So these past..two weeks of me not writing and keeping track of this diary have been very eventful. my last entry said i love Stephanie Nicole..which stood for i love nick. after i had signed off the internet he asked me out so i couldn't change it to the braver version and type i love Nick. I said Stephanie Nicole, because thats what his name was gonna be if he were a girl, inside joke... So i loved him SO much and evrything was great we went to the movies, and nothing happened except for an immature hand hold. But i still loved him. Now theres this girl Kacie, no1 really cared for her..she is kind of slutty and stuff..so yea. Well she was in nicks neighborhood one night...and they made-out. I found that out the next day..Nick and i broke up i called Stephanie, we cried on the phone and i knew iinside i still liked him. but no1 else did school was starting the upcoming monday, all saturday and sunday i recieved phone calls, and i.ms with ppl that i usually dont even talk to saying, "omgi can't beleive that stupid slut", and "nick is such an ass who could do that to a girl like you" Kc and i got into some arguments i noticed some of her dirty looks, but we. i had more ppl backing me up then she could even think of...last year it was her lexy, emma, chelsea, steph and i that *sat together at lunch* but so far this year it has been all of + a new kid, and sudden surprises my *Amber* and adam... and kc, she has been all alone! HA I gotta love my friends they have all been behind me and giving her dirty looks and just being THERE! i tried not ot talk to kc(which was easy) but one night she imed me...by the way Casey is a boy and Kc the slut is a girl..lol and she spent the n ight at Caseys..watch pink kiwi xOo: are u still mad at me? xX 4gotten tears: um pink kiwi xOo: i'll take that as a yes xX 4gotten tears: what did you do at Caseys party? xX 4gotten tears: take it as you want i didn't say anything pink kiwi xOo: i spent the night there.. xX 4gotten tears: did you do anything with anyone? xX 4gotten tears: ? pink kiwi xOo signed off at 9:35:36 PM. pink kiwi xOo signed on at 9:36:09 PM. pink kiwi xOo: sry my comp froze... pink kiwi xOo: why do u wanna kno xX 4gotten tears: okay xX 4gotten tears: jw xX 4gotten tears: i heard you did, and i wanted to see if it was true pink kiwi xOo: what did i do? xX 4gotten tears: im askin' xX 4gotten tears: did you do anythign with any1 at Caseys party pink kiwi xOo: im askin to bcause obviously other ppl love me life and tell others what i did.. without me knowin xX 4gotten tears: huh? pink kiwi xOo: live* xX 4gotten tears: ohh pink kiwi xOo: people always tell other people what i do. even if its not tru they make it up just 2 b cool pink kiwi xOo: im a just a school slut that everyone fuckin lies about and im a sick of it. its not even 2 wks of school yet xX 4gotten tears: i wonder why? pink kiwi xOo: thios school yr sucks bcause on ONE mistake that i've said sry for at least 15 times xX 4gotten tears: i dont know if its just that one mistake pink kiwi xOo: well what else is it? xX 4gotten tears: but that one definetly boosted you up there pink kiwi xOo: bcause idk what i did xX 4gotten tears: all the small stuff pink kiwi xOo: like what pink kiwi xOo: i need reasons why i am hated xX 4gotten tears: do you? pink kiwi xOo: hell yeah xX 4gotten tears: that, could be one, that you need to know the wrong you do xX 4gotten tears: and, after everyone said how wrong it was with what you did with nick, i still see you hug him at school xX 4gotten tears: and stuff pink kiwi xOo: but i dont think ive done anything wrong .. except tryin to make everyone not hate me pink kiwi xOo: he's my friend i can hug my friends can't i? xX 4gotten tears: ofcourse, you can make out with them and lie about it too pink kiwi xOo: ok 1st thats old. and idk why u forgave NICK & ALEXIS for it but not me. ALEXIS LIED TOO pink kiwi xOo: yeah sure nick was blunt about it and told u .. but alexis didnt pink kiwi xOo: and yeah ur bff's with her now pink kiwi xOo: FUCKIN SCREW KACIE xX 4gotten tears: wiat, arent you friends with lexy? xX 4gotten tears: why do that to a friend? xX 4gotten tears: backstab them and put them on the spot? xX 4gotten tears: hey! maybe thats another reason too! pink kiwi xOo: I'M A SLUT A BIG FUCKIN SLUT - EVERYONE COME LOOK AT THE BIG FUCKING SLUT xX 4gotten tears: im happy to know you can admit it pink kiwi xOo: no me & alexis are " friends " ' xX 4gotten tears: then why did you put her on the spot like that? xX 4gotten tears: and shift the weight to her? try and get it off ur back? pink kiwi xOo: bcause its not fair that everyone forgave them abnd not me xX 4gotten tears: i know lexy meant her opolgy, and after she sad it, she didn't go and do that kind of stuff angain with other guys pink kiwi xOo: wtf are u sayin i dont mean mine?1 xX 4gotten tears: