WOW, re-reading my last entry was so weird. Me and henry? Love? Pffft, as if. Or were we? I mean, I really felt it was, but maybe it wasn't REAL love, a great big love which changes everything.... We were growing up, in the end i was glad i realized it wasn't love. Oh well, not going to speak about him. I feel so happy about my new school, I feel whole again, I really do. I feel like i'm back to myself when I did well. I don't know what it was about Balmain but I had changed and I did nothing. I don't know if it was the grey and cold colours or just....what was it? I know for sure I don't want to be going back there for a while. Maybe never, until years time when I look back and think "ah the days, drinking and being silly teens, havin' sex and not givin' a shit." There were some awesome times for sure. But I think now things are getting really good for me. I don't know where the hell I would be if I stayed in that place. I really didn't see anything coming to me. I'm doing heaps now, it's just been so great, and I FEEL great, I feel great physically, emotionally, mentally and spiritually. Wow.