He is one big Fuckin' asshole, I wish I can tell him everything in his face, shout every stupid and meaningless thing that he does....I hate him , hate him, hate him......

I am in a strange mood! I am in mood to read sad poems. My soul is dark - Oh! quickly string The harp I yet can brook to hear; And let thy gentle fingers fling Its melting murmurs o'er mine ear. If in this heart a hope be dear, That sound shall charm it forth again: If in these eyes there lurk a tear, 'Twill flow, and cease to burn my brain. But bid the strain be wild and deep, Nor let thy notes of joy be first: I tell thee, minstrel, I must weep, Or else this heavy heart will burst; For it hath been by sorrow nursed, And ached in sleepless silence, long; And now 'tis doomed to know the worst, And break at once - or yield to song.

I hate hat I feel like that, but I need to be loved, we all need that. If I see that someone likes me I feel nice, and that shouldn't happen. I should feel nice no matter what. I also hate the fact that I like the ones that I'm not suppose to like. oh God help me....clear my head! Sweet child in time, you'll see the line; The line that's drawn between good and bad. See the blind man shooting at the world. Bullets flying; taking toll. If you've been bad, (oh) Lord, I bet you have And you've not been hit, oh, by flying lead You'd better close your eyes. O-oh, bow your head. Wait for the ricochet.

I am really suprised with myself. I've changed so much. Before I could look at the stupid people and I could stay calm, but now I explode, not outside, inside myself. I hate people with no responsibility....how come that they are so stupid, how come they just do whatever they have to do just to get rid from the responsibility. That makes me very angry. What do they think when they do that. Is it possible that they think they are very smart. They are so stupid, they don't get the fact that the things they are doing annoy me...very much. I hate the fact that I can think what they are thinking, and they can't do that with me. They just don't bother. OK, no problem, don't try to find out what am I thinking, just try to notice that some things that you do annoy me. I don't want your attention, just let me live.

I don't know what happened to me, I used to be so cheerful, but I'm not anymore, especially not today. I feel like I've drinken black ink, and every cell block in me got black, only my heart is still fighting to stay red. It's very hard with these people around me...egoistic, stupid, human beings (if you can call them like that). Sometimes I try to understand what is on those brains, but then again I just turn my back and feel deaf. Left alone with a cold blank stare I feel like giving up I was blinded by a paradise Utopia high in the sky A dream that only drowned me Deep in sorrow, wondering why