wow, its been a while. Looks like maybe I finally grew up...maybe. Ive had some odd thoughts lately. Well, very recently to be more specific. Out of nowhere I got a really strong feeling that somethings missing. Something big. Something like family, or health, or spirituality. Its almost like I lost my ipod and forgot the words to every song I used to know. Random analogies, yes, totally aware right now. Im just in such an odd mood, its like a panic-stricken tranquility. No, im not high, or drunk, or depressed, or whatever else one might conjure up in their own mind, but its clearly out of the norm. Its like a painting on a wall in my head just went a little crooked. Alright, enough description. Bottom line: What's missing?...Can you miss something you never had? Is it a someone, or at least a noun in general? Is it even something I had to begin with? Usually I ask questions like this with some form of rhetoric attached because I already know the answer, but not this time. Discontent is a lonely feeling...But I shouldn't feel lonely. I don't feel lonely...do I? WTF mate. Maybe this is the beginning of something bigger. Or maybe it's that deja vu you never had, but should have. maybe i've finally lost my damn mind and crumbled under all the stress I used to hide behind. Or maybe this is part of growing up...oh right, that.