Wow, am I overly dramatic or what?

So it's that time of year again, you know, that one that all us Drama kids look forward to every year? That time when you give up your entire existence to one cause, when you can't remember the last time you slept more than 5 hours..yes, that time of year is here and I can't help but not really give a shit. Don't get me wrong, I really do honestly like going to rehearsals, most of my friends are there, they tend to be amusing for the most part, but I don't know, something has been missing from drama for a long time for me. As many of you know I'm "Lord of the Props", therefore it's my job to find EVERYTHING for this show..I understand that it's my responsibility to organize things, and get MOST of the props, but come on, ALL OF THEM? I don't think I would even mind that much if Nelson actually respected me or atleast showed a tiny bit of appreciation. I respect Nelson for the way he dedicates his life to the Drama Club, but I don't like him, I think it kills him too to know that he's not like Kaufman. People love Mr. Kaufman, and they respect him too. My father has spent HUNDREDS, no exaggeration here, on these props over the years that no one in the audience will even take a second look at, and why? That godforsaken snow cost 100 dollars, did my father ever see any return on that? Or was it even in the show? NO. Does that show that Nelson respects me? Absolutely not. My task for this show was to find seven feather dusters. Feather dusters? Noone even uses those anymore so you can imagine how difficult they were to find. I finally found the perfect ones in Albany, black feathers w/ wood handles, PERFECT for this show, only they had only 6 of them. We needed seven. I bought them, and showed them to Nelson, and he actually said to me, "Oh...do you have the receipt?..." Well, I refuse to return them just because we are short one and he refuses to use the white one that we do have just because it's white. Who really gives a fuck other than him HONESTLY? I will say that Mrs. Nelson has been nothing but gratious to me this year. She actually came over to me when I brought all the props in and told me how much she liked the feather dusters and the other stuff I brought in. People give her a hard time, and I admit I have too MANY times in the past and probably will in the future, but she isn't all bad. Nelson on the other hand needs to find something else to do in life other than emotionally destroy seventeen year old girls.

I really haven't updated this in awhile, but I just had this sudden urge while reading the remarkable Mayor of Casterbrige (remarkable in that it takes me 30 minutes to get through 10 pages). This sudden urge to update Sitdiary was brought on by the abrupt realization that I am a senior, my friends are seniors, next year we will hardly see each other unless we turn into Vinnys or people like my brother who come home practically every weekend. But will we be like them? I don't really think so. Part of me wishes we could have another senior year after this, one drama free. Don't even get me started on how disgusted I am that we are still putting each other through this freshmen year crap of separate cliques and talking about how much we can't stand one another. Honestly is it even worth it anymore? Here we are, in the LAST year we are all going to be together, and we're wasting it holding grudges and "hating" people for reasons we don't even know anymore? I know if anyone actually reads this they'll say "Who hates who?", "what IS she talking about??" I know I don't hate anyone, but I do know that I'm sick of my friends, and others in that circle of friends living life in a constant state of deterioration. Basically I'm hoping that we can all grow up by the end of this year. Who knows.

Well it's been a year since I started this thing, I can't really say that my life is dramatically different from that point of my life to now..Junior year brought me closer to a lot of people, while on the other hand people I was great friends with in 10th grade just..began to not be my friends anymore, simple as that. Summer summer summer. My summer was plagued by the fact that I failed my math regents and therefore it was implied by my guidance counseler that I would fail miserably at all aspects of my future life. pssh. You know that's such crap. I know perfectly well that my grades as a whole and the classes I take by themselves could get me into a decent college, not my grade on a math regents, a 63 at that, 2 points from passing. Other than that I guess it was a typical summer..parties, friends, and stressing about school. I really hope that senior year turns out okay, junior year just seemed like such a blur of drama of all kinds and hardwork that I honestly can't look back on it and say wow what a great year. Not that it was horrible either. Who knows what I'm trying to say here. I have to go finish history...pronto..because I'm a lazy idiot who leaves all things to the very last minute. Wow. I just reread that entry and it seems too whoa with me, what a pity party. Anyways, life really is good despite everything I've said above.

hmm...summer=stress beyond imagination...i'll update laterrrrr loves

Summer. No more Nelson essays The end of late night binge studying No more random "I told you it would be sometime this week" Mr. O Chemistry tests No more Kaufman argumentative essays Maybe I can get more than four hours of sleep a night and did I mention before no more Nelson essays? yay for summer so yeah that's not much of an update but whatever :)

Wow. Yes I know American Idol is just a TV show but I am so pissed off right now. I say boycott it. Piss offs. Other than that, this isn't very much of an update, just thought you should all know the extent of my pissedoffedness.

