Yeah so i dont have alot of time to write this because im going to work but the summer has not turned out how i wanted at all. josh and i broke up. he cheated on me. it was fucking horrible. sam comes back from alberta tonight and ive been high since she left. gagh. i met this guy name justin. he's nice. i really dont kno what else to say about him. I cant wait for sam to come home. basically her and i are going to spend the next four days blazed off our asses and talking because i love her and ive missed her. blaaagh. i go camping this friday. its going to be gay.

AND IT'S SUMMER. so im totally done all my exams and it's fucking summer. ahh im so excited. I want to make this summer the best one yet,but it hasnt exactally started off that way. i was supposed to have tony;kirsten;sara;sam and everyone over for a swim yesterday and none of the showed up..fuckers. at least we called tony and told him not to come cuz he was still sleeping at 1pm. whatever. So i kinda sorta have a job i guess. i spend time there and they pay me for it. but i absoutley hate it, i hope fucking harveys hires me so i can quit. or i hope they just dont need me anymore. sam leaves for alberta soon:( she told me like two weeks or something and its so sad. i wanna try and have a going away party for her, but since my friends are bitches they might not show up when i tell them too. But at least sam and josh were there yesterday:D we had fun. we went to stephs to help her pack cuz she's moving..haha we just got high and basically pretended we were packing. she stretched mine and sams ears which is freakking cool:D im gonna buy the bigger size off her later. haha. and my mom hasnt even noticed. she was just like "who gave you those earrings" i told her sam and she didnt ask anything more. WHATEVER. ITS SUMMER. and we're gonna make it the fucking best.

Fuck. I fucking hate boys sometimes. Like honestly what the fuck. So fucking yesterday I knew josh was supposed to hang out with tony but then at school tony told me he wasnt doing that anymore, and on thrusday josh and i made the plan that if he wasnt going to tonys that he'd meet me at the bus stop like always. And since tony told me it was cancelled i expected to see him at the bus stop. so when i didnt i was obviously worried sick. Thank god for sam. I went over and hung out with her which was always fun. but this fucking morning i log on and tony fucking is like "josh is here blah blah" and i was like "great cuz i was worried" so i asked when he was coming home and he just started to be a jerk, saying "never" blah blah. so obviously i got upset. I was like fine then i'll fucking see you monday. GAWD it pisses me off, why do guys have to be such fucking jerks around their friends?! And i know that since tony is seeing all this he's gonna be like, omg giselle is such a fucking loser blah blah. fuck fuck fuck. i fucking hate you.

srsly fucking love ♥

so. this weekend could go one of two ways. it could go super fantasticly awesome which i hope it does because tomorrow josh is having a little birthday party and i say little because i suspect its only gonna be, me,him,sam,richard and tony. I have no idea. but we'll be fucked up so it'll be fun♥ OR it could go super horrible because sunday i have these fucking 9 people coming over to do this massive religion project none of them seem to care about finishing execpt for me. plus these two chicks keep bitching and whining about everything we want to do. its so fucking annoying but whatever. I am hoping everything works out for the best. yesterday sam came over and we went swimming, then went to josh's got high and took pictures..oh and had ice cream. it was fucking sweeeeeet hopefully the weekened continues in that fashion...

Hello hello hello. so i havent written in awhile, partly because the site was down partly because shit's been crazy. I have this massive religion project due next week which i have no idea how im supposed to finish it but whatever. really im just annoyed cuz theres 9 people in my groupe...fucking 9!! Its intense. im looking up information on it now and will be working on it most of the night. woopie. jesus i already have a headache.

Blaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah. so im writing my essay tonight and it's absolute shit. Fuck fuck fuck. I loved Macbeth why is it so hard for me to write this damn essay? Ugggh. My sister once again has managed to piss me off to the extent of tears again today, I don't know what it is about her but when she steals my clothes this rage just builds up inside of me and i want to tear her blond head off. yada yada so i caught her wearing my sweat pants, my "spike" belt and some necklaces of mine. Fuck. she pisses me off so much. and since my moms gone and george is working im stuck looking after her. wooopie. I feel bad sam wanted to hang out tonight and i cant cuz i have to do this stupid essay and watch my faggot sister. ohh isnt my life exciting. sunday. thats something to look forward to. thank jesus. Hopefully when sam and i drop off resumes one of us will actually get a job, both of us at the same place would be even sweeter, but who am i kidding, no one will hire me. Then the concert ahhhh sweet sweet embassy. really i have nothing else to say, im just in a bitchy mood cuz of my sister. which is pretty ridiclious considering she's younger than me. well back to the worst essay in the world. hope your weekend is better than mine.

