this journal entry is mainly for jen. your right. i guess it does have to do with a low self esteem. but i couldnt help it. even you said u've done it. i couldnt help myself. it really bothers me now though. i suppose it just opened up another door. one of those doors with all the caution tape around it, as if there was a crime scene behind the door or something. do you really think it was wrong of me? or did it open up my eyes to something i was naive to notice? maybe i should stop and keep my faith. faith. eh. unfaith...fulness. danielle