with the advice of a friend, i am going to tell him how i feel. my friend told me even though i asked him out, he doesn't know i how i REALLY FEEL ABOUT HIM. god i am scared, i hate telling people how i feel about them. it makes me go extreamly far out of my comfort zone. OH YEAH! on a more postive side, my cousin Clark is home! his drug tests all came back negative, only becasue he has a very fast matbolism and all traces were gone by the time he took the drug test. so, they cant prove he used the drugs, only that he had them, he got to come home. i still haven't gotten to see him, but it makes me feel SO much better knowing he's home and in not as ....much trouble. i cant wait i go to australia in 26 days. it's so exciting. i really should start getting stuff for that, but knowing me i wont actually get anything till like a week before we go. and i wont actualy pack till like a day before we leave. i am so bad about that stuff. today was the day of silence. i did better then last year, i talked less and didn't say anything for my frist 2 classes and most of my third. then i gave up. i tried to be quiet for a little longer afterwards, btu i jsut couldn't. not talking it just too hard for me. Bryn and i had fun during lunch though, we wrote parts of songs on my white board. then on the way back to school i lost my white board marker, which is kinda sad. well, imma go to bed now. i'm tired. i love you all! ~Sakae~