"hey unfaithful i will teach you to be stronger hey ungraceful i will teach you to forgive one another hey unloving i will love you and jesus i'm ready to come home..." sorry i cant get this song out of my head it just totally amazes me life seems so surreal right now and i am changing everyday and definitely better i am actually more myself now and i feel amazing but at the same time i feel horrible because i keep thinking abut him and i know i shouldnt but its just been so hard to let go i mean my life is totally different without me spending every waking moment thinking about him dreaming about him kissing him or talking to him and i know i sound so stupid right now but life is just totally different and i keep feeling so weird about it but im so happy right now its like i pray everyday to change and be right and it gets better and worse sorry this entry was way deeper than i thought it was gonna be but i just have to know...why is it so hard to just let go...? *emoLy