Today I woke up early and got on yahoo messanger and talked to a few friends. Well I was suppose to go to my grandmas at 1. I didn't go till 3, so what I as suppose to do, I could not longer do. That Sucked!! So I stayed outside and played with our puppies for about 2 hours. Then I went fishing. It was boring because my brothers weren't there. I could have invited somebody to come over tonight, but I didn't feel like it. I might go to Baton Rouge tomorrow. I don't know if I want to yet. I probley won't though. Today was pretty sucky. L8er today I went out to eat with my grandma and my mom. I can't wait till my brothers come home. Although, I did have a lot of fun with my other brother Michael. He's crazy. He gets embarressed too easily though. I like to have fun in life and not worry about what others think of me. I did have a fight with my mom today. I saw this really neat orange county choppers comforter and bed stuff. I don't know what you call it all. So I asked her if I could have it for my birthday and she goes on with all this crap about me being a girl and that I should act like one and do stuff that girls do. I can't help it if i like to go hunting, fishing, and do stuff that guys like to do. I have spent all my life around guys. I don't have any girl cousins or sisters. So I wasn't raised around make up and all that shit. I can't help it that I am like this. All my friends except me for who I am. Yeah sometimes the guys pick on me, but the still except me. I don't know why she can't except me for who I am. If she wants a damn daughter that likes all that shit then why don't she have another damn baby. I'm sick of all this shit. I do everything I can for her. I make honor roll in school. If I make a B or even make a c on a paper I get chewed out, but my brothers can make F's on their report cards and don't get in a bit of trouble, but if I make a B I get in a ton of trouble. She says I have all these special priveleges, that my brothers don't have. What special damn priveleges do I have? I don't even get my own room. I have to share with one of my brothers, but my other brothers get their own. That's stupid shit. It's weird though. My mom got married January 1, 2005. My stepdad excepts me for who I am and realizes what I have been through a lot. He takes me hunting and fishing more then anybody. It makes my mom so mad, but she will get over because its my life and I will do what I want to do with it. I have also always wanted to be a bull rider. For years, my dream has been to be like Lane Frost and become a world champion bull rider. It may sound crazy to some of ya'll, but I have confidence in myself. My mom doesn't believe in me and thinks I am crazy, but my stepdad believes in me and always has. I don't need her to pursue my dreams, all I have to have is confidence in myself and Jesus. I am still on horses. I haven't got to go to a rodeo with just my stepdad yet. I go to them all the time, but with my mom. You can sign up and ride a baby bull for $35. She won't let me do it though, but she will sit there and sign up my brothers. Do you know how bad that hurts? My brother don't even want to be bull riders when they grow up, except for one of them. They support be and try to help me do everything I can so that I can ride. I will never be able to though. My mom gets mad if I grow outside and rope. I slowely lose confidence in myself. The only reason I probley that I have made it this far and still have confidence in myself is because my brothers, stepdad, and friends have been there for me. I will probley never become a pro. or even close, but I thank everybody for getting me this far. Ya'll should pursue ya'lls dreams too. Don't let your mom or dad, or boyfriend/girlfriend keep you from it. If you have confidence in yourself and you have Jesus in your heart and can do anything. This may not make any sense to anybody because I am really pissed right now and can't think strait.