Our electricity just came back on. It had been off and on since the hurricane came through. My brothers just went to my dads house. Obviously he didn't want me to come because he didn't ask me. Which is nothing new. I haven't been to his house in about 3 or 4 months. Well I am not sure what I am going to do today. I know I have to go and pick up limbs out in the yard and in the field. Then I will have to pull the trees into a pile to burn. We have a lot of trees down. So I will probably be doing that all day. Well I guess I better go take a shower and get started. L8er!

"Van Gogh's Irises sells for $53.9 million." Art sales don't usually make headlines, but occasionally you'll see a front-page story about a partivular painting being sold for an ASTRONOMICAL sum. To the untrained eye, even such an extremely expensive work may seem to be only a few lines splashed across the canvas, holding no meaning or appeal. What makes such a picture worth so much? The answer is found tucked away, almost unnoticeably, in the lower right-hand corner - the artist's signature. Even if the image on the canvas seems rather ordinary or commonplace, the name VAN GOGH or GAUGUIN or REMBRANDT scrawled somewhere on it makes the piece priceless. The reason the artwork is worth so mich is simple: it came from the hands of a master. The same truth of humanity. Some people think that human beings are valuable because we have somehow acquired dignity in a meaningless universe. Others think our value comes from being the most highly evolved creatures on the planet. But Psalm 8 teaches that what makes us worthwhile is the fact that we are made in the image of God. In spite of our sunfulness, in spite of the fact that we have broke God's laws and warped his creation, we still bear the image of the One who made us. It's easy to believe this of kind, attractive, thoughtful people. But it is just as true of the murder on death row and the terrorist who bombs airports. We're not God's image-bearers because we're good, but he created us. Our worth is based on his work, not our goodness - which is a good thing because we are full of sinfulness. We're like a masterpiece that has had mud and filth splattered on it. Underneath the dirt, we still have the Master's signature on us. That should help guide how we treat each other - even the people we don't like. When you are confronted by people who seem to exist only to make life unpleasent - the classmate who majors in being obnoxious, the parebt who seem only to criticize and put down, the teacher who takes pleasure in putting red marks on your papers - remember: that person bears the signature of the Master Artist. So do you. Regardless of our sinfulness, that fact makes each of us the most priceless object in the universe.

We have had some really bad weather today. I didn't sleep last night because of the wind and rain. My aunt and uncle live in Lake Charles. They didn't leave. They sent there kids out though. I don't know why they didn't leave. One of there kids is 5 and the other one is 7 then they have a 19 year old who is expecting. We haven't heard from them. So we are worried. We aren't having church tomorrow. :( Our church is filled with people from the nursing home and then 70 other people. They also don't want anybody on the rodes. So we can't have church. :( I have been talking to my brother like every hour. He is in Baton Rouge. They don't have electricity right now. Our yard is full of limbs and trees that fell. I don't think we will have school Monday, or at least I hope we don't. I have a poster due Monday and I don't feel like doing it right now. So I am hoping we don't have it.

Last night we saw 2 does in our yard. I told my stepdad and he is all excited. He said he can't wait till he comes home. He still has 3 more weeks. Hes worried about his motorcycle getting messed up when this hurricane comes. I am talking to my brother in Baton Rouge. They are having tonados. I am really worried. He said the wind is blowing really bad. One hasn't hit where he lives, but it could. :( So please pray for him.

See You at the Pole ws great yesterday. Atleast a hundred students showed up. Will is suppose to call or get on the computer and tell me something. He couldn't tell me earlier because there was too many people around us. He is at the game right now along with all my other friends. I don't go to football games usually. All they do is sit around and talk. I have work around here that I have to do. Most of my friends all don't have chores or any work to do. They are all spoiled. I have work to do all the time. Today I had to get everything put up in the yard before the hurricane comes. We don't have school tomorrow because of the hurricane. I am kind of glad because I had a poster due tomorrow and I haven't even started. So I have till Monday. Howdy Neighbor Day is cancelled. That really sucks! Well I got to go! L8er!

