have you ever lost your bestfriend due to suicide?
have you ever woke up wondering if your bestfriend comitting suicide was all a terrible dream?
have you ever realized that your bestfriend is gone forever?
i have.
a couple of months ago, my bestfriend since kindergarden hung herself.
she thought it was the only way to get rid of all the pain in life.
she was so wrong.
ever since kindergarden people have been giving her a hard time because she didn't look like any of them.
she was really pretty. long brown hair, big blue eyes, and a smile that could kill.
everyone made fun of her because she wore glasses and had braces.
it wasnt her fault.
then one night she went into the garage, and grabbed the toghest rope.
she went into her back yard and tied the rope around her neck, and sat at her picnic table and wrote a note for her mom. then she grabbed a chair and placed it under the nearest branch. she waved goodbye to the world and walked off the chair.
the day after i was waiting for the bus and i saw her mom. crying. she approched me and told me melissa had commited suicide the night before. i almost fell to my knees. i sat down in a flower bed as melissa's mom told me the rest of what happened. she reached into her purse and pulled out a peice of paper. she handed it to me and told me to read it. i opened the nicely folded note and started to read.
"Dearest Mother,
you have been good to me over the past fifteen years.
what i did wasn't your fault, so don't beat yourself up for it.
all my life i've been through hell, dealing with school.
i couldn't take getting mocked or even beat up for every little thing
i couldn't ever go back to that awful place.
i love you very much.
and someday we'll be together again.
love always: melissa"
after reading the note my heart stopped.
i started crying. melissa's mom told me that her funeral was going to be in a week. and that i could come because i was her bestfriend, and if i didn't show then she'd understand. she also told me that loosing a bestfriend is hard for a teenager to go through, and it's also harder for a mother.
i couldn't go to her funeral because i couldn't stand seeing my bestfriend laying in her casket, not moving or never waking up.
i went to her burrial the day after, and it was harder to see her being put in ground so early. i couldn't believe she was gone forever.
melissa was a very complicated person. i was the only one who really understood her, because i took the time to get to know her before i made my decision, and i knew from the start that she was going to be my bestfriend.
she will always be in my heart.