i am moving yet again my new diary is: ilovex3sonny i am relocated

i'm sich but nvm that i'm whoring myself CUZ NO ONE ELSE WILL WHORE ME! msn:x__sugarxwerexgoingxdown_x@hotmail.com myspace:www.myspace.com/xixneedxanotherxsmokex vampirefreaks: www.vampirefreaks.com/littleblackcrosses all poetry:www.allpoetry.com/xbrokensorrowsx yahoo:xguessxwhox@rogers.com there we go i WHORE'D myself word to ya mutha ya'll love -cassiexox♥ ex'z+h'oh'z

so...today was my dad's birthday but my sister's got in a fight, no one really said happy birthday and we all were bitchy... so he left...he went out... how do i know how to pick them? i mean pick the ones...that will break my heart? i was dating chris, he didn't phone me for a week...and he says he didn't wanna hurt me he is breaking it off because he is too lazy to commit to a "long distance" relationship...he lives in ajax and i live in the north end of oshawa...it's not that far like "FUCK" the sad part is i actually loved him...oh well now i'm alone and single again-cassiexox♥ ex'z+h'oh'z

I'm starting to feel as if no 0ne fucking cares! write me comments bitches or else i'll oh...em...gee i'll stab you with a fork! send me comments...!-cassiexox♥ ex'z+h'oh'z

i dunno if it's me or what...last night robin black, robin fucking black played at the dungeon it was awesome...he gave me a beautiful autograph...and he put my headband in his pants*faints*...and then after the amazing performance...we smoked up with the guitarist killer ky...he's so awesome...and starboy is sexy, kidd is great and looks like orlando bloom, the creep likes porn lol, killer ky likes the ganja, and robin loves beer!ne.hu it was fucking awesome...i love robin black-cassiexox♥ ex'z+h'oh'z

woohoo! the dead dogmatics were awesome last night...i swear they just keep on getting better live...the mosh was awesome...ashley was a tad too drunk and got kicked out for shit-kicking this chick in the mosh pits...go ashley go...my wife[morgan]and i got drunk together...t'was fun...i'm cutting off my emo hair...i'm getting an under cut...so the back will be completely shaved...at the bottom...and the top will be like brody's in my header...tell me wotcha fink k?sorry i haven't updated in a fucking long while...my computer hates me...i think i shall sniff some more glue...lol-cassiexox♥ ex'z+h'oh'z

adam lied...he lied to me and said he liked me...like what the fuck?fuckin asshole...i'm sorry morgy i hate your son. did he think leading me on was a good way to go? i guess as such because he certainly led me on...ooh...the best part is he told me about another girl...and that he couldn't deal with my problems...so once again...i am the one who is wrong...once again...i am the one left at the side of the road to die...i hate you.i hate you.i hate you.adam i hate you...the uber-sad part is that i could've loved him...fuck this all-cassiexox ex'z + h'oh'z

so last night at like 11 adam met me out front...we went to bum smokes...he ended up stealing one off his person that rooms with his house?lol...i tried to fix his lip ring...and he kept losing the klittle bally thingers...so I get my flashilight...and start looking...it was sweet...he's so akwardly funny...i love it...and today we're spose ta hang out...but if he ever get's ready in time...I swear to gosh that boy takes forever to get ready...he has to do his emo hair...lol...nash is coming over...so even if he doesn't show it's okay...holy crap am I obsessing over him?oui lol..."it's time for super model documentary hour!*in french accent* the other day i was walking down the street, and a man comes up to me, and says do you want to be a supermodel?and i say oui the next day I was in new york on the cover of VOGUE"...lol drewcy-cassiexox♥

I went to the dungeon last night...t'was awesome...we went to max's...so many emo kids were there though...like 5 bajillion...and it was so icky hot inside that as soon as you walked in you could feel the sweat drip down you...oh well adam was my date...he's so cute and akward...I love him...lol...morgy and bernie were there and I was like I'm hanging out with morgy's son...and everyone was like how the fuck does that work...lol...it was good...keena saw rides again...so her night was made...mallory started smoking...she's quitting chemicals as of sunday so she started smoking...lol...I got to go to the mall and give them back to her...but I live like in unit 3 and adam lives in unit 53...lol...we thought we were so far away the entire time we were chatting...geez...lol...well anyway I'm gunna go[<3adam]-cassiexox♥