Today was so much freakin fun. Will is so freakin hilarious. We have been talking and hanging out all day. I wrote him a note and he got it taking away in Mrs. Taylors class so she is writing us up. Thats nothing new for us. lol. I can't wait till Howdy Neighbor Day Saturday!! It's alwaays so much fun! I am going to hnag out wil Stephenie and Will. I am suppose to beat Will up there. Ryan wouldn't leave me alone today. He kep pushing me everywhere. I am not sure if he is going to Howdy Neighbor Day or not. I am sure he is because like every person in this town usually goes. Tomorrow is See You at the Pole. I am going to be the first one speaking. I am really nervous. I hate speakin in front of people, but she wanted me to so I said I would. Well I have to go lift and then finish my project. L8er!!

James came over Friday. Yesterday we went to chalk hills and went dove hunting. He is Wills cousin. I didn't know that till he told me yesterday. So that's pretty cool. I haven't talke to anybody this weekend except for Ryan. We got the flat on our dirtbike fixed. So now we can ride it again. YAY!! I can a poster that is due soon so thats what I did most of the day. I hate when we have to do those project things. We have a lot of evacuees at our school. There are people staying at our church too. So thats cool. I really need to ask Will something. He better be at school tomorrow. We had so much fun Friday. I wish he would have gotten his class schedule changed. We have no classes together and that sucks. Well I got to go.....L8er!!

I went to church this morning and in Sunday school we did this really funny activity. Then at 4:00 I went back to church to help clean up. We had to clean the Family Life Center. We mopped and everything. It took us 3 hours. Then we ordered pizza and we talked about what we are going to talk about on our retreat next month. Its going to be a lot of fun. I hope they end up canceling school tomorrow because of the hurricane. I have a lot of family that live down south. :( I hope they will be okay. This is a really good song I am listening too. I talked to Will today and he said he had to tell me something REALLY important....lol. I am sure its something really stupid. We are going to get some new stuff for our dirtbike soon. One of them is pink and purple so we are changing that to blue and green and a few other changes. Dirt bikes are so awesome. Well...I got to go...L8er!!..

My stepdad came home from Africa yesterday. Then him and I went to Baton Rouge to get Michael because of the hurricane. So he is here. I saw my dad for a few minutes today. Nathan went over to his house. I wouldn't mind going, but I have to go to church in the morning. And usually he doesn't want me. He has always only wanted Nathan and none of us. So I haven't ever really spent time with him. My stepdad is leaving to go to Canada Monday. He may leave tomorrow, he doesnt know yet. I wish Malcolm would get on; I really need to talk to him. Well I got to go put my dog in and do a few other things outside. L8er...

Today was our first day of school. I hate all my classes. I don't have any classes with Will. That sucks because those are always the funnest ones. He told me this really funny joke today. He said I told him it but I dont remember...lol. I dont know. Lunch was really fun. I didn't see Malcolm though. He said he saw me, but I couldn't find him. James didnt go school shopping till the last minute so he had to get a purple binder...lol. So we are giving him one of our old ones till her can get a new one. I wish I had some classes with Will. I guess we will just have to hang out at lunch. Anywayz.....I went to church tonight. We didn't have youth. We had to take everything out of every room in the church and take it to the family life center. And our church is 3 stories so it was a lot of work. They are repainting it and stuff. So I helped out there for a while. Then my mom came and I went to Wal Mart to get crap for school. And now I have to go to check on my dog and probably watch TV. L8er....

