I am so tired, but I can't sleep. I think thats one of the worst feelings. It's very unpleasant. It's also very unpleasant that my dog is laying on my pillow snoring away. Ah, I love her though. I think shes having a false pregnancy. Theres a chance that she might actually be pregnant but I'm sort of in denial. I don't want her to be pregnant..shes my baby. :[ That and shes very small, I've heard that dogs like her often have complications during birth. If she dies I'd probably have a heart attack. It sounds silly and maybe even downright pathetic, but that dog has been there for me at times when even my family wasn't. She just has a way of knowing when I'm upset, and curls up next to me until I calm down. :') It's funny, it was around this time last year when I thought that I was pregnant. With John's child. Not John my adorable, loving, ex-boyfriend...John the drunken mistake. He's the opposite of everything that I like in a man. Even so, if it had turned out that I was pregnant, I would have probably kept the baby, I probably wouldn't have told him about it either. The only reason I ever even slept with him was because I was very drunk, I was very stupid, and I was very upset (a friend of mine had died just days earlier.) He's tried to contact me a few times since, but i've ignored his calls. I don't even know why I'm writing about this..I wasn't pregnant, and I was more than relieved not to be. Anyway, ~changing subject~.. I missed school tonight for the first time ever. Since high school I mean. It feels weird, but I guess it doesn't really matter. The professor I was supposed to have tonight is absolutely amazing, he'd never penalize me or my grade for being out sick. I'm going to have to make up that speech though.:[ Oh well, I guess I'm going to try and sleep again. Goodnight♥