me and my mum just had a huge fight...it was so horrible it almost seemed like the fight was having us...she doesn't want me to move -out...then we yelled and a few hours later as she was going out the door...she told me she hated me... and I was so set on moving out...so she get's all mad and tries to stop me...I was talking to adam and he said he wants to adopt me...:)...I wish he would...I love adam♥...we might be hanging out at the mall tomorrow...:)...gottsta go bitches word to your mutha-cassiexox♥

can i tell you something?it's a secret...okay it all started way back in the summer of grade 9[going into grade 10]I became addicted to Oxyconten...just as sure as crystal was becoming addicted to crack...yes I've had my problems...but I've gotten over them I've conquered bulimia,ecstacy,cutting, just as sure as I've conquered Oxy's...I pwomith...OMGush!...my summer school math class is in an eastdale science room...I stole a pipe[for weed] out of the cupboard a glass cutter,filter paper, lotsa little funnels, a squeezey thinger, a stir rod, and more....plus cody stoled...4.5 bongs out of the cupboard...me and jen are like wonder who the stoner's are in this school...the science nerds!...lol...I'm gonna test out my pipe...tomorrow...at one of the breaks...gosh it was soooo extremely hot...in that class-room...then we sung the elliot moose theme song at the end of the day...to conclude our studies!lol...fun times...I'll never forget-cassiexox♥

It's so blucky in my house...there's no effin' air conditioner...it's goddamn hot in herre!...lol props for nelly...lol...so I got high today...with matt...my ex...it was interesting...I came home...got a shower...to prolong the highness...and then burnt out and fell asleep...:)being high is ok...atleast I have quit acid and E and bad shit like that...and I'm not abusing my body like tezzlino....snorting resparadol...*shakes head* I don't know what I'd do if I lost her...but brandi I pwomith...I'll be careful okay?if I had any bad things on me I'd chuck them right now...at this very moment...I don't know if I'nm ready to come to terms with my addiction...yet...but baby steps...baby steps...bye-cassiexox♥

I hate this...akward feeling...like I'm in a fake world...made of drunken confessions and drugs...nehu last night at the dungeon...I got drunk...with morgan and tish...my lover's...and then I got stoned with kyle daryl branden and kat...then again with daryl and branden and bubbles...it was fun...now I understand why so many people turn to drugs...they make you forget every problem in your life...it's like...when you are drunk...you can drink your pain away...and you can smoke weed to make you forget it all...it's fun...but emotionally damaging...I didn't find andrew and sarah after nash left I hung with gary<3...:)...but I was so drunk and high...I swear...I needed to get drunk...morgan and tish I love you...you made my night...:)...I saw faye...and...danielle...it was good...mike showed up and ran away suddenly...whatever...I still...don't quite remember last night...lol...oh well...whatever...can't blame me can you?-cassie xox♥

I'm going to the dungeon tonight...YAY!!!...my first time...being there since I got out of the hospital...:)...awww jeez....I love summer hero...it's like I hear the wordz summer hero...and my heart dances...I love them soooooo much!...nashiepoo...she's coming with me...:)...I think this will be nashie's first time at the dungeon...MAKE HER FEEL WELCOME EMO KIDS OR ELSE!!!!...:) dani will probably be there I haven't seen her in fucking forever...I love this song...uber muchly...hawthorne heights...is awesome...tezz got me started on them...I am not trying to be you tezz! we're friends not clones!...LOL...if tezz was my clone...she'd be bulimic...if I was her clone...I'd be a frosty freeze dicky dee...lol....*I can't make it on my own, because my heart is in Ohio, so cut my wrists and black my eyes, you know you do you do me well...*...ehe:)...this is my new diary...I have got to go add everyone! lol check ya on the flipside-cassiexox♥

I am passing summer skool! :O!...me...really...I am...I met your best friend maddie...I know jen...:)...I have to go get a new emo bang bang! cuz I gave my other one...to brandi! I ♥ YOU!....gotta run I'll edit later-cassie xox ♥ edit:// I got two new eMo bang bang!'s today...:)...a squirty water gun and a soft rubber bullet po-lice gun...lol...I ♥ my eMo bang bang!'s they make me happy...:)...*dances around with eMo bang bang!'s*...I feel pretty oh so pretty...and pretty and witty and homosexual...[cuz homosexual's more flamboyant...like jesse]-cassie xox ♥