Well....ist 12:07am here. I have to get up at 6:30am for school and catch the bus at 7:00am. That sucks. I hate school, but I love riding the bus. We always have so much fun. I saw Will tonight. He is really crazy and funny. He said he HAD to give me a tour around our school tonight, even though I already have been there and all. I was just going with Matthew. So he was like who cares come with me. So I was like ok whatever. Then I see Tiffany and we started talking and he is like hello I was talking to her first. Then I went back with Will and he wanted me to meet somebody. The person he wanted me to meet was this girl that really hates me a lot. He did it just to make me mad. I tell him everything and I dont know why, btu at least he doesnt go off and tell everybody. I think Kali (the girl that really hates me) hates me because she likes Will and he doesnt like her and he is my friend so I get to hang out with him....lol. She was telling everybody she could beat me up and everybody was like yeah we would like to see you try to touch her...lol. Everybody knows I could beat up every girl in that school and a lot of guys. So Will made this stupid name up and he calles me manly morgan. And one day at school we dressed him up like a girl with make up and everything so I call him womanly will. I know its stupid but I dont care. We are all stupid. So yeah we are good friends. Kali was standing by Will and I walked over to Will because he asked me to come over there. And she tells Will that she has to leave becauser her mom sais she cant associate (however you spell it) with me. SO me and Will start cracking up. She does every freaking thing her mom tells her to do. She has never done anything wrong or snuck out of the house or even spent the night at somebodys house. And she thinks that everybody likes her. She gets on my freaking nerves. So Will was suppose to email me back but he hasnt. He said he had to tell me something real important. Well I guess I should go. L8er.....

I woke up at about 7:00am. I didn't do much today. Matthew and I just sat around and acted stupid most of the day. We had to clean the house up last night because my stepdad is coming home from work Friday. He works in Africa. He is on the border of Chad and some other country where they are having come war. So they are having a hard time. I hope he is okay. I have only talked to him once since he left, but not since they moved him. Friday I went to see Michael in Baton Rouge. I came home yesterday. We start school Wednesday. I am not ready to go back. I havent been on here much. I talked to Will and Ryan yesterday. And this is the first time I have been on today. I talked to Tiffany on the phone though. She was babysitting her brother and sister, so it was hard to talk. Nathan was at Walkers all day, but he is coming home tonight....I think. Richard came by yesterday. He couldn't stay long though. That was the first time I had seen him in like a month. I wish he could move in with his dad. That would be awesome. Then we could see each other all the time. He is the only one that will play football with me. So it sucks that he hardley ever gets to go to his dads. Well I got to go outside and do something. L8er!!! Trusting oneself is foolish, but those who walk in wisdom are safe. Proverbs 28:26

I didn't really do anything today. At 5:00 I went and got a haircut. I just got it trimmed. I am letting it grow out and then I am going to give it to this organisation where they make wigs for cancer patients who have no hair. Then I went to church. It was great as usual. We played two games, and we had out Bible study. I don't usually like playing the games, but I love the Bible studies. Todays was kind of a reveiw of what we learned at Big Stuf Camp. Matthew gets to go to camp with us this year...YAY!! Nathan isn't going though :( He is going with a different church. Well I got to go take a shower and check on my dog. Trusting oneself is foolish, but those who walk in wisdom are safe. Proverbs 28:26

Last Friday and Saturday I went to Hot Hearts. It was awesome. They had an awesome band. And there was a speaker from Houston, Texas. He was cool. Then when we returned home Saturday we went to Baton Rouge. We went to help Michael move. We stayed over night and came home Sunday. I didn't want to come home. Every since he moved out last October we have grown closer. We used to hang out everyday. It has been hard since then. We have talked on AIM every day though, which helps. I can't wait to go and see him. I think my grandma might be going Friday so I might go, even though it is my last weekend before school. I wanted to go and do some stuff, but I really want to see him. I won't get to see him but like every 3 months when school starts. We start school Wednesday, August 24 I think. I am not really ready to go to school but whatever. I am talking to Blaine. He is ready for school. He is coming to Junior High this year. He is excited to be leaving GPMS. That is the worst school ever. So is Matthew. So this year is going to be awesome, hopefully. Last year wasn't that great. My only good class was math. It was so much fun. We got Will in so much trouble. He would get in trouble and we wouldn't. Except this year his mom will be teaching math so thats going to suck. She won't let us talk but whatever. I am kind of ready but not really. I haven't seen some of my friends since school let out. So I am kind of excited about that. Well I need to go take a shower. So.....L8er!!