not when you do the same stuff the next day pink kiwi xOo: and i didnt do anything with other guys xX 4gotten tears: honestly, i dont know if i can trust anything you say anymore pink kiwi xOo: well i guess u never were my friend xX 4gotten tears: if thats what you want to think, go for it xX 4gotten tears: well..i think im gonna go b4 i waste all my ink nice huh? yea i kept my cool..haha well that wasn't too long ago.. Sat. the 4th i went to lexys, she also lives near nick..him and i hung out alot and i noticed some flirting..AMber and lexy say they did too...but i wasn't interested in him..i had my eye on Kevin.. Kevin lives right down the road from her too so we casually walked by. he was cutting his grass*what a hottie!! and later that we hung out... he didn't talk at all! i was so angry! So nick and i walked back to his house all alone in the dark..spooky... So we aproached his house and i heard music from the garage..i thought it was a violin but..nick said it was a guitar...lol He knocked on the garage and the guy inside goes whothis? and nick said "nick, whos this?" he goes "Drew" (kevins older bro) nick "goes which window is kevins, we wanna throw rocks at it" I said"oh! but not big rocks little ones, like love taps" and Nick says"yea cause she loves him" and i screamed and was like notuh! it was really funny so we walked back and just talked..blah when i left i hugged him, and started to like him again... this past friday i got off the bus at lexy's house..and adam got off at nicks, so ofcourse we all hung out. Right away they were like lets go get kevin..OH yea! casue Kevin asked me out and..i said yes..DuMb Me! we walked to movie gallery, got 2 scary ones, and a lot of candy(i didn't spend a penny though) and then walked back to her house. We got on aim and i was in the other room when i found out nick was talking to kevin telling him i wanted to bang him later, and i wanted it up the butt, no condoms then i was trying to get nick away from the comp, and trying to type that it was nick, but we wouldn't letme..Then Adam put this sour sugar shit on me, and it was soo sticky so i was chasing adam and nick around the house trying to get them back. it was really fun..then lexy and got *refreshed* while nick and adam wen tto go get kevin. they came back and we started the first movie we got...sumthin wish master>> i dunno really really dumb movie! i was not interested at all considering shy kevin on the left of me was farther then like my best friend adam on the right! we touched one time, and thats when i bent down to get candy...! i was so ticked off and i wasn't enjoying the movie at all, so i stood infront of the tv and asked if we ould change it..i would have but i couldn't reach...Kevin changed it for me, which was sweet i guess... i totaly forgote about the other movie, but nick and i went upstairs to get another..we got nightmare on elm street 2..ive never seen any... when nick got it, like all the movies fell it was really funny, and then kevin and them came up, and again kevin helped me reach something i couldn't how cute...i guess we went back down and about 10 min into the move Kevin had to go..THank god!!! I was getting so irritated! we weren't doing anythin!! so he left and it looked like he was going to give me a hug but i kind of backed up and went back inside. I told adam to move cause i didn't want to sit on the outside but instead nick moved so it was him me adam, then lexy. i was thinking outloud but kind of told nick, "I was basicly throwing the blanket at him to share with me! and he didn't even do anything!!" then nick goes.."Ohh!" and he pulled the blanket on his lap too. Right away i thought of the movies when we went the first time and how long it took for us just to hold hands! both of our hands were under the blanket and i could sense he was moving his around to find mine..so i just grabbed his and we locked fingers(as amber calls it..lol) I put my head on his shoulder and he rested his chin on my head *sigh I put my legs up on adams, then nick put his arm around me and i was laying more on him and had my left hand on his lap. I loved him SOO much and i relized that i never got over him yet. Inside i knew that that was as much that i could do with him, cause i couldn't put kevin through, what i had went through. this all happend the tenth and all the 11th and today we have been talking and, i heard he liked me...yea thats kool i like him too, but what about Kevin? and what about everyone at school thats angry with him? oh well i had to deal with it. i was ont he phaone with nick amber and kevin when i du mped kevin, we all hung up amber and nick called me back, and he asked me out...i said Yes.:D aww! i love nick SO much! and i hope no SLUT ruins it again..! well its creeping 1:oo this fine Monday morning and i need to go to bed for school! Love Sara