So I feel empty and devoid.

I haven't known who I am for years. I'm not sure if I can recall exactly what triggered it,

how it happened or why. But for the longest time I've been everyone else around me.

I watch a movie, my mind sympathizes and I feel and act like the characters.

I'm around a person, I mold myself to how they act, and what they want.

That, I believe is why I always avoid human contact.

I don't know who I am. Maybe if i just stay away I'll finally remember.

Everybody thinks I'm the perfect guy for them, the cool dude.

I can't help but spurr them on. Someone texts me, don't even want to talk to them.

Yet, I still respond.

I still try to make them feel special and as if they're all there is for me.

It's all a lie though, I can scream in my head for them to stop their stupid babbling.

Their annoying voice screaching in my ear as I cringe. And I smile away the pain.

Give them a hug to make them smile back. Act as if nothing's wrong.

My mind is constantly shifting, muttering within itself, spouting out a billion different personalities.

I'm already insane, so now it's just driving me around.

Who am I anyways.