"I curse the day I was born!...Why was I ever born? My entire life has been filled with trouble, sorrow, and shame." This doesn't sound like one of God's greatest prophets. Yet it is! it's Jeremiah, pouring his heart out to God, wishing he'd never been born. Everyone has felt that way at one time or another. Most of us have wished we would just CHECK OUT of this life. For some, though, that desire gets so intense that they act on it. Suicide is the third leading cause of death among American teenagers. Everyone occasionally faces despair, but why does one person struggle through while another ends his life? The critical factor is loss of hope. A suicidal person looks at his or her problems and says, "IT'S DARK OUTSIDE, and I am powerless to change things. What's more, I have no hope that things will get better." What does God think about suicide? Unfortunately, the Bible does not give a simple here's-what-God-says-about-the-issue answer. But it does give us some helpful principles. First, we aren't the author of life, God is. There is no "self-made" men or women. You're here because God made you in his image; because he loves you, he wants to know you, and he wants you to know him. When someone commits suicide, he or she is saying, "Look, God, you goofed when you let me slip into this world. So I'm going to correct your mistake." But life-and death-are GOD'S TERRITORY. To trespass on that holy ground means you've decided to play God. God does not look on it lightly. However, suicide is not an inforgivable sin. Jesus said there is only one of those, and it's not suicide. This doesn't mean suicide is okay. Actually, suicide is one of the most selfish, cowardly, and hateful acts anyone can commit. Those who have ever had to deal with someone's suicide know: the EMOTIONAL DEVASTATION for those left behind is unbelievable. Suicide doesn't solve problems. It dumps them on someone else, multiplied many times over. Don't believe the lie that "everyone will be better off without me." They won't. You'll just cause overwhelming pain and heartbreak. So what do you do when you - or someone you care about - decided you simply want to end it all? First, remember you're not alone. Everyone has felt that way. If others can deal with it, you can too. Second, don't loose hope. Things can get better. Sometimes all you need is time. Mitch Anthony, founder of the National Suicide Help Center, puts it like this: :Suicide is a permanet solution to a temporary problem. It's like cutting off you leg because your little toe hurts." Third, know the DANGER SIGNAL that indicates someone might be considering suicide; going through a family crisis; being a victim of abuse or neglect; drug abuse (yours or a family member's); death of a friend or family member; approaching the anniversary date of a significant loss or death; previous suicide attempts; family histpry of suicide; preoccupation with death and/ or talk of suicide. If you or a friend are experiencing one or more of these signals, talk to someone you can trust - someone trained to help you with your problems. Counseling is exstremely important. Finally, remember, even if it seems no one else cares about you and your pain, God cares. He cares deeply. Pour your troubles out to him. He understands because he, too, has experienced the depths of human experiences. When you are tempted to give up, to take the cowards way out and end it all, remember what Winston Churchill once said: "Success is never final; failure is never fatal; it is courage that counts." And Jesus says, "Take heart, because I have overcome the world." (John 16:33)

Im talking to Brooke. She is like my best friend. Her dog Rebel died. :( Well...last night I went to church. In youth we talked about walking on the edge of the line and crossing it. We wrote down what we would like to be doing in 5 and 10 years from now. One mistake can ruin or future hopes and dreams. And we talked about asking our selves what is the wise thing to do not the right. Even if its not wrong it may not be wise. So you ask yourself what is the wise thing to do in light of my past experiences, current circumstances, and future hopes and dreams. I thought that was a good thing to talk about. Well I doubt any of you are really interested in what Im saying but I really don't care. Anywayz....Im going to this Hot Hearts thing tomorrow and Saturday. Theres going to be music and all kinds of stuff. There is going to be a really good speaker there. I don't know why my brothers never want to go. They are always so much fun. Nathan, he goes on Sunday and he is done for the week. Matthew will go on Wednesday sometimes too. Michael doesn'y go hardley at all. Me on the other hand, I would go everyday if I could. I am so much different than them. Thats okay though. Well Im going to go I have some stuff I need to do. L8er. :)

Well...I haven't wrote in this thing in about a week. I went to LaFayette to get me a new hat a few days ago. I really needed a new one. Nathan is sitting right beside me playing Walkers gamecube. He is playing Resident Evil 4. That game is awesome, I suck at it though. I am not ready to go back to school. I am not really sure but I think we start August 24. I am not sure though, but I know that we start on a Wednesday. I hate school. I think I am going to have to mow again tomorrow. I hope not though. Well I am going to check the mail feed my pigs and play with my dog and maybe ride my horse.

