New year, been a over a year since I have logged on into this and wow, I'm back. All by accident, I completely forgot. I am honestly NOT the same lady I was before. I have gotten bitter and lost how gullible I used to be. I learned who my TRUE friends were and in the process figured many so called "friends" were stabbing me in the back. One must ALWAYS be careful what you say on the Net, someone's going to read it. I lost the one woman I have ever loved last year and I miss her terribly. I dream of her and I wake up thinking she's cooking breakfast or going to pop into my room to kiss me good-bye before she heads off for work. I found out that I can truly like someone so much I can't find any other kind of happiness with someone else. It's just not the same. Every other guy seemed like an ephermeral pleasure rather than what I feel for this other man. He makes me happy and I love being with him. Clearly no one else can know because you just haven't SEEN. And that's your loss... ...I have changed for both better and worse. I am called "Every parent's WORST nightmare" in my circle of friends because of this shit I have done. Clearly, it's not over for me. I know that in these next months, I'm once again going to change drastically. But it's life. The only thing permanent in life is change.