i spent the night with him the other night. the whole time that we were together, i wanted to just sleep in the same bed with him. i wanted to fall asleep with him holding me. i did the other night and now... i don't know what to feel. i'm getting to the point that i don't miss him so much anymore, like i don't feel anything for him anymore. it's sad to really think about it like that but that's how it is. i just don't think i wanna be with him like that anymore. i don't think i could ever go back out with him after thinking back on everything he's ever done to me, after he used me and used me and used me. i gave him everything, my all, and he did nothing but hurt me again and again. even after all that, even though it's getting hard to feel anything for him, he's still that one guy that i will never fully get over. and that sucks so terribly...