I can't ever remember to write in here.I am suppose to go to LaFayette tomorrow or Friday. I don't know if I am oging to go or not though. I might go with my mom amd my brothers and their friends to Monroe. They are going to go see The Dukes oh Hazzard. I want to go see that, butI also need a new hat. Its hard to find Browning hats here. So I usually go to LaFayette to buy them.So I really dont know what to do. I am probably going to LaFayette though. I am surprised Ryan isnt on. He is always on. I didn't really get to talk to him last night. I will be able to talk to him tonight if he gets on. He usually gets on every night. I talked to Blaine this morning. He didn't talk as much as he usually does. Usually you can't get him to shut up..lol. This CD I am listening to is my favorite CD in the whole world. Its called Casting Crowns. Its cool. I am kind of ready to go back to school, but only to see friends. I haven't seen Will but like once since school got out. I have some pictures I have to show him. We start school in like 2 weeks, and they haven't even provided us with school supply lists. So we don't know what we have...but who cares. I am so freaking bored. I am suppose to go with my mom at 7:30..she has to get a haircut. I have to babysit Reginas baby Gus. So its going to be boring. He is probably going to sleep the whole time. He is lie 5 months old I think..or something like that. I am not sure. My brothers rae going to drive me crazy. They will not leave me alone. I am going to hurt them!! I can't wait till my birthday in November. I have a long time to wait. Nathan and I always have our birthdays together because his birthday is November 21 and mine is November 24. Last year was so much fun. We had a mud fight. Then we played some stupid game called kind of the hill or something. So we were pushing each other off of the dirt mound thingy. I was the only girl playing. My friends didn't want to play. They are afraid to get dirty. It was fun though. The guys are mean to me sometimes though. Nathan gets mad sometimes though. When he has some friends over he doesnt want me to stay with them and whatever, but they dont care if I do. We have a lot of fun. Except my mom wont let me sometimes. She is afraid we will do something. My gosh they're just friends. One time they were cooking outside a few weeks ago and me and William were cooking bake beans. And he put a piece of sour gum in it to see if it would make it taste different, but it didnt. Then Kelton ate it. Well I am about to go do something outside. So...l8er!!

Well church was great Wednesday. We had so much fun. Our youth to Water Town in Shreveport, but I didnt go. I already went thsi summer. And somebody wanted to go and they had never been so I let them have my place. Yesterday we didnt do much. I am really bored. My dog tore a hole in the barn. So he sleeps in there now. I am talking to Ryan right now and he is being really stupid. I dont want to go back to school. I am not sure what day we go back but its like in 3 weeks I think. I am not sure.I dont really care though. Its really hot outside. We have had rain in forever. I wish we would get some. I am suppose to mow today, but I dont think I am. Its too hot. so I think I will probley stay inside most of the time. Next Friday I am suppose to be going to Lafayette with my grandma. Thats like 2 hours away. I have to get me another hat. They are $20. So I cant spend all my money before then. I am really bored. I think I might go to my grandmas and hang out with some friends. Ryan, Will, and Dylan live over there by her. I dont know if I want to see Ryan though. He is being really nasty right now. Well I am going to find something to do...l8er!

Well...my stepdad left to go to work this morning. Something is going on between one of my brothers and my mom. My brother wont tell me either. He usually tells me everything. He said that my mom will probley never speak to him again. So its something serious..I just dont know how to get it out of him. Well nothing really happened today. It was pretty boring..Bye!