[please just don't play with me,my paper heart will bleed,this wait for destiny won't do,be with me please I beseech you,simple things,that make you run a-way,catch you if I can] Tears fall, down your face The taste, is something new Something that I know Moving on is, easiest when I am around you. So bottle up old love, And throw it out to sea, Watch it away as you cry A year has past The seasons go Please just don't play with me My paper heart will bleed This wait for destiny won't do Be with me please I beseech you Simple things, that make you run a-way Catch you if I can Waiting, day to day it goes through My lips, are sealed for her My tongue is, Tied to, a dream of being with you To settle for less, is not what I prefer So bottle up old love, And throw it out to sea, Watch it away as you cry A year has past The seasons go Please just don't play with me My paper heart will bleed This wait for destiny won't do Be with me please I beseech you Simple things, that make you run a-way Catch you if I can Summer time, the nights are so long The leaves fall down, and so do I into the arms of a friend Winter nights My bedside is cold, for I am gone And spring blossoms you to me ... summer time, the nights they are so long the leaves fall down, and so do I into the arms of a friend winter nights my bedside is cold, for I am gone and spring blossoms you to me♥...I love the all-american rejects...-cassie xox ♥ edit:// senses fail-handguns and second chances To kill the whitest looking dove To hate everything I love And I'm trying to pretend Oh in wanting life to end That I am not another stupid Little teenage fucking whore And now I know And we will see And now I know And we will see To take this handgun to my eyes And watch my cells start to rise The flesh now starts to break as the Bullet enters like a snake Through one side of my head And out the other one And now I know And we will see And now I know And we will see And I'm too scared to live tonight And I'm too bare to shed my plight And I'm too scared to live tonight Too bare to shed my plight (Please tell me I'm not wanted) (Please tell me I'm not wanted) Watch the bones rip through my flesh A catharsis of my own distress (Please tell me I'm not wanted) (Please tell me I'm not) And now I know And we will see And now I know And we will see I lurve the song...it is my obsession...it's so emo...it's just amazing-cassie xox ♥

[please just don't play with me,my paper heart will bleed,this wait for destiny won't do,be with me please I beseech you,simple things,that make you run a-way,catch you if I can] Tears fall, down your face The taste, is something new Something that I know Moving on is, easiest when I am around you. So bottle up old love, And throw it out to sea, Watch it away as you cry A year has past The seasons go Please just don't play with me My paper heart will bleed This wait for destiny won't do Be with me please I beseech you Simple things, that make you run a-way Catch you if I can Waiting, day to day it goes through My lips, are sealed for her My tongue is, Tied to, a dream of being with you To settle for less, is not what I prefer So bottle up old love, And throw it out to sea, Watch it away as you cry A year has past The seasons go Please just don't play with me My paper heart will bleed This wait for destiny won't do Be with me please I beseech you Simple things, that make you run a-way Catch you if I can Summer time, the nights are so long The leaves fall down, and so do I into the arms of a friend Winter nights My bedside is cold, for I am gone And spring blossoms you to me ... summer time, the nights they are so long the leaves fall down, and so do I into the arms of a friend winter nights my bedside is cold, for I am gone and spring blossoms you to me♥...I love the all-american rejects...-cassie xox ♥

okay so shandi and me talked and she appologized...although I don't thibnk she meant it...oh well...One less person to rob my grave...I'm talking to that odorf guy and it's interesting...lihp isn't answering me...but he want me to fuck him...lol...what do I do...he's 20 and he wants me...what am I supposed to say?so proudly with bandages she walks with razor blades filling her socks-tezz I wanna be an emo kid a goth and a punk all at once help me... so again you sit staring. always I am loving you. yet never you're caring-cassie xox ♥

my first entry in my friends only diary...thanx marissa for giving me an idea...hmmm...do you like it?...my diary I mean...do you find it pretty? I hate I mean extremely hate...shandi lee cox...she is a gorgrous yet selfishly opinionated little girl who need's to forget the past... My OlD tHoUgHtS oN sHaNdA: with a gun in her hand she's my shooting star...I loved her from the moment I saw her...she is gorgeous...and so stunning,but I soon found out... My NeW tHoUgHtS oN sHaNdA: she's still stunning...but you know...an ugly person...may be beautiful on the inside...well I think she is a beautiful person that is ugly on the inside...shandi you broke my heart more than justin... she walks around...with a spongebob bandaid on the bullet hole...-cassie xox ♥