10:46 p.m. Why is it, that humans are compelled to either gain energy when they are tired, or completely shut down, and becomse the person that will always regret? I know this for fact after today. I suppose that my natural nature is to be polite, easy going, well mannered, and positive. Well, I can honestly say that today I was an utter and complete asshole to everyone whom I encountered. I had so much negative energy exuding from myself that I have no idea why anyone even wanted to be around me today. Yet, even though this day was a good day, with nothing truly going wrong, an angry and negative facade was put up. Why? I suppose maybe I am thinking a little to much into this question, but it is one question that I know I truly want to answer. Why did I turn such a wonderful day full of love, kindness, and care into a day where I dissapproved of everything that was going on? Did I really mean to say the things that I did today? I feel that my real reason is that for one of the few times in my life, I actually got stressed out. Yes, I am really starting to feel the pressures of college, auditions, money, scholarships, a car, and other various things that are all just adding up and supposedly putting so much weight on my shoulders. But, now that I have established this flaw of mine, I may now be able to turn this negative energy that I have stored inside of myself and strain it into positive energy. After all, life could be so much worse. -Clark King