Well Allura's party was Saturday, and I have to say that it was really fun. Atleast I had a good time, and so did the people I was hanging out with, although it seems some people enjoy making drama out of nothing. But I guess everything is cool now. Pssh..trampolines. NYC was Sunday, and it was AMAZING! The Producers was a great show, had a good cast, and over all it was pretty hilarious. It probably was even more amazing with Lane and Broderick..next year I hope we have more time to shop before and after the show seeing as it seems that all our group did was eat and then discuss where to go and then never go there. But again..it still was a great time.

So yeah, I haven't updated in awhile..not much has really been happening..I'm pretty preoccupied with all that SAT business and everything. I'm super excited for NYC this weekend..even though I didn't really want to see the Producers, it still should be fun. I'm personally hoping to see the Asian bike guy again this year, anyone who was in the Valiante group last year knows what's up in there. But before that I have some major homework..seriously whoever decided that we need to take regents exams pretty much is the gayest guy ever..with the exception of the Fire Marshal, who coincidently we discovered is actually the soccer sport broadcaster for all the High School games..small world. Saturday is Allura's party...i'm looking forward to some trampoline fun. Oh yeah, Dom got a blow job from a member of the Blue man group.

Well dress rehearsal has finally come and gone..quite horribly on a tech standpoint I might add. I don't know..things were falling from the sky..people were crying..being "injured", and basically everything else that could have gone wrong..did. Well I guess they do say bad dress rehearsal=good show..hmm. Oh yeah..Nelson is really pissing me off..but don't tell anyone. Update!: Well although it is true that I was supremely pissed off last night...I am no longer pissed at Nelson but rather at anyone who is, has been, or will ever be a fire marshal..if you do plan on being one, let me just say, it's a fact that you're pretty gay.

Poetry is an assmunch.

Life has certainly been full of ups and downs lately. Third quarter is DEFINITELY going to be my worst quarter yet, not like failing or anything..probably in the eighties somewhere..which is okay..but with the added stress of NHS..and all the other crap in my life..who knows. Mrs. Foote is pretty much insane..she wants me to bake 3 dozen cookies for the gay-ass spanish concert......psshh. Mr. Nelson seems to think i'm a 20 year old english major with all the work he gives our class..surprisingly enough Kaufman has been my school-related salvation lately. His class has consistently been the highlight to my days. Today in example Kaufman entertained us with tales of Frank Barone aka Boner. :)

Well drama has once again started up and I must say that something seems to be missing. A lot of people seem to be thinking the same thing...atleast people who have actually done more than one show. You know I'm all for new people coming into drama, if they didn't we wouldn't have a club every year..it's just some of the new people get on my last nerve..I'm not going to name names..I don't know..maybe they'll grow into it. I was probably the same way when I first joined. To tell you the truth..freshmen year of drama was just sort of daunting..the cicco's sister jokes seemed endless...sophmore year was way better...just with all of the awesome seniors and all...this year..I don't know yet. It just seems like every rehearsal is work work work, with an occasional dirty joke by Nelson. I understand the importance of being quiet and working hard to get a good show in the end, but at the same time this isn't freaking broadway. We're a bunch of 16 and 17 year olds just wanting to have fun..end of rant.

