ok you know what, this thing is fun since no one reads it. I'm confused at life.. And why someone is acting different since for the past like 3 days. It's getting on my last effin nerve!! We used to talk all the time with no problems and I have a feeling he is preoccupied with other people now . I guess he found someone more interesting to talk to because he's all quiet. and I feel sad. wtf makes me so damn unworthy, I hate sucking. goodness gracious I'm pitiful. sit here feeling sorry for my own damn self and it's not even like I have a bad life. I just don't have a life at all. This song is 7 1/2 min. long but so worth listening to. I know I'm being random. Well I'm trying to be open and even though no one is reading so I don't care It's just impossible because I don't know how to word anything! I'm like...my brain doesn't think in words but emotions. they're too hard to translate when it's a billion of them mixed together. *criessssssssssssssss* mother fing. retardedness I wish I knew how to communicate my feelings effectively and even ask people questions and not make everything awkward. I am just a massive blob of awkwardness waiting to cause destruction. it's not fair