its all my fault apparently

how can you do something wrong but i'm the asshole you fuck up but i'm the loser you place the blame when you caused the problem i run around apologizing for shit i didnt do like it's my fucking problem and like it's not you and how come when i'm crying tears that belong to you am i longing to hold you and i lash out at everyone but the ones that should be dealt with i should take a fucking bludgen and bash your fucking head in but then i'd be lonely at night and long for you warmth and this time it really would be my fault

how can you do something wrong but i'm the asshole you fuck up but i'm the loser you place the blame when you caused the problem i run around apologizing for shit i didnt do like it's my fucking problem and like it's not you and how come when i'm crying tears that belong to you am i longing to hold you and i lash out at everyone but the ones that should be dealt with i should take a fucking bludgen and bash your fucking head in but then i'd be lonely at night and long for you warmth and this time it really would be my fault

how can you do something wrong but i'm the asshole you fuck up but i'm the loser you place the blame when you caused the problem i run around apologizing for shit i didnt do like it's my fucking problem and like it's not you and how come when i'm crying tears that belong to you am i longing to hold you and i lash out at everyone but the ones that should be dealt with i should take a fucking bludgen and bash your fucking head in but then i'd be lonely at night and long for you warmth and this time it really would be my fault

how can you do something wrong but i'm the asshole you fuck up but i'm the loser you place the blame when you caused the problem i run around apologizing for shit i didnt do like it's my fucking problem and like it's not you and how come when i'm crying tears that belong to you am i longing to hold you and i lash out at everyone but the ones that should be dealt with i should take a fucking bludgen and bash your fucking head in but then i'd be lonely at night and long for you warmth and this time it really would be my fault

how can you do something wrong but i'm the asshole you fuck up but i'm the loser you place the blame when you caused the problem i run around apologizing for shit i didnt do like it's my fucking problem and like it's not you and how come when i'm crying tears that belong to you am i longing to hold you and i lash out at everyone but the ones that should be dealt with i should take a fucking bludgen and bash your fucking head in but then i'd be lonely at night and long for you warmth and this time it really would be my fault

how can you do something wrong but i'm the asshole you fuck up but i'm the loser you place the blame when you caused the problem i run around apologizing for shit i didnt do like it's my fucking problem and like it's not you and how come when i'm crying tears that belong to you am i longing to hold you and i lash out at everyone but the ones that should be dealt with i should take a fucking bludgen and bash your fucking head in but then i'd be lonely at night and long for you warmth and this time it really would be my fault

like ancient hatred bubbling over my eyes burning with loathing i fester in self pity waiting to strike at you rip your soul from your eyes and devoure you whole blood wont flow from your non beating heart becaue your heart is a void and your veins full of dust

my middle name dream eater because i will eat your mind right from your skull and leave you an empty shell to be devoured by vultures you've got money but i've got everything you're all material and i'm all me and i mean more than you ever will my name will not go down in shame

fuck you forever and a day until my lungs fill with your blood and as you take your last breath i laugh because you know it was all your fault keep your forked tongue behind your teeth because i walked through hell to kill liars like you forget you into the dust as my mind moves on to so much more and as your memory fades i wont be haunted because you always were fucking nothing

i thought it would be prudent to write here. if our love dies tonight, my memory haunts you by 3 am

so, i've decided it. i'm naming my next band "zombie barbie" and i dont care what anyone thinks. and if my band mates dont like it i will find some that do. and i really like the guys i am planning on jamming with so i really hope they like it. although i might settle for "leroy jenkins" or "shooter mcgavin" depending on the type of music we play. i wanna play kinda horror punk, but the lighter funnier side of it. and these guys love to have fun. if i have a serious metal band i'm gonna name it "angelica x" that is all i have to ramble about at the moment

the world has gone to black and white everything is about difference we all claim the same goals but we wear our shrouded mask the world has gone to shit every day we live our lies and our brother hood is forsaken and we stab each others backs what happened to happiness what happened to fun we all focus on bad times and nothing is left of us