[1] I have eaten more than 5 meals a day. [2] I have read a lot of books. [3] I have been on some sort of varsity team. [4] I have run more than 2 miles without stopping. [5] I have been to Canada. [6] I have watched cartoons for hours. [7] I have tripped UP the stairs. [8] I have fallen down an entire flight of stairs. [] I have been snowboarding/skiing. [9] I have played ping pong. [10] I swam in the ocean. [11] I have been on a whale watch. [12] I have seen fireworks. [] I have seen a shooting star. []I have seen a meteor shower. [13] I have almost drowned. [14] I have been so embarrassed I wanted to disappear. [15] I have listened to one song over & over & over again. [] I have had stitches. [17] I have been on the honor roll. []I have had frostbite. [] I have licked a frozen pole and got stuck there [18] I have stayed up til 2 doing homework/projects. [] I currently have a job. [19] I have been ice skating. [20] I have been rollerblading. [21] I have fallen flat on my face. [22] I have tripped over my own two feet. [] I have been in a fist fight. [23] have played videogames for more than 3 hours straight. [24] I have watched the power rangers. [] I do attend Church regularly but not for service [25] I have played truth or dare. [26] I have already had my 16th birthday. [] I have already had my 17th birthday. [] I've lost weight since one year ago. [27] I've called someone stupid. And meant it. [28] I've been in a verbal argument. [29] I've cried in school. [30] I've played basketball on a team. [] I've played baseball on a team. [] I've played football on a team. [31] I've played soccer on a team. [32] I've done dance on a team. (I guess so?) [] I've played softball on a team. [] I've played volleyball on a team. [] I've played tennis on a team. [] I' ve been on a track team. [33] I've been swimming more than 20 times in my life. [] I've bungee jumped. [34] I've climbed a rock wall. [35] I've lost more than $20. [36] I've called myself an idiot. [37] I've called someone else an idiot. [38] I've cried myself to sleep. [39] I've had (or have) pets. [40] I've owned a Spice Girls cd. [41] I've owned a Britney Spears cd. [42] I've owned an *NSYNC cd. [43] I've owned a Backstreet Boys cd. [] I've mooned someone. [44] I've sworn at someone in authority. [45] I've been in the newspaper. [46] I've been on TV. [] I've been to Hawaii. [] I've eaten sushi. [47] I've been on the other side of a waterfall. [48] I've watched all of the Lord of the Rings movies. [49] I've watched all the Harry Potter movies. [] I've watched all of the Rocky movies. [50] I've watched the 3 stooges. [51] I've watched "Newlyweds" Nick & Jessica. [52] I've watched Looney Tunes. [] I've been stuffed into a locker. [53] I've been called a geek. [54] I've studied hard for a test and got a bad grade. [55] I've not studied at all for a test and aced it. [] I've hugged my mom with the past 24 hrs. [] I've hugged my dad within the past 24 hours. [] I've met a celebrity/music artist. [56] I've written poetry. [57] I’ve been attracted to someone much older than me. [58] I've been tickled till I've cried. [59] I've tickled someone else until they cried. [60] I've had/have siblings. (Had?) [61] I've been to a rock concert. (Backstreet boys..) [62] I've listened to classical music and enjoyed it. [] I've been in a play. [63] I've been picked last in gym class. [64] I've been picked first in gym class. [65] I've been picked in that middle-range in gym class. [66] I've cried in front of my friends. [67] I've read a book longer than 1,000 pages. [] I've played Halo 2. [68] I've freaked out over a sports game. [] I've been to Alaska. [] I've been to China. [] I've been to Spain. [] I've been to Europe. [69] I've had a fight with someone on AIM [70] I've had a fight with someone face-to-face. [71] I've had serious conversations on any IM. [72] I've forgiven someone who has done something wrong to me [73] I've been forgiven. [74] I've screamed at a scary movie. [75] I've cried at a chick flick. [76] I've watched a lot of action movies. [77] I've screamed at the top of my lungs. [] I've been to a rap concert. [] I've been to a hip hop concert. [] I've lived in more than 2 houses. [] I've driven on the highway [] I've driven more than 40 miles in a day [] I've been in a car accident [] I've done drugs. [78] I've been homesick. [79] I've thrown up [80] I've puked all over someone. [81] I've been horseback riding. [] I've filled out more than 10 myspace surveys. [82] I've spoken my mind in public. [83] I've proved someone wrong [84] I've been proven wrong by someone. [] I've broken a leg. [] I've broken an arm. [85] I've fallen off a swing. [86] I've swung on a swing for more than 30 mins straight. [87] I've watched Winnie the Pooh movies. [88] I've forgotten my backpack when I've gone to school. [] I've lost my backpack. [] I've come close to dying. [89] I've seen someone die. [90] I've known someone who has died. [] I've wanted to be an actor/actress at some point. [] I've forgotten to brush my teeth some mornings. [91] I've taken something/someone for granted. [92] I've realized how good my life is. [93] I've counted my blessings. [94] I've made fun of a classmate. [95] I've been asked out by someone and I said no. [] I've asked someone on a date and been turned down. [96] I've slapped someone in the face. [97] I've been skateboarding. [98] Ive been backstabbed by someone I thought was a friend. [99] I've lied to someone to their face. [100] I've told a little white lie. [101] I've taken a day off from school just so I don't go insane. [] I've fainted [102] I've had an argument with someone about whether cheerleading is a sport or not. [103] I've pushed someone into a pool. [104] I've been pushed into a pool [] I've done modeling Now count how many things you checked and repost this, subject being, "I have lived through 104/152 things"

