I had every intention to wake up early today. I woke up at 9...watched two episodes of V and then fell back asleep until 1. So no, I didn't wake up early today. I had every intention of getting ready for work and then going by the river to eat lunch and do my homework...Well I went to the river and ate lunch-with my best friend and didn't ever take my books out of my trunk. So then I went to work and figured, Okay I'll get out at a decent hour and do my homework...but my long lost friend came down and you know how that goes. How could I not hang out... Now I'm home and about to do my homework...but I'm on the phone with the guy from the BareMinerals infomercial- this was a bad idea because all I want is the starter kit &he is trying to make me buy all this stuff. hw time....

i love living in connecticut. i sat outside a coffee shop this morning and just enjoyed the sun. i didn't do anything for like 20 minutes. i just sat a n d e n j o y e d t h e s u n . i was excited to come home after work, and after sitting in the sun, and go to sleep. but instead i'm hanging out with a pretty cool 9 year old. so, cheers to that. i thought something bad happened this morning in texas, and i realized how important he is to me... that was well needed. xo.k

good morning, i miss this website. i don't know what made it pop into my mind, but i even got my old name back. i'm loving that. a totally different person.. a girl with drive &responsibility. im happy about these things to say the least. no more manic highs +lows. but do i no longer have the capacity to be so in love? my boyfriend, i love you.. but i do not know if i'm in love with you. i don't feel that waking on clouds, happiest girl in the world, love with you anymore. we are good for each other, i agree- but it's not what i want. i want to be in it. i want to be push up against a wall for no reason at all. i want to have something to look forward to. I WANT BUTTERFLIES. i want to hang with my boy, my boys, and my girls-but you'd never want to. i want surprises. i want smiles. i don't want to keep secrets from you. --i occasionally smoke cigarettes, &i'll always love getting high. so kill me-- i'm not sure how much longer this will last. that hurts more than you'll ever know. coming from a girl with no regrets, i'd always regret letting you go.. if it comes to that. xo.k