Well today was kind of a werid day, School was boring as always, my english class is full of fucking retarted cunts who cant pay attention to jack ass..i hate them all. But religion was pretty funny. Then co-op was alright, i was alone at the office for a bit which was pretty cool, i had like 3 calls on the go at one time...haha wow huge geek. Then when i got home, i called sam but she was showering lol so i went online. ahh josh sent me this email his mom sent him, its pretty sad. I mean this woman just feels like she's doing everything right and that josh is the one making his own life and her hell, ahhh whatever. I dont even wanna deal with her shit anymore. its gotten so ridiclious. Uhmm this weekend is looking like its gonna be pretty fucking sweet..well except friday night i have to write my Macbeth essay but that shouldnt take me long, saturday josh is comming over which is gonna be good cuz i miss him. and sunday sam and i are gonnna go hand out resumes and then see Aiden and Halifax its gonna be a good show, it'll be good hanging out with sam i miss her too♥ Ahh my moms in vegas this week which is pretty sweet, im glad she's not here to bitch at me all the time and my george is pretty cool. Well he works alot so he's not here and when he is he doesnt really make a fuss which makes him perfect. We're starting to run out of food though which means we're probally going to have to go to the store tonight.. AHHHH why cant it just be the weekend.

Ugh. so i just finished doing all my "extra" chores that i needed to do to get some money for that concert this weekend. Ahhh thank gawd thats over. it's gonna be a pretty sweet show though, too bad its on a sunday night but whatever. My sister might give me her INXS ticket because she's really mad at the chick she was supposed to go with but whatever we'll see how that all pans out. Uhmm, i caught my sister wearing my fucking clothes again. God it pisses me off so much. i mean, can she not get it through her thick blonde skull no means no?! I've fucking told her a million times not to go into my room and take my shit espically without asking but she continually steals and wears my clothes and not just ratty old clothes i barely wear, but my favorite clothes, even my fucking band tshirts. It's like wow get your own fucking shit and stop scamming off mine. God fucking dammit. Plus my parents dont do jack ass about it, they always have these "talks" with her about how she should ask me and shit, but she doesnt care. I need a fucking lock on my room. That would slove the problem, but nooooooo my mom thinks im gonna lock myself in there when im mad. Fuck. She could have a key for all i give a shit just as long as my sister stays out im fine. Ahhh, i want my step dad to come home so fucking badly. I just wanna know if he's gonna give me and sam the money for those say anything tickets. I'd feel so fucking horrible if he said no, sam has her heart set on this. Speaking of concerts, the all american rejects are comming to that cowboys place in town and I dont really want to go as much as I used to, but i fucking have to go just because when i was in love with them I swore to myself i would see them before i die. Plus this one chick i know is apparently "so in love with them" she's fucking going, and i've been a fan way fucking longer than her so im going she's the biggest poser ever and so what i dont like them as much as i used to i was once...yes sadly, a die hard fan. so im going no matter what. I wish sooo fucking badly that i could drive so i could go see Taking back sunday in Torontro and obviously i wish i had a job to pay for all the shows i wanna see. God dammit. I should get on that shit.

uhmm. where do I start...I dont know why I got this journal, kinda silly when i think about it. only sam's gonna read it and i probally wont be faithfull to it, which is bad i know. uhmm, so today i got to see josh downtown for a bit after co-op which was super nice..and I talked with richard for a bit, we shared a starbucks, which was tasty. I called sam♥ we talked on the phone until she went babysitting..now she's feeling sick and i hope she feels better soon.. Really I dont know what else to say. I had another diary but it was different. uhhh what else..my mom leaves for vegas tomorrow that should be interessting..i was supposed to go help josh work on his roof saturday but his mom doesnt want me at there house, shes afraid she might "say something she'll regret" what the fuck else could that woman possibly say to me...fucking hell. ugh that woman...no words, just none. She's on 3 kinds of pills now for, depression, phycosis and schizophrenia... speaking of schitzo's my step brother is in the hospital again saying he's gonna kill himself...but he's probally just mad at his parents and throwing a fit again. oh jesus i just ranmbled. fuck me.

soo may 6th quite and interesting day, Josh moved out today, it was a sad venture but of course sam saved me and im hanging out with her♥ also my parents went out of town to spend some time together before my mom leaves for vegas...eww i dont wanna think about that...but im kind of liking this homealone-ness, since im technically not spending the night alone. Sam's gonna sleep over and possibly josh and tony. Hopefully it all works out. it would be nice to spend the night with them..potentially fucked up...haha.

okay so i got this dairy and what does my first entry need to be about...me bitching about the diary. haha im so cool. i can't fucking figure out how to do anything on here. so suck it up that it sucks im not computer smart in any way or shape or form. anyways. New taking back sunday cd comes out today♥ Im so excited, but alas i have no money to buy it. fuck. uhmmm i dont really have much else to say. i have another diary on www.opendiary.com my user name there is unspeakablesin. if u wanna take a look. if not. good for you.

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