My first set day for the musical was yesterday. It really should have been last Saturday, but since there is a lackage of tech schedules due to AHS's lack of paper in the media center..I didn't know about it. But whatever.."okaaaaaay", as Mr. O would say. It was actually pretty fun, we made this door contraption with two walls on the sides of it, I have no idea as to what it actually is..then we made the hotel room, and some other stuff..Oh yeah, how could I forget this. I tell my brother to come at 12:30 with lunch, I wait 45 minutes outside..pssh. I think we all know what he was doing, or rather who. pssh. I threw rocks at him. When I got home I watched Crash..and I have to say that I recommend this movie to EVERYONE..it really makes you think about yourself..and really how you see yourself and others in the world..I thought it was excellent.

Hmm..this week went by pretty slowly. Nothing much happened..more research paper related things, crazy chemistry, teacher recognition day...and BROKEBACK MOUNTAIN! Oh man. Here are some memories: "Jack Nasty" Rich and Earl Mexican male prostitutes Moose hunting NAKED Jake and Heath jumping off a cliff Princess Mia's boobs "I wish I could quit you" Our obscene hand gestures every five minutes Shirt smelling Fishing buddies? nahh All in all I thought it was a good movie, but...I think it sort of lost its effect seeing as I was laughing throughout the entire movie. Good times

Well third quarter started today, and I must say that I was kind of disapointed that we wouldn't be having our last health class. Mr. Allen is the only guy I know that can manage to say the same 5 word phrase in 25 different ways. RIP 6th period health class...RIP. We actually got our ELA scores back today..so scary. I really thought that I would get like an 86 or something around there, which wouldn't be bad at all if Mr. Nelson didn't expect a 90 or better out of us. Surprisingly enough I got a 96....yay. I'm so bummed that I managed to miss the first set day for the musical..it's not my fault, Nelson didn't give tech their schedules..pssh. You would think we would have earned some respect after that snow disaster..pssh.

You just wish you were a member of the 3 hour club...you're just jealous. If you didn't guess already, the first half of the ELA was today..really easy, but time consuming. Oh yeah...I hate manatees.

I sure haven't updated in a long while...nothing much really has been going on. The cast list should be going up tomorrow..I'm nervous and I didn't even try out. Well I'm not really nervous..maybe that's not the right word..I guess I just feel like I want certain people to get certain parts. Backstage should be interesting this year..seeing as there are going to be about next to no guys backstage to help move the set around..which leaves me who has about negative 2 percent upper body strength. Who knows, we'll probably end up getting Vinny to help us out or something. Don't you just love musical season? Speaking of musicals..did anybody happen to see that crazy musical that was on disney channel this weekend? Had to be the craziest thing I've ever seen. Hot stuff edit-The cast list blows chunks.

Today was a really long day. It's probably just because it was our first full day back after vacation, and once again chemistry brought down my entire day. It seems that I've accepted the fact that my chemistry grade is doomed to be awful..no not failing. Just not good enough to be called good, and not bad enough to say "wow, your stupid." It's just in between, and it sucks. We had a pop quiz today, fun fun. English was pretty interesting today. We continued our discussion of the Scarlet Letter. I really zoned out today, I really usually don't, but today I don't know what came over me. I found myself staring out the window most of the period..oddly enough thinking about what a Jesus-themed birthday party would be like..don't ask. Nelson actually did call on me for a question, and by some miracle from God I got out of it..it was pretty exciting. I paid for the drama NYC trip today. It should be fun if it's going to be anything like last year's trip. Starbucks, rollercoasters, cool asian bikeriders, and running to a theater 10 blocks away in a matter of 10 minutes..come on, what could be more fun?