I just got back from camping this morning. I liked being away from home for a while and just relaxing. When I got home I fed my horses and then I unpacked and I got on the computer, then mom started being bitchy again! and said "Just cant wait to get on that fucking computer can you?" well I need to check shit! grrrrr... parents really make me mad sometimes. They always want us to be doing some stupid shit, but never what we want to be doing. It seems like no matter WHAT I am doing though it is NEVER the right thing to them.. I just want to be able to go to work, make money, come home and do my shit, not their shit.. It's like they think I am their personalized slave. I guess they are just miserable old people who never got enough hugs when they were little.. Another thing is I feel like no one is really my friend. People tell me they love me to death, and that I am awesome and they love to hang out with me, but at the same time it is like when something happens I am the one they dump it all on, and then they treat me like shit. I am not trying to sound like I am feeling sorry for myself, but it just feels like everyone is 2 sided to me, like just now, I made plans with my cousin from college and her boyfriend to go somewhere tonigh like a week ago, and then she calls me and says she is bringing my aunt, uncle, and little cousin along, so I might have to get a different ride... I am always the one that is checked off the list when eliminations have to be made, yet everyone loves me! Then my Piano teacher calls to schedule a lesson, so I say monday, and she says thats good for her, and she says 9 in the morning, and I say 11, and she is like, no..... 9. Yeah, it is my schedule, I am paying her.. I make the time, but no, it has to be 9 for her! I just feel like I hate the whole world right now! Alan.