question: can i go? am i in? how much longer? are they going to take me? am i good enough? is this it? answer: i dont know. i feel really distant with everyone right now and i dont know how to make that feeling obsolete. nina comes home on friday. im excited. christmas is in twelve days. i have to decide the next 5 years of my life by february. and the crazy thing is...im not even certain that the thing im planning for is even going to happen. damn. ps: stop singing the songs. just stop. you have no idea what they are about and what it really means. and just because it's something you saw once and thought was cool, doesnt mean you're a bohemian now. stop. please. yay house is on tonight.