I hope the days come easy and the moments pass slow, and each road leads you where you want to go. And if youre faced with the choice and you have to choose, I hope you choose the one that means the most to you. And if one door opens to another door closed, I hope you keep walking until you find the window. If its cold outside, show the world the warmth of your smile. But more than anything, my wish for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to. Your dreams stay big, your worries stay small. You never need to carry more than you can hold. And while youre out there gettin where youre gettin to, I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too. ...This is my wish. I hope you always forgive and you never regret And you help somebody every chance you get. You find Gods grace in every mistake, And always give more than you take. This is my wish. I hope you know somebody loves you. May all your dreams stay big.

So I finally did it. I actually made a connection between school and reality. Today in psychology we read an article about doubts. Surprisingly, it was interesting. In a nut shell, Alice Miller talked about how people take a path in life, a path that they judge to be the most adventageous to themselves at the time. However, often times people tend to doubt their decision somewhere along the line. Basically, what she was saying was that whatever caused that doubt, as small as it may be, could actually be a sign of regret, and consequently the path you would have been better off taking. The second I read that it just hit me that it really applies to my life and where I am right now. Its weird to think about the different directions you're life could have taken. The part that really stuck to me though was about those subtle, sometimes even subconscious, second guesses about where you are today. I always thought those were just a part of life, a way to keep in check with yourself. But what she was saying actually made sense. anytime you do that, youre not just questioning your decisions, youre actually recognizing the possible need for change. Now lately Ive been a big fan of "if it works to your benefit, and if it makes you happy at the time, then go with it," but it really made me think about the mistakes i might have made. Maybe I should be somewhere completely different right now. Maybe I should re-evaluate a few things. Maybe the fact that Ive thought about some things really does mean that I want some things. Maybe I dont want to want what I might actually want. But with that being said, who the hell is Alice Miller anyway?

wow, its been a while. Looks like maybe I finally grew up...maybe. Ive had some odd thoughts lately. Well, very recently to be more specific. Out of nowhere I got a really strong feeling that somethings missing. Something big. Something like family, or health, or spirituality. Its almost like I lost my ipod and forgot the words to every song I used to know. Random analogies, yes, totally aware right now. Im just in such an odd mood, its like a panic-stricken tranquility. No, im not high, or drunk, or depressed, or whatever else one might conjure up in their own mind, but its clearly out of the norm. Its like a painting on a wall in my head just went a little crooked. Alright, enough description. Bottom line: What's missing?...Can you miss something you never had? Is it a someone, or at least a noun in general? Is it even something I had to begin with? Usually I ask questions like this with some form of rhetoric attached because I already know the answer, but not this time. Discontent is a lonely feeling...But I shouldn't feel lonely. I don't feel lonely...do I? WTF mate. Maybe this is the beginning of something bigger. Or maybe it's that deja vu you never had, but should have. maybe i've finally lost my damn mind and crumbled under all the stress I used to hide behind. Or maybe this is part of growing up...oh right, that.

ohhhh man. Friends are the best.

Looking back at me I see that I never really got it right I never stopped to think of you I’m always wrapped up in things I cannot win What I really meant to say Is I’m sorry for the way I am I never meant to be so cold I never really wanted you to see The screwed up side of me that I keep Locked inside of me so deep it always seems to get to me I never really wanted you to go So many things you should have known I never meant to be so cold

FRIENDS KICK ASS! the end.