Well, some people can drive you udderly insane today. Just because it's so gloomy out and people just seem to be extremely crabby today. It's been a while since i've actually written in a diary, and I honestly think writing in a diary helps me work out my problems alot easier. I think the reason i've had so many issues with life and my attitude lately is because I haven't written in a diary in so long. I think the whole "online diary" really helps people. Just to express themselves to others weither they know someone or not. I think the internet diaries help people because they don't know the other people actually looking at their diary. And when you do get people you know looking at your diary, you start to get a wierd feeling, as if you've been violated and you dont have that private (secretive) feeling anymore. Well lately I've been at a down. So i've decided to create another diary. Hey and its making me feel better already. Just to get my thoughts out their and to type. Well anyways, lately me and John have been goin through some problems. John seems to think lying to me will help with keeping me off his back about getting a job and fixing his car, and doing the basic things he needs to do to get by in life. I mean yes, john does do some good things with himself. But the main responsibilities are what he's been missing lately. It seems me asking him to clean the house a little, to get a job, to stop acting so immature.... is way to much for me to be asking of him. But in reality.. He is going on 21 yrs old. this next year and he is working on getting a stable job just now. Well Friday I decided to move out after John lied to me about driving my car. He had been using the neighbor's car key to drive my vehicle and using a coat hanger to pry open the locks. Of course that's a MAJOR violation of my trust and I feel completely betrayed. He just doesn't seem to think anything he does bothers me or hurts me. I don't understand how guys can be so immature and not understand another person's feelings.. I just feel really depressed right now.. And i've always been the one to say Depression is only what you make it. But ive had that feeling, and Im feeling it now.