT TO ME 2 EVERYONE COMMNETS TO BREESEA!! SAY SUMTHIN TO ME!! K? K! :-D

Ya im such a whore and a slut arent I......u fucking bitch who is to pussy to tell me who u are!even though yur probly more of a hoe then i am.im a virgin and havent even done that much stuff with a guy.And were the fuck did u get that i look like i have loads of plastic surgery.oohh burn.that was sooo harsh.is that all u could think of.its funny thiers realy nuthin to say bout me so people just say im slut.the only thing u can say is that im a bitch.cause if u dont know me then iam probly. so fuck you, u dumb bitch.just tell me who u are u fucking pussy-love Breesea

P.S I LOVE LAUREN ALWAYS AND FOREVER.-Breesea

Im so tired last nite was ok i stayed at trishas and diddnt go to bed til like 3:00 cause brent was snoring sosososo loud so then i went into the living room and went to bed. last nite we went to a bon fire.it was me brent dustin trish sean,jeff mario and lik a whole bunch of other people.it was fun.....im gonna hang out with steve2day. i thinx.im so glad school is almost out im so sick of it.my sisters down from Maryland and shes gonna take me to venice beach to get my last name in chinease tatooed on my ankle.and get my eyebrowl peirced but im not sure yet.ya its fun hanging out with her.2morrow im doing an debate on gay marriage and im against thie relligous fraek hes gonna like use the bible and say its a sin fuck that it should be legal who cares thier not bothering you.im so gonna win the debate. but anyways god stupid people like thet piss me off so much people that thinks its nasty to be gay well fuck all you that think that and stupid people that thinks its a sin.oh well fuck it g2g love ya all......not j.k -Breesea