yeah i heard you were there last night and you looked good all dressed up right and i heard there were even a couple ones interested what the fucks your problem do i need to beat your fucking head if you're dumb enough to fall for lines then i guess i should let you fall and when you skin your fucking knee your heart pours on the sidewalk my words fell on deaf ears my concerns were thrown away i sit here in the dark wondering why i cared at all no i never believed your lies and it's sad, you believed every one you think you're forever you think you're immortal as you fall struggling to fly you never admit you're wrong just so you dont have to cry go cry to someone else your redemption's no good hear dont you know i'm not your redeamor i'll be frank and you can be a liar to try to prove me wrong you'll set your heart on fire

today, i thought i was dark and tan but the water washed the dirt away and i'm left pale and alone no longer wrapped in the comfort so take me away wash it all away throw me away wash it all away my unfinished business is none of your business but you pry into my dreams and you wash them till the bleed so blow me away wash my life away throw yourself away wash it all away sitting in a corner starring into darkness scratching at my own skin pulling it away i'm sitting in a corner laughing at the darkness crying over myself wash it all away

he burnt you down time and again but you rose back up like a phoenix for him and he ripped out your wings ground them to dust laughed at your pain and never cared enough fire washes it all away nothing left but a new start it warms and it comforts or it rips you apart you've suffered an onslaught of fists and words you smiled like a champ right through the hurt your only reciprocation a stream of tears and the only reaction was a lack of care blood fills your lungs and tears fill your eyes fire burns your soul from ashes angels rise blood fills his throat fire fills your eyes no tears will flow from ashes angels rise

if tears streamed all day every day then maybe i'd speak of crying but since this blood flows like a sliced jugular then i'll speak of bleeding in this world you've created my life is desolation in this world that you've destroyed i'm the fucking king it burns like hell because thats all you are your demonic voice haunts ripping my angelic wings into bloody piles of flesh and shattered piece of bone and i'm bleeding for you and i'm bleeding for you it's armmegedon and your the appocolypse and your horsemen come hate, pain, lies, strife they rip me limb from limb til i'm left broken so i fight back with nails and teeth it's not over til i'm done i'll fight back til you run because you cannot take me you cannot take me

i look into your eyes so warm and blue looking into me i brush your skin so soft yet so cold how can you be so cold? you smile at my questions like some joke i dont yet know the punchline and then you start slipping away then i see darkness and grasp nothing but pillows i guess the cold was me because thats all i feel as i gasp for air i realize it was you you stole my breath from me i feel a warmth in my heart but thats nothing but memories soon replaced by tears just as warm but not as pleasent and i'm gone again slipping away to where i will always be fine i search you out again but no smiling face now all i see is hatred am i looking at you or am i looking at me just minutes ago i wished to be lucid now i beg for conciousness i beg for sweet release i'm flaling now hoping you save me pull me out of hell and save me tonight

your voice bursts thru my throat and the ensuing blood speaks your words my heart pumps grime my black blood dead my heart is cold just like you said your lies echo in my hollow shell they pierce my flesh they burn like hell punch me in the throat it would hurt less than what you're doing now stabbing my back your true face shines thru you're fucking grotesque beauty melts away till there's nothing left i'm horrified in a corner at what you reveal but i'll fight back until only one of us breathes take me take me away burn me burn me down leave me leave me to rot because i will rise above

Bleeding, So profusely from my lips. Every day, Just to fit in. Vomit Of lies and elaborations. Just enough To get a fucking rise. I used to have "friends" And I had enemys More than I could count. Now I just have Those on my level and, Those who I've left Far Behind i'm an outcast cause i'm not fucked up in the head i used to be cool but now i'm straight edge i'm a loser cause my my minds not dead i used to be cool but now i'm straight edge Screaming, Just to stand out. Painted, For my friends. Rise up, Raise your fists in the air. Just enough, to be counted.